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bỗng nhiên thấy mình vỡ

vỡ vụn như kiểu một quả trứng socola vỡ ra, để lại bên trong một thân hình figure của một sinh vật, một hình nộm nào đó.

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despite all the masks i'm wearing and the roles i'm playing in front of people, i realize i'm just a fragile 12 yo kid who standing in the school yard and thinking about e.nding my life.

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Hi Neil,

My friend got engaged to her girlfriend of 7 years dressing up as Aziraphale and Crowley. It would mean so much if they could get a blessing from you! 💙

She proposed at a GO fan event with the witness of fandom friends, so really we just want to tell you how much your work meant to us in the fandom…

You are the greatest of all time. Thanks so much for your brilliant work!

Congratulations to them both!

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Music in Film: Aftersun (2022) dir. Charlotte Wells

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just like a dream

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mình thích cảm giác được đi đến quán cafe và thấy sách của chủ quán, từ đó đoán được gu đọc

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những điều muốn làm/ tiếp tục làm/ học sau khi nghỉ tfv: - chụp ảnh lại - làm sổ tất nhiên để tặng hem phải để bán - viết - may đồ - học múa đương đại - đấy đủ 5 đầu ngón tay rồi đấy giời ạ =)))

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Wilmon and hands season 2

I love how they kept the focus on Wilmon and hands in season 2.

Even if they had a lot less really intimate scenes and much more focus on their separate development, them touching and holding hands remained a focal point in season 2.

Even in Wille's dream it's a prominent and important aspect of the intimacy they share. To touch and be touched is so important for Wille.

And it's one of the last thing he dreams of before waking up - holding Simon's hand tenderly.

Then their hands touch by accident (or was it an accident) and you can basically feel the charge that runs through them.

How many memories run through their heads before Simon pulls away. Because Simon is hurting and he's realising just how hard it is to be near Wille. How much it will hurt and how much he can't ignore the pain.

So he pulls away because he's protecting himself and his heart. And then after this he asks Wille for space.

And I think this moment is so much more powerful because of the distance between them through season 2.

Even though Simon has pushed him away before, Wille is still reaching out.

There's a bit of hesitation but at the same time he feels assertive. As if he knows that there's hope for them now.

But he's slow and careful so that Simon has the chance to pull away if he oversteps his boundaries . It's still on Simon's terms but even if it is Wille is still managing to show Simon what he wants.

And this time Simon is not pulling away at all.

It's such a beautiful moment where they are both trying to figure out what will happen to then. They are bringing comfort to each other again. They are trying to be on the same page even if it's difficult because Simon needs to go to the police to bring himself justice and for Wille that has huge consequences.

He'll have to give up on the freedom he's just realised he will be able to have.

It should feel hopeless, it should drive them apart even more.

But it doesn't at all. Because they are being honest and communicating with eachother and most of all. They understand eachother and listen to eachother.

It feels like they feel hope for the first time in months. Both of them.

And then we have their final moment together. Such a beautiful scene.

They hold eachothers hand, they comfort eachother, they are on the same page and Simon most definitely helps Wille be brave. Even if they are litterally ten meters away from everyone else in a wide open corridor they are not afraid to be affectionate and show their love.

It's such a beautiful and tender moment for them.

The more I think and a analyse this season the more I fall in love with it!

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wilhelm + crush behaviour

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Felice and Wilhelm kissing scene was painful to watch but mainly confusing because it’s a damn copy-paste of Wilhelm and Simon’s love scene in season 1. It’s almost the same moves and looks and rhythm and it happens on the opposite bed of Wilhelm’s room just like if it was literally a mirror image. 

And that make sense, the intention was for Wilhelm to try to feel something similar but that moment was beautiful because it was with Simon and in no way he could recreate it with someone else, not even a person he deeply care for like Felice. 

I actually like this scene, it’s smart and realistic. He’s vulnerable and sad and with someone he is safe with, them kissing make sense. It’s dumb but it’s very teenager-in-pain life. 

What i love the most is Wilhelm face when Henry interrupts them. It’s shame and sadness. He knows it was a bad call and he would have wanted to erase it. But now people will know and it won’t be possible. And he certainly does not want Simon to know. Not because it’s him ‘cheating’ in a way but because what happened is not what it seems. It’s not him trying to move on, i feel that it’s him trying to relive past moments with Simon and maybe seeking some confort.

Anyway they did handle this part very well in my opinion. They address the situation very quickly afterwards, Wilhelm apologizes and Felice calls him out on his behavior. It’s honest and good communication and they move on. 

And the following scene in the dining room where he is asked on the table and him refusing to talk about it and begging for privacy is gold. 

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waooooooooo

Pointing out little moments and details of one of my fav scenes that need to be remembered.

“what will happen to us?” scene • episode 5 | part 2

here’s part 1

wilhelm’s active role in leading their motions. it’s something we are used to see from all their previous intimate moments, reflecting his need to not be controlled, but to be the one in control for once in his life.

then roles reverse, it’s simon who takes charge by guiding them on the bed and wilhelm letting himself be charged. he chooses to be vulnerable in a way.

highlights: wille’s hands on simon’s waist when he sits on his laps and them making out in front of the royal speech’s cards hanged up on the wall. iconic.

wide shots that emphasize them sharing the same little space and being so affectionate, living a moment that’s only for them to remember, are truly a gift.

intimacy always meant growth in their relationship, by exploring together and creating a comfort zone. they also know their bodies way much better by now, what the other likes and dislikes, how to turn each other on.

so this is not only simon’s eagerness, but them feeling extremely safe and comfortable too.

my fav shot of the scene: simon’s hands cupping wille’s face, fluid movements and eyes closed from melting into the kiss. they fit so perfectly.

this is exactly what i meant writing that wilhelm chooses to be vulnerable and let his guard down under simon’s weight, hands and kisses on him. he is completely carried away by the pleasure he’s feeling.

there’s not even need to say that wille closing the curtains is one of the most powerful and meaningful moments of all.

their smiles right after drives me insanely happy.

closing the same curtains that were left open at that time feels like closing that heartbreaking chapter of their story too. it doesn’t mean forgetting about it, but being ready to move on and not allowing it to ruin what they have anymore.

this is the image we’re left with: the sound of their chuckles in the background, the darker room, them finally having the privacy they should have gotten the first time and we also, as an audience, are not supposed to see any further.

it’s their moment. and for them only.

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wilhelm seeing simon and knowing that whatever comes next, they’ll face it together, knowing that no matter the consequences… it’s worth it.  

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What will happen to us? I don't know.

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could i have a moment… i want to be with you… i love you

YOUNG ROYALS | SEASON 2, EPISODE 6

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Power couple's angry walk

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YOUNG ROYALS 1.05 | 2.06