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do i get back into art???

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i lowk think downloading love and deepspace might've been the best decision i ever made

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broooooo

just manga hawks

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Me opening my drafts to finally write the fic that's been brewing in my head only for writer's block to hit right at that moment

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"Billy killed people" while he was possessed, if we want to use that as an excuse to hate Billy then I can for sure hate will for getting hundreds of men at the lab slaughtered and he full on knew what was going on more so than Billy did. When Billy was possessed he completely lost control of himself and you can see that if you actually watch the show.

Also Eleven constantly killed people so bffr

"Billy is racist" even the actors for Lucas and Billy disagreed with that, also I would even say that if you actually look at his backstory with his father you see that Billy seen his dad and mom fight a lot, then he sees his sister and Lucas fighting (as his first impression on him) so he doesn't like seeing that happening.

"Billy is abusive" yes, you know who else is? Neil, you know who Neil was abusive to? BILLY. do you know what happens to someone that's been abused? the cycle continues.

"but max doesn't want to be like that" Max ALSO has a parent at home that cares about her, Billy doesn't. Billy's mother abandoned him to possibly die from his abusive father, and then Neil would constantly rub into Billy's face that he is with a new woman now and that Billy better accept that fact or suffer the consequences.

"but Jonathan was abused too and he isn't like that" first, I don't even remember that, if anything I know Lonnie bullied/abused Will, verbally, BUT you're forgetting one very obvious thing. LONNIE LEFT, not Joyce, the toxic parent left and the god parent stayed. Billy's mother, the kinder parent, the one that actually cared, LEFT.

I will actually make a better post that goes in depth about Billy and his character because I think he is actually one of the best written characters ever and he deserved more screentime, a second chance, redemption, all of the above.

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80s movie blinkies

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I (a baptised catholic) lost my virginity to a satanist the night before Pope Francis died. I fear this may be my fault.

noooooo that's so funny! It was definitely you

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every single fucking thing on earth exists solely to put a dent in your newly applied nail polish

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Heartbreak Station, Cinderella.

summary: your relationship had its ups and downs and after an unfortunate breakup you don't expect his younger sister to be calling you in the middle of the night, making you question everything.

warnings: i dont think any besides some cursing

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Waiting at the station

Tears filling up my eyes

Sometimes the pain you hide

Burns like a fire inside

"Hello?" She spoke softly, almost hesitantly, as you heard the red-haired girls voice on the other end of the line.

You looked to your clock, 3:30 A.M.

What the fuck could be the matter at this hour?

"Max... it's so late.. what could possibly be happening?" You couldn't help the irritated edge to your voice.

Even after your breakup with her brother you still adored the younger girl but maybe this was pushing it...

Look out my window

Sometimes it's hard to see

The things you want in life

Come and go so easily

You and Billy didn't end on the greatest of terms after the constant arguments you would have. It felt suffocating when it would be the same stupid minscule things over and over.

It was the promises that he'd try harder, be better next time.

And the unfortunate thing was... You could truly tell he was trying harder. Trying to control his anger, his jealousy, his overwhelming emotions.

After every promise he changed something small about himself. He was working on himself for you.

So why did you leave? He kept asking himself that very question.

At the beginning his cockiness told him you'd never leave.

But then he fell in love and was terrified of losing you. Although, neither of you had actually said the big 'L' word in your relationship.

She took the last train out of my heart

She took the last train

And now I think I'll make a brand new start

She took the last train out of my heart

But now, you did leave, so he's suffering with the lasting effects of his actions.

You were a strong girl. And no matter how much he meant to you, you wouldn't go on letting yourself feel that way.

More than anything in this world you wanted to pick the phone up and dial his number, you knew he felt bad. He hadn't been to school since you broke up with him almost two weeks ago.

Watching the days go by

Thinking 'bout the plans we made

The days turn into years

Funny how they fade away

You could only imagine what his dad had to say.

"Can you please come over?" She whispered into the phone.

"Not at this hour."

"I've never seen him cry before." The girls voice was suddenly very serious.

Billy? Billy Hargrove? Crying over someone, a girl, nonetheless. Unheard of.

Sometimes I think of those days

Sometimes I just hide away

Waiting on that nine-twenty train

Waiting on a memory

Part of you wanted to convince yourself it was a ploy he'd set up to get her to call you so you'd come running back...

But you knew Max better than that. You knew she cared about you.

She wouldn't go along with something like that. You were practically her honorary big sister! You got so close to her in the time you were dating Billy.

Max heard you inhale a deep breath, "I don't know..."

She took the last train out of my heart

She took the last train

And now I think I'll make a brand new start

She took the last train out of my heart

"Listen. He's been playing that one song by Cinderella for the past two hours on repeat. You showed him that, I know you did. Because he only likes that heavy rock crap he listens to when working out."

It felt wrong that a small smile crept onto your face. But he listened to one of your favorite bands - was listening to one of your favorite bands, for you. Because he missed you.

You only brought it up in a brief conversation you had with him late one night.

"He needs to know I'm not coming back, Max. He won't ever learn to be better if I come running back." Even you knew that your excuse had sounded like bullshit.

"No. He'll go back to his old ways. And you know that. Please, just consider coming over."

My lady's on the fly

And she's never coming back

My love is like a steam train

Rolling down the tracks yeah, yeah

Of course you knew that. It was Billy. Your Billy.

The same one who bought you flowers that one time and was nervous about if you'd like them or not.

The same one who'd hold your hand a little tighter if his dad got brought up in conversation.

The same one who kissed your forehead that one time you teared up when the beloved pet died in some sappy movie.

"...I'll think about it."

She took the last train out of my heart

She took the last train

And now I think I'll make a brand new start

She took the last train out of my heart

She took the last train, she took the last train, out of my heart

She took the last train (She took the last train)

And now I think I'll make a new start

Last train out of my heart

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A/N: there may or may not be a pt. 2 otw ehehe. i really wanted to try something new out. that being: writing pieces of fiction based around music.

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‘I can fix him!!’

Him in question;

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hey if you havent read my jj maybank fanfic on wattpad you should... its called 'Uptown Girl' and my user is @-ffromthediningtable thanks

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ok who do i write about

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all of us meeting criminal!jj for the first time ♡

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i think JJ Maybank would pick out little trinkets/items for you that he finds when hes out on his little adventures with the Pogues. He'll bring them back to you all smiles and laughing like a little kid when your eyes light up. because he thought about you! he lets out a sigh of relief internally because he's so thankful you like his gift.

He can't afford to buy you expensive jewelry and pretty flowers but he'll make you jewelry out of different metals he finds on his adventures and pick you flowers, attempting at making his own bouquets for you.

But what you don't tell him is how much you love the way he always thinks about you and how he makes sure to let you know how much he loves you.

He struggles with words but his actions never fail to prove his love to you.

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Drew and Rudy

How can men who look so cute and innocent make me have such unholy thoughts??

Its because they also look like this

Both deep and raw, next question

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i love jj maybank omfg