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Andrew and Steven in “Adults Unbox Hatchimals”

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День рождения сильного и независимого мужчины.

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good job everyone

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“This video of this adorable little girl encouraging her Dad while he tries to do her hair, is just what we needed to brighten up our day.” [X]

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Ending the cycle (excuse my grammar I’m shaking)

For the first time in 23 years I am finally going to admit this to myself and to complete strangers across the internet: I AM A CHILD WHO WAS ABUSED. I AM A CHILD WHO WITNESSED ABUSE. I AM A VICTIM OF ABUSE WHO WILL END THIS CYCLE. I used to tell people my Father wasn’t a “very nice guy” or “wasn’t always the nicest”; although this is true it’s sugar coating the bullshit I endured. The physical abuse was easier to take and came about less often than the verbal. But it’s the verbal that really breaks you. My fathers father was abusive both physically and verbally. When they teach you in those classes at school it’s a cycle, they forget to mention it often times becomes a hereditary cycle. The men on my fathers side have their less than “nice” days. I’m finally allowing myself (scared shitless and all because someone of my closest friends to this day have no idea) to say I WAS AND WILL NO LONGER BE A VICTIM OF ABUSE. I find myself now screaming it and telling everyone I knew when I was a child and whom I know now as an adult. The one event in my life that prompted this sudden out spoken-ness about a topic that in my family was so secretive, is my parents separating in June. My father is the man who blames the world for his problems; now that he no longer has my mother around. Common questions that everyone asks are “ how did you not tell me?”. Denial mostly, when you’re abused both physically, but mostly verbally you believe whatever the person abusing you is doing is somehow your fault. I would convince myself I had done something to make my father call me a cunt at 13 years old. Or tell me how “ungrateful” I am because on my weekends I didn’t want to spend them with him. I convinced myself for a long time that he told me I was selfish and a horrible kid because well he’s my father and if anyone’s gonna know if I’m a cunt or ungrateful it would be him, right? WRONG. My father and I have not spoken since he left my mom in June and if you ask my older sibling they’d inform you he did us no favors by sticking around. I can’t say I disagree. There are so many things I wish I could change but one major one is how I felt ashamed to tell anyone until now. I’m ashamed that when I did speak up to a close family member she informed me that I should figure out what makes him get that way and try and stop my behavior that causes that reaction. I’m ashamed of a lot of things; standing out today and saying my truth is not one of them. I AM ENDING THIS CYCLE. MY CHILDREN WILL KNOW IT IS OK TO SPEAK OUT. THEY WILL KNOW THAT NO ONE DESERVES TO BE SPOKEN TO IN A MANNER THAT DEFACES THEIR CHARACTER OR HARMS THEIR OPINION OF THEMSELVES. I AM AN ABUSED CHILD. I AM A CHILD WHO WITNESSED ABUSE. I AM NOW AN ADULT WHO WILL END THE CYCLE. I AM SPEAKING OUT. I AM ENDING THE SILENCE.

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He’s sad :(

why.

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Peanut being a total cutie pie. 💞🎀

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She thought the view was pretty, but I thought she was prettier.

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documentation of my wild adventure getting stuck in my spidey suit for three hours a week or so ago

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I see people publicly curving people and just being nasty to eachother for notes and it’s just not a good look lol like damn I’ll publicly curve you if I feel you’re being rude or vulgar and you came at me with no respect but if you just give me a compliment and I’m not interested I’ll either let you know privately or I won’t even respond. I just don’t see the point? Like what do you get out of it?

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