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“slut era” i whisper to myself as i rot in my bed, sick like a frail victorian child

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i hope my friends care about me as much as i care about them

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i hope my friends care about me as much as i care about them

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cluster b culture is going from 'no, don't leave! I can twist my own boundaries for your comfort, see?' to 'you leaving isn't enough, I need you dead' within seconds.

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The Fourth Man from the Fire

another character design of a religious warrior for my story setting the Thorn Crowndom

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this might've been said before but npd culture is people hating my npd characteristics that they would LOVE if I were a fictional character 🙄

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venty angst

npd culture is feeling like major ass after not socializing or getting any attention for more than a few days. but I'd rather die than reach out because my friends should be able to telepathically sense that I'm an anxious angry goddamn mess who looses any sense of true personhood when not being perceived by others for long periods of time. Me when this really is a mental illness

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NPD culture is knowing your symptoms are getting hard to manage and you need help, but FUCK lmao. Who’s going to help me? Dr. Narcissists Are Bad? Dr. I’ll Condemn You Once You’re A Diagnosed Narcissist? Dr. Gaslight A Woman Into Thinking They Dont Have NPD?

I have no way to get help professionally because society bred a group of witch-hunting maniacs, awesome! 🥰

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the well ok of it all

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the well ok of it all

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sorry that i ended two consecutive messages with "lmao." i don't know why i did that. it looks really dumb doesn't it. i'll edit one to get rid of it. you can end my stupid pathetic life if you want

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hey has anyone found a way to act on your desires without opening yourself to failure

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People really underestimate the power of just telling someone you like them. romantically obviously but hell even just platonically too. You can admit you enjoy peoples presence it doesn’t have to be mind games it’s okay to just be sincere and true with your thoughts and intentions btw

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"Autistic people aren't worried about other people's feelings" well that's big fucking news to me considering how I'm anxious 24/7 about accidentally annoying everyone I ever meet

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i think one of the worst parts of NPD is that i genuinely have no idea how to distinguish if my emotional reaction is appropriate because what happened was genuinely fucked up, or if my reaction is being disproportionate to something i think is fucked up but really is just my ego speaking. and i can't just ask people to help me figure it out because it would be so easy for them to manipulate me in that situation. they could say whatever they want and i'm so desperate to not be a self-centered scumbag that i'd believe them. i fucking hate this miserable disease

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ahhhh so the guilt is NOT supposed to be neverending and haunting and constant and persisting beyond a doubt over even the most menial of things that i would not be upset at someone else for. i understand now.