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I feel like this might be the only way to tell you how i feel anymore. so here it goes, Alyssa you....even now i cant form the words to show how i feel about you, and i dont think i ever could but this is as close as its gets. You drive me more crazy than anyone i have ever met, and even after all the fucked up, shitty times we had you still run through my mind every day. i am plauged by thoughts of you... of us ... of everything we went through, of how i would do it all again just to see you smile one more time... for one more laugh , for one more day , for one more goodnight ,for one last dance , for one last kiss. I have nightmares where im with you again, and i wake up to a world where i cant just call you to hear your voice to make everything better. i took everything i have of you had and put it away in a safe place in hopes i could maybe forget it all but no matter how much time seems to slips past im still where i was... the day i ran into you at mero i almost couldn't bare to turn around to look at you , i wanted to tell you im sorry , i am still confused as to why i want to tell you this but. Even after you left me with a broken heart, feeling lost in the dark world i know all about. im getting through it ... slowly... by not giving, by being strong,.... because i said i would. because i made a promise because i love you..... every time im ask if im ok i have to lie and smile and say "yea im ok". every time im reminded of you i think my friends know because i get quite and they ask if everything is ok, and i want to say no... im not ok, because ... im still in love with her... i wish i could go back and punch and scream at myself for fucking up, and you can say i didn't do anything wring but i did, i became a ugly monster, someone i cant even believe i was. i let hate control me, and it cost me the thing i cared most about. i love you so much Alyssa. I miss you. i love you more than i think i will ever be able to explain, you are .... the one ray of light that was able to save me from the dark world i slipped into, the one person i would do anything for. i could go one for hours about my feeling for you, but i don't think you would care to hear about it all. i just need to tell you . im sorry for how i acted. i forgive you for everything. and most importantly "I Love you Alyssa" and i would do it all over again just to see you smile one last time.

02. Who has made the biggest impact in your life, and why?

I think the one person who has made the biggest impact on my life would definitely be Matthew Hammond. Best friend, ex-boyfriend (?), and the one person who’s been there for me no matter what crap was thrown at us, or him…I love this guy. He’s been there for me for 3 years and through all the ups and downs, he was always there in the end, especially when it was my fault for the downs :P Sooo if you’re reading this Matt, this one’s for you. Thank you, honeybunches. :P 

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Sponge bob in Minecraft!

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This is why i like dogs more.

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its friday! lets party!

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catz

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thinks with portals...and pokeballs

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poke-logic

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how i feel when tumblr is down

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for Halloween

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this explains everything >.>

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There is a mew under that truck!!!!

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WHY ARE THE SERVERS DOWN SO MUCH!

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no your doing it right!

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i dont even know