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testing out sfm again after not having used it for months if not years

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Pour one out for my friend Michelle, who was wearing her City 17 rebel kit at a con and had a kid come up to compliment her on her Gmod cosplay.

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oh man, i really hope my alien isnt sobbing right now

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if half life is so good then why isn’t there a half life 2? oh there is? well then if half life 2 is so good why isn’t there a half life 2 2? oh there is? ok well if half life 2 episode 2 is so good then why does it allow evil to exist in the world?

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Do you think the Benrey plushies would still exist in the Streamman verse? Obviously, Gordon wouldn't want to profit off the science team, but I think it would be very funny if Benrey was super enthusiastic about distributing little minions of himself across the globe.

There is one Benrey plush. Benrey commissioned an artist on Etsy to manifest him in plush for Gordon's Christmas present in 2020. Gordon often goofs around about how Benrey paid for the doll so that Gordon couldn't get away from him by leaving the computer, but he treasures that thing.

Benrey is absolutely the kind of person who gives you art of himself as a gift.

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Your honor, they are just silly wittle grubs

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within twenty minutes someone in chat has made a star trek meme with captain picard going COMPUTER. SHOW ME NEMO

God I love the idea of Gordon being like "one sec be right back" and then a minute later his avatar opens his mouth and in an itty bitty kid voice goes "hi my names joshua my favorite color is red who are you guys!!!"

HI COMPUTER CAN YOU SHOW ME NEMO

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God I love the idea of Gordon being like "one sec be right back" and then a minute later his avatar opens his mouth and in an itty bitty kid voice goes "hi my names joshua my favorite color is red who are you guys!!!"

HI COMPUTER CAN YOU SHOW ME NEMO

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Hi hiiii I binge read your series in 3 days since I've ended up back in my HLVRAI state. Your writing is phenomenal!! I enjoyed every second. You characterize everyone so, so well and really stick to the humor of the series with your own little spins to boot. I think my favourite thing is how you manage to balance both humor and serious moments in a way that fits. I like a lot of the deeper angles you've taken, exploring a lot of the existentialism and horror of the situation. As an enjoyer of the cosmic and unknowable horrors all the little bits and pieces of it make me soooo happy!! Especially when Gordon shows the science team his real face. That stuck with me and it's such an interesting take on the idea (but it also makes a lot of sense too!). The feelgood vibes all over the place make me equally as happy. Friends making the best of what they have :] There is a fine balance between the sheer terror of one's existence and the comfy, lil' moments appreciating what you have. You've done great at giving both of them <3 Super excited for whatever comes next! I'll probably reread them all in the meantime. Adoring all your thoughts and the concepts you explore. There's so much potential on the spooky side that your works have opened my eyes to. Also sorry for the really long message. It had to be done.

I took a couple days to answer this bc I was holding it close to my heart for a while. Thank you so much!! If there's anything I love to write, it's The Horrors balanced with The Power of Friendship. And being a goofball. These are all important parts of being alive.

Never apologize for a long message like this, it makes me very very happy :D

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With Half-Life being talked about again, I do want to reiterate that Gordon Freeman went to work at one morning and; aside from being knocked unconscious and put into stasis a few times; went without sleep for the next six consectutive days

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How about that queer I owed ya!

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Half-Life Text Posts (Part 4)

This one uses some Incredible Fanart! Also Barney isn't in this one for reasons. You'll see.

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 |

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do you think the first person to do post canon frenrey roommates feels like oppenheimer

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imagine the AIs and gordon playing Davigo... how would that go

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well this is just them roleswapping the Benrey fight innit

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Does Gordon ever *purposefully* break the illusion?

Oh, for sure. It can be lots of fun! For more extreme things like pushing the limits of his character model, he's careful about his company, but Benrey is pretty much always down for that kind of nonsense. For example, Tommy's definitely walked in on them testing how far his arms can stretch by throwing one of his controllers across his stream room.

And relating more directly to the story, sometimes it can be fun to take advantage of how his mic picks up other noises that are relayed through his avatar's mouth. Joshua certainly loves it. Just imagine him a bit older, sneaking in while his dad is Live, and getting up real close to make his digital dad say something silly. Or give out his credit card number