blackbellband - Tumblr blog

[blackbellband]

Gas And Melodies

This song is about two people that loved each other through music. They enjoyed sending each other songs, particularly on roadtrips throughout Oregon. Music was their primary bond of attraction But the very songs that glued them together weren't enough to hold to when the storms of life battered against them.

What followed was the lamentation of loves apparent failure.

In the end, their songs would become their deepest scars because of how many memories a melody can evoke.

-------Ash 🥷

Our songs still linger through the forests and beaches of my mind

The voice you killed me softly with haunts my dreams at night

But kisses tell the sweetest lies despite their best intent.

We hang each moment from a noose on the gallows of circumstance

Cause now we're runnin low on gas and melodies

When you're so far from me.

You can't love somebody through a telephone

But that's the way its had to be

My heart is breaking from the realization;

We've become just a bitter memory.

But all i do when i look at you,

is long for you and me

Your arms were home like no heart has known until you slammed the doors in my face

How could an angel let her voice fall silent and let our love fade away?

Let's gaslight our absolutions, just to overcomplicate

As im grasping at your fading illusions, I'm feelin you slipping away,

And now we're runnin low on gas and melodies

When youre so far from me.

You can't love somebody through a telephone;

But that's the way its had to be.

My heart is breaking from the realization

We've become just a bitter memory.

But all i do when i look at you is long for you and me

I held my breath for a ladybug

And suffocated in her shell

I Thought we tasted heaven

Now i dine on Ash in hell

now its four; im on the floor,

Barely breathing.

From Brightest dreams come darkest nights

True colors reveal meaning....

Now I'm runnin low on gas and memories

No more moments to hang onto with you

Darlin won't STAND BY ME through a telephone

But you'll do what you've got to do

My heart stopped hopin;

whats too goddamned broken decayed into a somber melody

But all i do when i look at you, is long for what we could be;

All i do when i think of you, is wish for everything

Cause all i do when I look at you, is ache for you and me

[blackbellband]

Listen to "Destroy Something Beautiful" on YouTube

[blackbellband]

"Destroy Something Beautiful "

Due Credits:

"Every Day is Exactly the Same," "Dancin with the Devil," "Crazy;" Songwriting credit go to Trent Reznor, Demi Lovato, Seal and the rest of their song writing teams.

"The Narrator;" Chuck Palaniuk wrote the story that inspired the song. May we all never be complete, content, or perfect. Once we achieve those, there's nothing else to work towards. We start to die as a human. I wanna live. Not invest my life in meaningless contrivances.

I played drums in addition to the bass, and guitars and vocals.

Mike Loudenback performed guitar duties. His lead playing speaks for itself as it's own voice in our music. I have been incredibly blessed to have had him around as my partner in rhyme for over a decade now. I'm grateful for every opportunity I get to collaborate with one of the finest musicians I've ever known.

Jared Tillford performed the piano, Rhodes, organ and string arrangements. His raw talent with composition pulled influences and colors out of these songs I didn't even know were there. He's incredible as a musician, as my best friend and most importantly, My brother

Thank you both for putting up with my intense levels of anguish and beer drinking, the belches in the mic, and nitpicking and all the other horrible things I did while we were making this.

Mike co-wrote the music with me on our original material. I wrote all lyrics, other than the covers.

He engineered, mixed and mastered the album in its entirety

Jared and Mike collaborated on the album cover

Lastly and most of all, thank you to the listener.

Be strong💪 and love one another ❤

Ash🥷🖖

[blackbellband]

"Destroy Something Beautiful "

The story.

Song 1 is about being on the road just thinking about all of the toxic things I've done, that i can't take back... but killing myself ain't gonna do me any good . I need to change and get rid of it all. That's how I come back from the shit. So we go back to the beginning ... back to The roots of all my deep insecurities that drive every decision I make.

Song 2 is about getting rid of Facebook. Muting myself for my own self preservation. Sharing my life with the entire universe got really old because of how irrelevant it made me feel in a cosmic sense. Comparing likes. Clamoring for people's attention? For what? An endless clamor in my head that more resembles hell than heaven? No thank you.

Song 3 is the emptiness resulting in my assessment of my life and what's brought me to where I am. (Nine Inch Nails cover)

Song 4 is my acknowledgment of my addictions and where they have led me over and over. An unending cycle of suffering. I actually wrote this song back in 2019. Mike unearthed it for this album specifically because of how it fit thematically

Song 5 directly addresses my two biggest addictions being booze and women. (Demi Lovato Cover)

Song 6 is my lamenting of one such toxic relationship that served to be the catalyst in my realization of this whole damned thing and where my life was headed.

Song 7 is the musical exploration of the journey. Destroying something beautiful

Song 8 is my lightbulb moment while watching Fight Club. My climactic moment that made me realize I couldn't blame anyone else but me for my life's shit. the only way I'm gonna get past this is to walk away from the root of what's causing it in my life. My pursuit of the American Dream. It's done nothing for me. I've had to create coping mechanisms just to deal with the bullshit pressure. Running the damned rat Race ain't worth the exhaustion anymore.

Song 9 is a lamenting hope that someday people will understand that I'm not crazy. I'm just trying to live differently according to a new set of values that run contrary to what's popular. I see the world for how it really is and my life has been a response to it ... same with everyone else. At this point, the only way I can survive is by doing something different that everyone else thinks I'm nuts for. (Seal cover)

It's a full honest glimpse into the life I have lived.

- Ash🥷🖖