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are u ever sick w longing. and i don't just mean romantic longing. i mean longing for a place you barely get to see, longing for friends you no longer have, longing for feelings you might have left behind in your childhood, longing for creativity, longing for a rich and more expansive life, longing for less inhibition. longing for more passion. longing for ur life to be so incandescent w something it thaws all the frost in ur bones. are u ever so consumed w it it rends ur heart in two. do u understand me

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My photography.

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You didn't come into this world. You came out of it, like a wave from the ocean. You are not a stranger here.

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I guess if being a jackass dick to your fans is what brings back your light…

MANNNNNNN

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Lmao this is the best thing I’ve heard in weeks

went to report the old wounds video but there’s no option for AI so I just picked terrorism

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There’s like 0.001% chance that a school who is supposedly hosting Gerard leading a masterclass would make the announcement using a grainy, non-professional photo that looks like it was taken by a fan or paparazzi on a decade old phone camera. But I guess people will literally believe anything if it came from tumblr right?

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This isn’t repentance

Anthony is repenting for his ai sins by showing his kids people's fnaf fanart

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So fucking glad I never got an LS Dunes tattoo or some other permanent reminder of them. You can try to walk back your comments all day long, but we already know now how you really feel about people who spent hours selling their soul to lovingly create art and photos and free promotion for your band.

Since you “allow” people to pour their hearts into art based on your band and shitty logo, here’s to hoping all of those actually talented artists stop doing it and stop giving any more of their free time to a band that’s so willing to just shit in the faces of their fans and supporters.

I hope you fizzle out into something that no one even remembers by the end of the decade.

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August 2025

Sometimes you remember how easy it was to be young.

Sometimes it comes back to you like the rush you get when you touch something unexpectedly cold and your skin burns like it’s hot instead.

The first time it happens, you’re not ready, and the moment slips away too quickly for you to get any relief from because you spent the whole time trying to figure out what it was. The next time, it’s a faster realization, and you know you’re feeling something you haven’t felt years, in decades, and then it’s gone.

You’re ready to swallow it up the next time, ready to embrace the relief you know is there in that memory that becomes more vivid every time, that memory of what it was before, before now, before the weight of everything started to become more than you could bear.

It’s like this rare little gift from your own mind, bestowing this to you as a peace offering, hoping to distract you from what it does to you every day. In the moment, it’s enough to make you feel like you could get back there to that place you were again one day. It keeps being offered to you again and again, this memory of easiness, this feeling of weightlessness, of before, before this world, it curls around you, reaching for you, and you know you shouldn’t let it overtake you, and yet, you can’t help it because you need the relief, you need the few seconds of nothing, the fleetingly quick moments that fill you with something, anything better than now. You let it tip the edge of your mouth into a partial smile before you feel it slipping away, before your mind closes down, and you realize that you let it in for too long this time.

You let yourself hope.

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Happy Birthday, My Chemical Romance 🥀🖤

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July, 2025

Time.

Is there ever actually anything good about it? The first things that come to mind are never good, never what you want, never on the pro list. Maybe it’s different for some people, and time is the only thing that’s slotted for the side that means everything is okay. People that actually get something that resembles comfort from “time heals all wounds” and other cliche shit like that.

Sometimes, I want it to be something that I can grasp on to with some kind of reckless abandon, the thing that you see as the light at the end of the pitch black tunnel, that maybe if you wait it out, it will give you the glimpse of something more than the thick, ink-black wall that you face every time you think of what’s next.

That’s the problem with it. That’s why there’s nothing good about it. If you really think about it, the only good thing about time would be hope, and hope is the most dangerous thing you can ever have in this world.

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photos silencieuses, oeil bruyant

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This hopeless feeling

This fear of falling down

But I'm not crashing now

For all this bleeding

It wasn't worth the sound

Of millions screaming out

And still

The end comes reeling

The curtain calls my name

I'm not afraid

And I know

You may not miss me

But I am not ashamed

The choice I've made

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Sometimes MCR tattoos can all start to look the same, and then there’s this one, and it’s so different, unique and so clearly personal. This is the vibe I want when I get one. Love just that touch of deep red, truly gorgeous

Okay so uhhh first tattoo ?? Win <333

I knew well and good my first piece would be an MCR piece and it’s very much a bullets piece in spite of the use of The Widow (I was gonna add lyrics to that but I think if I wanted to I’d just . Go back once it’s healed) and I’m obsessed with it tbh

I was all very excited about a collage-esque look bc well . I love me a collage and I literally sent one I made in my reference pics and it was GREAT I love it sm

(Artist: Rod Rubio)

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Really want to do a zine, but there are so many way more talented people already doing them.

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Something you never had

Something you had and lost

When it doesn’t fall under either?