bitter-syscourse

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Like, I'm a black woman and holy shit have I not seen a worse take than yours about race and fucking alter names 😬😬😬

i’d like to assume that because you’re black (hopefully not in a white system??) that you’d understand, but unfortunately, i learned that not everyone is as understanding as a heavy majority of people.

if you’re okay with people appropriating your culture, whatever. that’s not my business and it never will be. but you need to understand that not everyone feels that same way, and a vast majority of people are against this.

i am not going to go out and name my child a stereotypical black name when i myself am not black. THAT is culture appropriation, THAT is racism.

also, holy shit, this blog hasn’t been used properly in forever. we’ve been stepping away from syscourse due to health reasons. i also don’t know how this is even considered syscourse rn, not unless you’re attempting to call me racist for having an opinion that a majority of other POC agree on.

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lets talk alter race and body race, since i cannot believe this has become something so incredibly large recently.

could it be because of my post regarding it? i sure hope the fuck not.

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hello syscourse

what’s been going on lately? :)

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this is something i really wanna say. this isnt a call out, but a soft reminder to others about why i dont want him, his system, or anyone who interacts with him, to interact with me.

everything under the cut will be triggering, but not tagged on my post. there are mentions of; -harm -death -racism -culture appropriation -suicide baiting

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sometimes we wanna post about syscourse but following the tag and knowing how many ppl act hella abusively within it makes it feel pretty fucking unsafe.

pro/endos if u actually wanna be allied w the OSDDID community it's gonna have to start w u learning not to use the same tactics as many of our abusers. if someone lays down a boundary of "don't interact with me" u dont get to argue w them abt it. u dont get to demand that they explain themselves. u get to back the fuck off and respect the boundary that they've set. that's it. end of story.

anyway pro/endos dni challenge :)

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hey. what happened round 2.

i was in georgia away from my pc and tumblr for yesterday and most of today. i have no idea whats going on. someone supposedly faking a suicide? yikes.

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Hi Killian! Im Jillian!!

My abusers name is Ian so feel free to kill that ian /hj

ezpz omw to do a fully and pull the “kill ian” in killian /lh

hi jillian! :D -k

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Let’s talk about source attachment, and why it can be incredibly toxic towards any possible individual. This post is multiple opinions coming from multiple introjects within the same system, specifically our system. We do not speak for everyone, we do not speak for introjects with the same source. We are talking about our experiences as introjects, and why our attachments (if any) may be toxic.

This will be a long post, as this is something that we have been typing for well over a week by now. This will only be a few of us, as a lot of the others did not want to comment on the topic. I will also only tag this with syscourse, and not our general tags, as this was something we typed up on Discord within our personal server.

Without giving too much information about my source, as it is an incredibly triggering one, I want to preface that it is something that I am completely detached to aside from my name and appearance, this does not mean that I want to talk about it all that much. My source is terrifying. It was used to help Killian cope with unnecessary trauma, and ended up creating me. Again, without giving too much information, my source was also used more as harm instead of being used to cope, despite it being labeled as a game. Why would it be bad, and toxic, if I still had source attachments? Well, for one... If anyone knows of said game, that would be why. If no one does, leave it that way, do not go digging. Two, having any type of attachment towards a source like mine can leave to several unhealthy relationships and habits, and can (or will) lead to destructive behaviors. Do I even need to express why that would be a bad idea? To end my talk, I want to say this. If you know of my source, do not comment on this post talking about it. We will block and report you for promoting it, none of us, and especially I, take this lightly. Thank you for reading. -🐺/Vincent

yo i’m a yuji/sukuna introject, technically sukuna but y’k how it is. source is jujutsu kaisen. i have some source attachments still but its nothing so much that its pushing danger levels lmao uh my source ain’t terrifying but again y’k how it is. its a bit gory and the only attachments i have is my appearance and the whole curse thing. ik i’m not a curse but that attachment isn’t something i have been able to get rid of. i think that’s what this is all about tho so idk what to say here lol being an introject is fine and all i rly don’t care but it comes with issues. the only sourcemate i have is rowan and even then we don’t rly associate with each other all that much aside from him picking on me bc i take the appearance of yuji. it gets a bit lonely sometimes but i deal with that by hanging out with the others and that’s it really yeah anyways that’s my ted talk cya later -🎭/rye

Hey, I’m Alex. I’m one of our Stardew Valley fictives. I still identify with my source quite some bit, but I’m working on stepping away from that as time goes. Being one of four Stardew Valley fictives is incredibly annoying sometimes, especially considering I’m the complete opposite of the other three, and I would rather not work with them. Another thing that is annoying, at least for me, is that none of my source friends or family are with me. That can be discouraging and really hard to deal with sometimes, and it really is. Why can my source attachments be toxic? Well.. We all know I’m considered a “health nut” in source, the only reason why I can see this would be toxic is because the body isn’t at what I believe are my personal standards. We’re disabled, so I can’t really do anything to fix us, and I feel like I can’t fix us. Idk if this makes me fatphobic or if its just an internalized thing that the brain makes me feel, but yep. Its why I almost never front anymore. I really only did to talk about this because a lot of us collectively agreed to do this. I don’t really know what else to say here, so I’m going to just leave it as is. -🏈/Alex

hey i’m zoe!! i’m from league of legends and i am still as AH-MAZING as ever!! \o/ do i identify with my source?? um sometimes but not all the time!! i know that the body is 24 and that i look like a child but i know i can’t be a child!! i still say i am the aspect of twilight BECAUSE I AM!! i do miss my big space doggy though!! i miss you solsol!! but i have viktor and varus and jinx to play with!! :D being attached to my source can be bad because i want to act childish!! I AM CHILDISH!! but i can’t because we are an adult and i want to be a kid!! i hate that i can’t be a kid but i won’t throw a hissy fit about it because i have to be an adult!! um i don’t know what else to say!! that is all i have i think!! thank you guys for reading and byebye!! <3 -🌌/zoe

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Syscourse hot take: Questioning systems shouldn't use the term system for themselves. I have had so many bad run ins with questioning "systems" they all ended up not having OSDD/DID.

hmm. yeah, hot take. i dont know if i agree with this though.

i get where youre coming from, but thats what the term “questioning” means. they dont know if theyre a system. they are a questioning system. if the person doesnt have OSDD or DID? thats great! problem solved. if they do? thats also great! problem solved.

to tell someone who says “idk if i have the disorder” that theyre outright not a system, or cannot use the term system, is erasing actual systems who are unaware that theyre a system.

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syscourse hot take from yours truly, me. also just a generalized hot take in general.

i do not think minors should be running/owning blogs that cover heavy topics. lets talk about why i think this, and why it directly affects syscourse.

DISCLAIMER // THIS POST IS NOT DIRECTED AT ANYONE OR ANY BLOG IN PARTICULAR. THIS IS SPECIFICALLY MY OPINION, AS AN ADULT, ON WHY I DO NOT THINK MINORS SHOULD BE HANDLING AND/OR COVERING HEAVY TOPICS.

minors can be influenced pretty easily, right? look at what tiktok has done with this disorder. minors are influenced into thinking that this absolutely awful and terrifying disorder is fun and dandy.

now think; minors running these big blogs, specifically syscourse related blogs, might feed into that “influencing minors” by mistake. am i saying all of them do this? no, but ive already noticed a small pattern with this type of stuff. hence the post.

blogs regarding syscourse and why endos/etc are bad are wonderful! yes, i love those, but i do not think that a minor, or anyone with a still developing brain, should be handling these heavy topics. this reaches towards literally everything. between talking of trauma, of C/SA, of S/RA, racism, antisemitism, literally anything and everything that can (and more than likely will) be a heavy topic.

am i saying that no one should be talking about these things? fuck no, if you think thats where im coming from, your back must be aching from reaching that hard. im simply saying that i think only (at least 25y+) adults should be handling these types of situations, and these blogs, to ensure that no one is being influenced to believe either blatant misinformation, blatant lies, or attempts to fear monger.

THIS IS JUST AN EXAMPLE. I AM WRITING AN EXAMPLE RIGHT NOW THIS IS NOT DIRECTED AT ANYONE, I CANNOT EXPRESS THIS ENOUGH. anyone at the age of 15 could easily say something regarding racism, “this and that is racist”, and there is the chance that other 15 y/o’s will say “youre right!” and blindly follow that when, and theres a slim chance, that the OP was wrong about what they said. congrats, now you have multiple people who believed something was right, when it was not! replace “racism” with any of the other topics i mentioned, or really any heavy topic. it works every single way.

this is something i have noticed 100% within the system community on tumblr. i am seeing people under the age of 18 running these syscourse blogs with heavy topics, consistently engaging in syscourse to the point that it doesnt even seem healthy for neither party, and outright spilling their own stories to the public. this is not safe. none of the above is safe. none of the above should ever be happening, and yet, its happening on a daily, because it has been something that i have been witnessing for the past few months.

minors should not be running these blogs. following, sure. reblogging, sure. liking, sure. giving their opinions, sure. running them? actively engaging in this 24/7? spreading their opinions as if theyre pure facts and truth? hell no.

this is just some shit that i am, genuinely, so exhausted of seeing. i am so incredibly tired of seeing minors preaching about these incredibly heavy topics, and chanting that their opinion is the correct one, that theyre right, etc etc.

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something about bodily white systems having dark skinned alters labeled as (ex)persecutors, avengers, and anything that holds anger and/or heavy issues makes me uncomfortable. just.. seems VERY suspicious to me. also feels very stereotypical towards all BPOC!

BPOC systems encouraged to comment on this and give their opinions, white systems dont fucking touch this post with ur opinions i will go insane.

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Endos need to start realising that nobody is trying to dismantle ableism in the real world here. All endo bullshit is chronically online and on Tumblr. We're fighting to get rid of endos because it's an actual ableism issue that can be actively fought

this!!

how many endos do you see irl? ... none. in the several system friendly spaces i have been in irl, i have never met an endo. this is strictly because endos do not exist irl, and only exist online.

im 100% certain that if a kid told their parents they have OSDDID irl, all while not actually having it, theyd probably get smacked.

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someone send us some hot takes. i think syscourse has been a little dead lately (mostly beating a dead horse) and i want to see some syscourse hot takes, preferably ON ANON so no one gets any actual hate.

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Dealing with your source/creator dying as an introject.

Hi, my name is Technoblade. I am a fictive/faitive. The person I am an introject of died very recently of cancer.

The guilt I feel about being a introject is immense for me right now. I am still in denial for the most part, I feel like this isn’t real.

Here are a few things I find have helped me

Don’t be ashamed for being an introject. Still being yourself is not disrespectful or rude as long as you don’t talk over grieving people/fans/friends/family.

You are allowed to grieve in your own ways. Scream, cry, listen to music, go offline, anything. As long as you aren’t hurting yourself or others you should be free to grieve.

Interacting with your source. I find re-watching streams or videos has helped me remember the good.

If you are like me and there is a place to donate or help the families of the grieving then please do. Whether it be spreading the link or donating.

Talk to people you trust. Be free to vent your emotions in a safe environment.

Self care and love. It’ll be hard to get up, shower, eat, etc. Try to do at least one though. Take your time getting re-adjusted.

See a therapist if you can. Grief is difficult to manage alone, talk to a therapist if you have one.

Important numbers:

Text HOME to 741-741 for a crisis councilor

1 273-8255 is the American Suicide Hotline

Other suicide hotlines

Suicide prevention chat

The Trevor Project

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hmm. My hottest take might be most fictives treat their fictive-hood in a really unhealthy way. No, that is not you in that show/movie/videogame/podcast/ect, that is a thing you are based off of, and you need to understand that you are not that person in order to heal. You need to understand why you are based off that thing, but know that you are now living a completely different life, and that's something you need to get used to. If I see another person be like "I was watching x and I-" no u did not, that is what your source did. Not angry at anyone of course, just makes me get an ick knowing this happens so often. Or, maybe I'm completely wrong and I'M the one who needs educating. That's why i don't say it out loud lol

but i completely agree with you!

introjects in general - not just fictives - need to understand that, yes, while that is your source, that is still not you! YOU are you! yes, source memories, i get that- ive got so many introjects that identify with their sources to a degree but they KNOW theyre their own person, and theyre not so-and-so.

they dont think like their source, because theyre their own person, and a lot of introjects just refuse to understand this sometimes.

ive been outright called ableist for stating these things - hell, i wouldnt be shocked if i got called ableist right now for saying this - and while im not the most educated person in the world on OSDDID, i do heavily agree with you anon.

hot take, yes, but a hot take im willing to agree with!

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hi what the fuck happened .

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I think people kind of fall into false ideas of DID to make themselves feel better about having it, like I used to do. Things like seeing them all as separate people and seeing source calls as a legitimate way to meet back up with people you know, treating source memories as legitimate, ect. I won't claim it's a hot take cos I simply don't know but I do think it's unfortunate that a lot of us fall into unhealthy and sometimes unsafe thinking to avoid confronting the tragedy of the situation and to repaint it as something friendlier and more fun to deal with. I can honestly understand why someone would want to think they're an Endogenic in that case because they get all the "fun" stuff and very often the made up stuff without the suffering. But that's just my two cents

oh but i love this, in the syscourse aspect.

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hot take? im not sure, but i do agree with you a lot. there are bits where people will deem more fun, and hone in on those bits; be it source calls or calling parts, people.

personally ive done both, and ill admit that i think it does a little more harm than good, from my experience. treating parts like actual people only got me laughed at, my headmates HATED the idea. source calls only made a lot of us uncomfortable after a while, and thats about when we stopped with those.