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The warmest thing Ive felt in days is the cherry of my cigarette lmao

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Back on my bullshit. Gained hella weight over the past year in recovery and frankly Ive given up trying to feel better, I was happiest when I was skinny.

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Yesterday I had a chicken greek salad and 3 shots of tequila, and I’m planning to only have one meal today. 

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Back on my bullshit, sorry for the 2 month break.

I had a banana and like 2 table spoons of wowbutter for breakfast cuz I’m weak. I have work today so I won’t eat until I get back home and that will probably be a greek salad with chicken. 

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holy shit i look small.

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I did something🥳

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Had 2 rice cakes + an avocado, and a southwest ranch salad from wendys today. Thats all Im going to eat for today so hopefully thats low enough.

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Haven’t been as diligent with my restricting lately :(

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finished my first 20 hour fast!! I feel so happy :)

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total cal for today: 824

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my gf is sewing shorts that are too big for her and ngl very triggering. I know she doesn’t do it intentionally, but it makes me feel so bad every time I’m reminded that I’m bigger. 

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I fit into a skirt that hasn’t fit me in months, progress is slow but at least it’s still progress. 

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I had spanish rice and 3 crackers for dinner (about 500 cal in total) and then I broke and ate 8 pieces of chocolate (184 calories) :((

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today I’ve had 3 rice cakes (2 basil and tomato, and 1 caramel), and a table spoon of mayo (to go with the b+t rice cakes). I’ve been doing my best to work out every day but I just have no energy today, so I’m gonna take a break for one day. If I feel better later maybe I’ll try.

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haven’t checked my waist size in days because I’m too scared, I’ll check after I do some successful restricting, but not knowing is stressing me out more.

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did my two workouts for today and am gonna do the treadmill (12 incline, 2.5 speed) later. here are the workouts I do: 1. 10 min standing workout: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QKCkO9fy9O4&ab_channel=emiwong 2. 15 min beginners workout: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bleOTMDa3_4&ab_channel=emiwong I love emi wongs stuff, hopefully I can move onto more of her harder workouts soon. 

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I ate a bit of chow main today and am gonna hold off till dinner, I’ll probably have a wow butter and jam sandwich with pine apple for dinner. (edit: I also had a banana and pickles :(. )