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Bitty’s First Night In the Field Ft. @Vishous_DP and @Bitty_DP

V:

Emerging from the study Wrath had barked on about where everyone was going tonight on rotation, Bitty wasn't going to like when she finds out where we were going tonight. The Cop had drawn up a route for where we were going tonight, hell even I wasn't happy with it all either. Stomping down the grand staircase, going to the secret door under the stairs and punched in the code to enter the tunnels that led to the training centre and the medic ward.

Emerging in the supply cupboard of Tohr's office, I walked through and enters the training centre. Walking towards the medic centre, Bitty was seeing Q before we went out to reassure him that we were going to be fine tonight. Opening the door to the room where Q was laid up, Bitty was by his bedside, their hands linked together, going over to them I planted a deep and sensual kiss on Q's lips. Turning to Bitty I gave her a deep loving kiss “You ready for tonight?” I saw Q's face, with lines of worry “Don't worry too much Nallum we will be fine and will come back to you, feel me?” Bitty gave Q a kiss “Yes, I'm so excited” Christ how the fuck was I going to tell her where we were going tonight? “Come on we better get going” Leaning down I gave Q another kiss, Bitty said her goodbyes to Q and gave him another kiss.

Walking across the courtyard to the Escalade, pressing the button on the key fob, the indicator lights flashed signalling the SUV was open. Getting into the driver's seat, I buckled up and waited for Bitty to get in. Once she was in and buckled up I started the engine up “We’re in the suburbs tonight Nalla. Under no circumstances we are allowed near the clubs” Doing a K turn I headed down the road passing through the security gates before coming up to the junction to turn onto Route 22. I now know what Captain Picard felt like when he and the crew of the Enterprise were sent to the Romulan space to send back reports when the rest of Starfleet were engaged fighting with the Borg.

Bitty:

This was the night she had trained hard for. One that she had been waiting for since she was 13 years old. When her dad, Rhage, knelt down in front of her. And explained to her what he did. In the only way that he could. From that moment, she wanted to become a warrior like her dad. And she was well on her way. Though it took a lot of talking to her dad and mom, then her Uncles. Bitty didn’t do this to have others proud of her. No. She did this to save those that couldn’t save themselves. To protect. She could actually do something now. As a young she couldn’t. But now, everything was different. She was older, she could and would  fight.

Leather pants, knee high shit kickers, leather jacket just past her waist with a black tank top. Weapons hidden along her body. Always had to be ready for anything. And she was. She left her room, making her way down to see Q. Her dad caught her before she could get to the med suite. Without saying a word he gave her one of his bear hugs. She knew he was worried. But she would be safe. And she made to tell him as such, as she hugged him tight and kisses his cheek. Letting him go with a smile, she slipped into the door under the stairs. Making her way to see her Nallum Q. Once there she peeked in with a smile, not liking the worry on his face. She went and sat with him, holding his hand. She had hoped that he would have gotten to go out with both her Nallum’s. But Q had taken a gunshot to the gut. So this is all they had, for now. He was healing. When her other Nallum, V came in. He didn’t look happy. She was about to ask what was wrong. But she didn’t have time too. We wanted to make sure Q didn’t worry. Loves and kisses goodbye all around. Going to the door, she stops turning back around. “Nallum we will be back safe and sound. And I’ll text promise.” She hoped that would help.

Rushing to catch up with V. She almost had to run to catch up with him. She hopped up into the Escalade, buckling in. Turning to V her smile bright, but his words caught her guard. Her face fell. “What?!? But nothing has been out there for years V!!!” She wasn’t happy. “That shows what they think of what I can do. I work hard for this, and we’re getting sent to the suburbs!” She wanted to do treated like others, she understood they wanted to protect her. But come on. “We won’t see a damn thing out there! Should just stay home and go spend time with Q.”

She looked back to V. “I know Uncle Tohr and Uncle Butch do this. Do they think I can’t do this? I have proved I can. I know they worry, but Nallum. I want to do more than drive or walk around the suburbs!”

V:

“Nalla the Brothers care for your safety, especially your dad. I don't think he’ll forgive himself if anything happened to you out in the field on your first night Nalla, true?” Approaching a quiet cul de sac, the houses all looked dark except for one in the middle. Lights illuminated the property, this had to be a house that the owners were vampires but there was something wrong about it. The front door was wide open, a faint smell of baby powder traveled through the vents of the Escalade. Fucking shit Lessers were in there. “Nalla I think you're going to get what you wished for. Call for back now”

Slowly getting out of the Escalade, drawing a SIG from my jacket I cautiously approached the residence. Scanning the area to see if the vampires were alive or dead a lesser came out of the doorway, more like thrown out. Putting the SIG away I grabbed my dagger from my chest holster and stabbed the undead back to his maker, the bright light erupted before fading, fuck the other houses. Humans lived in them and any lights like that and they're be up investigating. Taking my leather glove off I placed my glowing hand onto the asphalt, my hand begins to shimmer. Concentrating the mhis rose covering the house and garden. The personal war between the vampires and Lessers were now disguised from human eyes.

Raising back to my feet, pulling on my lead lined driving glove, Bitty had joined me by my side “How long till back up is here Nalla?” “Dad said he be here as soon as he can Nallum” “We have to stay out here till he comes, or should I say you Nalla. I need to know what's going on” Taking the SIG back out I stalk up towards the front door. Something pushes me out of the way realising it was Bitty “NALLA!!!”

Bitty:

She sighed softly. “I know Nallum, but this is dangerous. We all know this, and everyone grilled me for hours. The reasons behind it and all. I was saved by the brotherhood. And the day that dad talked to me. I knew this what I wanted to do.” She looked out the window, as the city passed by and we made our way to the suburbs. To was so peaceful around here. A sigh escaped her lips, it was going to be a long fucking night. Drumming her fingers on the arm rest of the door. When the smell hit her nose, she almost wanted to gag. The hair on the back of her neck stood on end. A shiver traveled upper spine. Nodding her head, she pulled out her phone and called her dad. “Dad, we need back up at 1624 Maple Ave.” his deep voice coming over the line. “Be there as soon as I can my Bits.” She could hear him running. They hung up.

She hopped out, and made her way over, gun drawn from the small of her back. Her soft eyes turning hard as she checked out their surroundings. It was a two story house. The closer she got, the smell of baby powder become worse. She would never get use to it. Coming to stand along side her Nallum. Her body tensed and ready what might come at them. Her mouth dropped, did he really think that she was going to stand by and let him go in alone? The male was crazy if he thought that. He didn’t know what the hell he was walking into. He could be hurt and laid up right next to Q. She narrowed her eyes. “Or you could stay out here with me.” She said.

Not like the male listened to her. He was already stalking for the door. She was going to chew out later for that. He wasn’t paying attention. Bitty had a good view of the door from here. A lessor was coming up from around the corner. Without thinking she ran up and pushed V out of the way. He would have been hit in the head. And Scribe knows what else. The lessor was huge. Bitty had to look up to him. Shit! He grinned at her. He had a large bat in his hand. He raised it and swung down, she threw up her arms and crossed them. Making contact with bat. She could hear a crack. Pain laced through her arm but she ignored it. There was worse that happen. Pushing through the pain she pushed as hard as she could. He stumbled back and she drew her gun, holding it in one hand she shot him both arms and one leg. He roared out in pain. She drew a long dagger from her thigh and ran at him, swinging her dagger high and across, slicing across his throat. He grabbed his throat eyes wide at the small framed female before him.

Panting and spatted in black blood. Two female screams fill the air. Bitty froze, turning her head slowly. It was coming from upstairs. Flashes of the screams of her and her mahmen filled her mind. Shaking her head, she turned and ran up the stairs, taking two at a time. She followed the smell of blood and lessors. Running down the hall and through a door at the end. There in the room two lessors, an adult female on the floor, a young about 10 years old huddled in a corner, tears rolling down her cheeks. She was shaking like a little leaf. Bitty had to save the little one, she had to. Walking into the room, she popped off a few shots to one of the lessors in the back of the head. The little one screamed and covered her ears. Bitty ran, as the lessor turned and she placed herself between it and the little one. “You fucker, come at me. See how well you play with someone that knows what they are doing.” He grinned, as he rushed at her. They engaged in hand to hand. Her moves graceful and fast. As she kept the lessor away from the little one. He grabbed ahold of her and slammed her into the wall, holding her by the neck. She clawed at his hand. He looked pleased with himself. She smirked. “I’m going to beat that fucking look off your face.” He laughed as she reached into her boot and pulled out a knife and sliced through the muscles of his arm.

V:

Fuck that female was going to be the death of me. Running into the house a lesser was laying on the floor with its throat cut, taking out my dagger once again I stabbed the fucker in its chest where it's heart used to be, a bright light and a pop later the fucker was reduced to ashes. Sheathing my dagger back into the holster, I get up to my feet heading deeper into the house. On the kitchen floor there was a male, he was the one I presumed who threw the lesser out of the front door. The lesser I had sent back to the Omega in the hallway was the one who had killed the male. Another life wasted, I hated this past of the job. Running my gloved hand through my hair I hear a spine chilling scream from upstairs. Bitty!!

Running up the stairs I flatten my big body against the wall edging my way nearer to the room I heard the scream from. Craning my neck around the door jab, a ten year old female young was in the corner, her Mahmen, I guess was laid in front of her, a lesser with a gunshot wound in its head was next to the female's body. But the thing that had my blood boiling was another lesser that had my female pinned next to the wall, it's hands all over her. Bitty had taken her dagger out but couldn't get the reach right to sink her dagger into the lesser. My fangs descend, snarling loudly I grabbed the lesser by the neck, peeling the fucker off Bitty “You don't touch what belongs to me you fucking asshole” Striking quickly, sinking my fangs into its neck I tore it's throat out. Black oily blood spurted from its artery, I dropped the deadbeat onto the floor. Kneeling beside it I drew my dagger from my holster and stabbed the lesser back to the Omega.

A whimpering sound had me whipping my head around, fuck the young. “Nalla comfort the the young, you're dad should be here soon” Right on cue Hollywood came barrelling through the door “What the fuck? Bits are you alright?” Wiping the black blood off my chin with my gloved hand, I didn't want to scare the young anymore than what she was already. Yeah right I did a fucking good job at that when I ripped the lesser's throat out in front of her. Fuck I was a bastard, that young was going to have nightmares about that for a very long time.

Bitty:

Bitty thought she was done for. Even with the lesser’s arm cut. She heard her Nallum’s voice. Her eyes searched for him. Eyes locked on her male when he came into view. He was pissed to hell, and his fangs were out. In that moment she saw her true male. She fell to the floor on her feet, panting. Watching as her male ripped out the throat of the lesser. It was hard not to stare. Oddly it was a turn on to watch him like this. She stared for a long time until the whimper from the young brought her back. Nodding she walked over, dad coming in. A bruise on her neck from the lesser, arms screaming in pain. She would be fine once she fed. He came over and checked her over. “Dad I’m fine really.” Meeting his teal eyes. She tried to let him know she was ok. There was a young to worry about.

She bent down in front of the little one. “You’re safe now little one. Nothing will hurt you. I promise.” She opened her arms. Wide blue eyes met Bitty’s soft ones. The little one flung herself into Bitty’s arms. Wrapping her arms around the young, she picked her up. “I’m going to take her out of here.” With the young in her arms, she walked out. Keeping the young from seeing death all around her. Grabbing a blanket from the hall closet. She wrapped her, trying to get warmth into the young’s little form that shook.

Walking out the front door, she sat on the front steps, humming to the young, she rocked her back and forth. She stroked her hair. Memories of her past flooded her mind. Her mahmen holding her when she was hurt, humming to calm her. This little one was the reason she fought, she is the reason that she would go through the pain, even lay down her own life. To save just one was something. She just hoped that they didn’t pull her off. She would be chewed out for what she did. But a little girl could have died if she hadn’t done what she did. And she would do it all over again. If it meant she would be holding this young in her arms. This was her calling, this was her life. She would protect all that she could. She vowed to herself.

V:

Descending the stairs with Hollywood, this was going to have to reported to Wrath “Hey Hollywood this may be better coming from you but can you report this to Wrath. He’ll want to know the lessers are targeting the civilians in their own homes once again” “Will do my Brother but what are you and Bits be doing if I'm reporting this?” Coming to the front door Bitty was sat on the doorstep with the young wrapped up in a blanket “We be taking the young to Havers, to have her checked out and see if she has any other family” “What if there are none?” Hollywood enquired “Then she will have to go the Safe Place”

Hollywood clapped my shoulder “I hope there is someone out there for the young” Before I could answer him, Hollywood dematerialised back to the manse. Bending down next to Bitty “Hey Nalla, we need to take the young to Havers” I tried to take the young but Bitty refused to let go of her hold “Alright Nalla” Easing Bitty up so she was standing with the young in her arms, I put my arm around Bitty guiding her towards the Escalade. Opening the back door I helped her into the back, buckling them both into the back seat. Shutting the door I jumped into the driver's seat, turning the engine on I drove off to Havers. As for the young's parents, I'd have to come back before dawn and place the bodies in the cellar. Once there is confirmation of the young's relatives it will be them to do the fade ceremony. If not I would personally do that ceremony for the young.

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Confessions with @Vishous_DP and @Bitty_DP

V:

This night was going to be a long night, I could feel it in my bones. The trainees came in chatting about what had happened since they were last in the gym, but tonight was going to be extra tough as a new trainee was starting tonight, I had no clue who the trainee was but by going what Wrath was saying it sounded like I already knew them. “Right you lot line up, don't groan or I'll have you do laps for the rest of the night, feel me?” I was wanting them to groan but none did, now that was a fucking shame. After this class tonight I was heading up to the penthouse for a hardcore session.

I was about to put the trainees through their paces when the door opened slightly, a female entered all coy. It was Bitty, well I be damned. “Bitty join the rest of us and try your best for tonight, true?” Getting into a crouching position, the trainees did the same “Feet apart, knees bent” Standing up I passed by all the trainees, correcting their stances till I came to Bitty. Moving round the back of her I checked her out. That ass of hers, she had certainly became more female after the transition “Move your left foot back”

Bitty:

Tonight was the night. She was starting her training. It was something she always wanted to do. Since the moment she saw her dad get ready to go out, and she saw his gun. And like any dad, he had to explain what the gun was and how he would be safe. From that moment she knew what she wanted to be. A warrior. It took a lot of talking with dad and mahmen. Then it was talking to Uncle Wrath. But I asked that no one know I was coming. She was shorter than most. And being the daughter of a brother. There would be whispers and talk. Her every move watched. She just wanted it to be normal, she was just Bitty after all.

Making her way down to the gym, she chewed her bottom lip. She nervous, meeting everyone for the first time. Normally she was outgoing and loved to meet people. But this was all together different for her. Would they think she got special treatment from her Uncles? That wouldn’t got over well. Getting to the gym she could hear V through it. She placed her hand on the door. Maybe she could sneak in. Just find a place in the back. No. She would be seen. Slowly she pushed open the door. Upon hearing her name she flickered her gaze to the V, nodding. Some the trainees looked over at her. She could feel some judge her all ready. It was bad enough she had to talk her mahmen and dad walking her down here. But she hated to be judge. They had no idea who she was.

Not meeting their eyes, she went to the back of the group. At least she wouldn’t be staring at her, and what she did wrong. Even after growing up in the brotherhood, and watching them do their thing. She still would have to work to do what they did. Taking a breath she got into position. Sneaky glances at the others. Was she doing it right. She could feel V behind her. That made her a little nervous. Doing as he said, fuck she had messed up, she moved her left foot back, and got comfortable in the stance. Looking over her shoulder and up to V. Her bottom lip between her teeth. “Like that?” Her voice soft as she asked.

V:

Bitty turned around, she was biting her lip. Fuck me that was sending me over the edge, I could feel myself hardening in my leathers. No this was wrong, this was my niece for fuck sake but the feelings towards her were strong, I had to touch her. Moving closer to her I put my gloved hand and my ungloved hand on her elbows, the minute I made contact with Bitty electric pulses ran up my arms, fuck what was she doing to me? “Move your arms up higher, don't let the enemy have an easy shot, true?”

Backing away from Bitty I immediately felt cold, lost in the shadows again, I was at a lost at what I was doing. Looking around, yes teaching stances. Walking around to the front “punch the air in quick succession. One and two, one and two” Watching the trainees carefully, some were natural at the moves, others were clumsy. My eyes roamed the trainees till they landed back onto Bitty. Her movements were fluid, like Hollywood is.

Walking around the gym watching the trainees throwing punches, I gave advice where it was needed, I ended up at the back of Bitty yet again. Fuck she was beautiful from this angle, her ass moving delicately, her hips swiveling just enough to help with her motion. Her back was solid straight, I wondered how her front was, just to get a glimpse of her breasts swaying as she moved. Fuck sake if I carried on like this I'd be cumming in my leathers in no time.

Bitty:

V wasn’t one to get close to anyone. He didn’t like to be touched. Bitty had touched him in the past. Especially with her feet, she always found a way to wiggle her cold toes under his thigh. She always loved the look she got. The what the hell are you doing look. Always made her giggle and do it more. Feeling him behind her once again, his hands on her elbows. The moment she felt his hands, a shiver washed through her body. She gasped at the feel. Letting him put her arms in a better position. She bit her bottom lip once more, nodding her head in answer.

When he stepped away, it felt different. It didn’t feel right. She knew that she shouldn’t feel that way. But she couldn’t help herself. Shaking her head, she needed to keep her head in the game. This was not the time to be thinking about a male touching her. But hell it was a touch nice. She wanted to feel his touch again. Shaking her head once more. That was her Uncle, to need his touch. Was it wrong? It was going to confuse her. But that was for later. When she was alone and not a room of vampires. Her eyes locked into him the moment that he came around the front. V was tall, she could see his muscles work under his clothes as he moved. Fuck! She bit her bottom lip hard. Feeling and tasting her own blood. She quickly licked the wound to seal it. She prayed no one noticed that. Her eyes roamed along his upper body. Jesus he was so well built. She never really noticed it before. He was her Uncle after all. But hell look at him. She almost lost what he said, about punching. Great that would have made it even better. But thank the Scribe she didn’t.

As the group did as they were told. One of the male trainees bumped into her a little hard. Caught off guard, she didn’t catch herself in time, she fell on her ass. Some kind of chuckled, she blushed and glared. She hated when others laughed at her like that. As she looked down and started to get up, the trainee that knocked her over. “Sorry about that.” He smiles down at her. She looked at his hand and then up at him. She smiled and slipped her hand into his. “Thank you.” He helped her up, and she wiped her hands. He was sweet to help her up. It made her feel better. And he didn’t have to know who she was. He would run if he did know. They got back to what they were doing.

V:

Noticing the punk next to Bitty, he had slammed into her on purpose. The anger rose up in my body, no fucker is going to do that to her. Striding over to the punk “I saw that fucker, twenty laps and every time you get to Bitty you drop and do twenty press ups, military style. Now go before I up to fifty, feel me?”

The trainee started his laps, my attention goes onto Bitty, checking her with my eyes “You okay?” I wanted to check her with my hands but I knew if I touched her I wouldn't be able to stop, in no time I'd be mounting her to get inside of her. Shaking my head, nope can't have thoughts like that about my niece. Seeing nothing is out of place, I have another look at you but this time it was for my pleasure. Her breasts were the right size, her hips were curvy in all the right places. Walking behind her I looked at her ass again, fuck a cane slapped across her cheeks would be heavenly. Coming back to the front of Bitty she was biting her lip once again, fuck that sent me wild, I could feel my cock stiffening as I saw her fangs on her bottom lip, I swear I could smell a dark spicy scent. O God no, it couldn't be.

Walking back to the front of the class I put them through the paces of the basic stances. Fly boy has done his laps and had rejoined the class. But my attention wasn't on him, my attention was on Bitty, I had to get her on her own, away from the trainees, away from the Brothers and especially away from her dad.

Bitty:

She jumped a little when she heard his voice. About to say something, but she shut her mouth. Some of the trainees looked at them all. Well this was going to be fun. One thing she did know. She wasn’t about draw anymore attention to herself. So, she took this time to study him. For years she had looked at him. His tattoos, brought out his diamond eyes, they almost shined, even when he was pissed off. And boy was he ever. She had seen him mad, but this was different even for him. Having to admit one thing to herself. He was sexy when he got this way. In that moment she kicked herself. He would hear her thoughts. She started to sing a song in her mind. He might have already heard them. Great now he would know.

His words brought her from her singing, she smiled softly. “Yeah my pride is mostly hurt. Maybe my ass.” She laughed. Great, bringing up her ass. When he shook his head, oops maybe she shouldn’t have said that. God, is many ways, she was like her dad. Open mouth put in foot, she rubbed the back of her neck. It was best that she didn’t say anymore. She felt exposed to him. But she didn’t fear it. It made her heart flip flop in her chest. Yeah there she goes and bites her lip. Aside from rubbing the back of her neck, she would do that. But she did notice something, the look in his eyes. There was something different in them. Something she had never seen before. And there was one other thing. A scent, I couldn’t place it. But it made her softly purr. Shit! She hoped no one heard that. Fuck! She was in a room full of vampires they had to heard her, as well as V. She was just making this a great night.

She threw herself into onto training. It helped keep her mind off V, and everything that happened tonight in class. She ignored the others around her. In her own little world. This was is what she was meant for. Her movements had a grave about them. Every once and awhile, she meet his eyes. Smiling softly as she did. Her lips parted as she panted, sweat made her skin glisten in the lights of the gym. He was really working them over and she loved it. She couldn’t wait to go and grab a shower after all of this.

V:

Once the class had finished I got the trainees to do simple stretches after the workout. Picking up a sheet of paper by the wall “Next week you be out on the field to see how you cope, feel me? You won't be engaging with the lessers unless it's necessary. We'll find out who will have balls, true?” I ran down the list of who was going which Brother till I get to the last trainee “Bitty you're with me” This was going to be interesting, with what has happened tonight in the gym out in the field was going to be a huge turn on.

Dismissing the class I waited till Bitty got to the door “Bitty can I see you for a minute please?” Bitty turned around, her body full of attitude, and what you know she was biting her bottom lip again. My cock was straining against the zipper of my leathers, wanting to get out, wanting to be inside of her. Looking around for a bit of privacy I nodded over to the equipment room “In there now. What I've got to say is for your ears alone, feel me?” I walked over the room I indicated holding the door open. As Bitty walked in I scanned to make sure we were alone, closing the door behind me, grabbing Bitty by the arms and held her against the wall. Looking into her eyes, she was scared, she was frightened and she was loving it. Without warning I pressed my lips against hers “You tease Bitty. I've been hard all night because of you” Taking her hand and pressed it against my bulge.

Bitty:

Her body ached all over. Though it wasn’t anything that she couldn’t handle. After having her arms and legs broke at Havers, nothing compared to that. To be able to work out her muscles, it felt amazing. And once class was done. She was beyond excited. A shower was in her very, very distanced future. Thank the Scribe, she wanted to get the water as hot as she could stand and work out the soreness. When she heard that she was to be with V. No telling what was going to happen. Her first night out, and she would be with the man that made her heart flip flop. Letting the others go out before her. She followed behind them. Just as she was about to step through the door and out. She heard his voice. Great. She had done something wrong. Maybe he wanted to talk her about changing who she was to go out with. Hell it could have been because what was happening tonight. She just had no idea. Biting her lip, she turned. All she wanted to do was shower and go tell her mom and dad how tonight went. Well most of it anyways. She turned and nodded. She walked across the gym floor, a seat in her hips and walked past V and into the room. Odd that it was in here, even for their ears only.

Turning to face V, opening her mouth to say something. I felt the wall against my back. Her heart rate shot up, she panted, this scared her, she wanted to run. But there was something about this that turned her on. Why? Why did this turn her on. Eyes going wide as his lips met hers, for a few moments she felt his lips move against hers. She couldn’t help herself she closed her eyes and kisses him back. She itched to touch him. But she couldn’t move her arms. The kiss ended all too soon. Slowly her eyes opened and met his diamond gaze. She arched a brow, “Me? A tease? Does that mean you were staring V?” She smirked at him. Then he placed her hand on his bulge, her hand on its on gripped him gentle in her hand. “Tell me how much did you enjoy looking at me?” Her lips brushing his. She was out of her depth, and she loved it all.

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Hard to Believe Pt 2

I finally had got the courage to actually step into the room. The emotions where heavy before I got here. Now they weighed me down. This is the one thing I hated about my gifts. To read the emotions, to feel them. I knew it was something bad, mahmen didn’t even have to say anything. She wouldn’t have been like this, if it was just a few injuries.

I listened as my mahmen told us our dad was dead. Time stopped, I was still as stone. Anger built with in me. Not able to move, my fists harden on my thighs, no tears would come. I had just lost the man that I looked up to as a hero. He would always be a hero in my eyes. I always thought that I would have longer with him. But, this fucking mission had ripped him out of my life, out of my families life. That fucking pissed me off. Yes, my dad helped out the brotherhood, but for one fucking female. The longer that I thought about it. The more that it pissed me off. I wanted to hold my sister, my mahmen. But I couldn’t be here anymore.

To hurt and pissed off to even think. I didn’t know how to deal with the loss of my dad. I just wanted to be numb right now. This wasn’t real, it couldn’t be true. Not even realizing that I had got up and walked out. The sounds of the cries of my mahmen and sister sinking further and further away from me. I just couldn’t do this, no. It was too hard to deal with, let alone believe.

Walking out the mansion that held nothing but bad memories for me now. Making my way to my car. Getting in I sped off and to the one place that I wanted to be. The one place that at least I would have my father around me. I was going home, I needed to be there. Pressing the gas as hard as I could. My knuckles white form the tightness of my grip.

I drove like a bat out of hell. Getting to my family's home, in a short amount of time. I know I should have told them where I was going. I know my mahmen would be worried. I would call her later. I just needed time away from everything. Away from the hurt, pain and anger. Not that I would be able to run from it. No, I carried it with me. I could feeling it changing me, in ways that I wouldn’t be able to turn back. My heart and soul were open bleeding wounds. That wouldn’t heal for a long time, or if they healed at all. I lost so much, my family had lost so much.

Pulling into the drive of our family home. Parking and shutting off the car, getting out I slam the door. Marching my way into the house. The scents of home fill me. I could almost hear my dad’s voice, me and Maddy running from him laughing. I closed my eyes and let the memories of my past wash over me.

I didn’t know how long I stood there in the silence. Opening my eyes, walking to my room. I walked inside. I screamed at the top of my lungs, my fists hit the wall over and over again. I tore up and destroyed my room. Tears rolled down my cheeks. Blood dripped from my hands from the cuts of glass. I didn’t give a fuck anymore. My ass falling down on my bed, looked over. A picture of me and dad sat on the bedside table. Picking it up, holding it my bloody hands. I cried for the deep loss I felt. My dad was gone, never to come back. My heart and soul wouldn’t believe it, never.

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Hard to Believe Pt 1

I had been waiting almost all night, well it felt like it. No word from them yet. Fuck! What was taking so long. I wanted to know about my dad. But, the minutes just ticked up. My ankle rested on knee, as my amethyst eyes stared at the clock. Drumming my fingers on my ankle. I was about one step from getting up and going to find someone. I hated waiting around for news. It was easier to go and find out shit for myself. However, I had to wait on mahmen. I watched her pace the floor with worry. I could feel it coming off of her waves. I didn’t need to use my powers for that. Her worry was like a brick wall that was closing in on me. Just once I wish they wouldn’t drag their asses about this shit.

Amethyst eyes flickered to my mahmen and then to my sister Maddy. I hated seeing them like this. There wasn’t anything I could stop them from worrying. Fuck, I was worried to. But I didn’t show it the way they did. I was like my dad in a lot of ways. I had a touch of my mahmen, but so much like my father, as she would say.

I always looked to my dad, that man could never do any wrong in my eyes. No matter what anyone told me. The way that he loved my mahmen, my sister and me. He is my hero, always will be.

I can’t take anymore of the sitting. It was driving me crazy. Growling I push myself up off the couch, I was sitting in. Walking over to my mahmen, I slipping my arms around her. I reached out and grabbed Maddy. Pulling them both close to me hugging them. I kissed them both on the cheek. “I'll be back.” I had to get out of the damn room. Letting them go I turned and left the room.

I walked out the back of the mansion. Finding a place all to myself, taking a long, slow, deep breath. I could relax, at least to a point anyways. I still worried, but I didn’t want to put that on my family. They had to much to deal with already. I just needed a few moments to myself. To pull myself together.

I wasn’t outside for long, who knows with time anyways. I just wanted this all to over with. Hell, even let me go out. But, they wouldn’t have let me. I wanted to stand side by side with my dad. I never said anything, though I got a look from dad. He always knew, always. Sometimes it pissed me off. Oh fuck it! It did piss me off. That was just dad.

I lingered for a little while longer. Not wanting to leave them alone for to long. Pushing up off the bench, I walked back inside. I should have kept my ass outside. Because the closer that I got to where I left mahmen and Maddy. I stopped dead on at the door. I wasn’t going to take a step. Their grids weren’t normal, something had happened. And it scared the shit out of me.