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I still don’t know my purpose on this planet, but I do like smoking weed

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how do I say l miss you in a way that will make your heart ache as mine does.

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[bigkubanna]

" I crave you in the most innocent form. I crave to say good night and give you forehead kisses and to say that I adore you when you feel at your worst. I crave you in ways where I just want to be next to you and nothing more or less."

[bigkubanna]

Hogy erzed magad?

-nem felszegen csak felig reszegen, ezt a reszem elteszem

[bigkubanna]

"I may think of you softly

time to time. but ill cut off

my hand before i ever reach

for you again."

“In another life”

[bigkubanna]

You are the biggest paradox I've ever known.

You're insecure in everything you do, yet you

love yourself to a point of total narcissism.

You're warm and endearing one second but

indifferent and aloof the next.

Some days we could talk about the universe

until sunrise and others a simple smile in my

direction is too much to expect of you.

You confuse me in every way possible,

but one thing is clear to me:

despite the absolute train wreck that you are,

I am irrevocably and totally in love with you,

and I don't know what to do about it.

“10.16”

[bigkubanna]

I haven't let anybody touch me, hold me, kiss me, love me, not since you left.

So when my heart aches for touch, my mind can only think of you.

I want the last thing my body to remember is all the time we spent together.

I don't want to lose all of our memories, and replace you with someone else, for they don't deserve to feel the body you felt.

you may never know,

but I'm still here,

silently loving you.

“10.16”

[bigkubanna]

they say grief is just love

with no place to go

but I can't spend another

day with love rotting away

in my chest

my heart is so full of

leftover love

it's beginning to leak

through all my cracks

it's spilling on to strangers

and overflowing on to

friends

it's flooding all the streets

it doesn't seem to end

and I guess it's kind of

beautiful and kind of

tragic too

that the world is filling up

with all the love that was

meant for you

“10.16”

[bigkubanna]

it pools into my brain and

seeps into every nook it

can find and just like this

run-on paragraph i cannot

just stop the never ending

flow of the collision of

thoughts streaming inside

me even if i wish to tear

my mind from my soul and

bury my heart into

another's flesh, you never

leave my mind.

“10.16”

[bigkubanna]

Miért nem öleltél egy kicsit szorosabban magadhoz, és miért nem csókoltál egy kicsit hosszabb ideig mikor utoljára találkoztunk?

Most nem tudlak elengedni, hiszen számomra lehetetlen az, hogy annak a gyönyörű dolognak ami a miénk volt, ilyen semmitlen módon legyen vége.

“10.16”

[bigkubanna]

I remember that days with you

were when i was the happiest.

my smile reached to my ears

and my heart was living on cloud nine.

there was something about the way your hands

fit perfectly in my back pockets.

the way you brought me back to earth.

i still believe that you and i were made for each other;

but as the days pass by like a slow moving train,

i've learned to accept that forever wasn't meant for us in this life, but i hope in the next one we will know

how to get it right.

“10.16”

[bigkubanna]

Make sure you spend every single second of yours, how you would want to spend your last one. The world could end any moment.

“10.16”

[bigkubanna]

i knew the ending of our story before it happened

and yet i lied to myself,

because you don't wake yourself up from a good dream,

even if you know you're asleep.

“10.16”

[bigkubanna]

there's no nice way to put this.

there is no romantic perspective to this.

but i hope i haunt you.

i hope my last words sting you

and i hope you kiss someone else

and think about how badly

you messed up with me.

hope you think of me

and i hope you regret

giving me up.

i hope you hug someone else

and i hope it feels 10 degrees colder

than my hugs did.

i hope you lay in bed at night

and beg the universe

for a second chance with me.

i hope you regret the pain

you put me through.

i hope you regret not being

sure about me.

i hope you find yourself

wishing you could've done things differently.

i hope you regret

letting me walk away.

i hope you regret

every

last

thing

that you ever did to me

for the rest of forever.

i hope i haunt you./

“10.16”

[bigkubanna]

AZ EMLÉK

Gyere, s valld be, hogy nem szeretsz,

úgy elhiszem, hogy rég szerettél.

S ha érzem már, hogy elmehetsz,

majd megtudom, hogy itt lehettél.

Enyém leszel: enyém a kincsem,

mihelyt kezem közül kifolyt.

Valószinű, hogy semmi sincsen,

és csakis az van, ami volt.

Valószínű, hogy nem vagyunk,

s valahol messze régen éltünk,

nagy pálmafák közt, sós tavunk

meleg sekélyén mendegéltünk.

A part síkos volt, mint a szappan,

a napfény sárga, mint a len,

és bent a forró rót iszapban

a talpunk csúszott, meztelen,

Az emlék átsüt testeden,

és minden perccel nő az emlék;

hagyj el! Hisz ez a szerelem,

ha nem leszek, tiéd a nemrég.

Most őszi eső mossa arcom,

S a pillanat, mely elhagyott,

mint messze láng, vagy mint az arcod

új, tünde fénnyel felragyog.

“10.16”