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She is the kind of girl who is always smiling and loves to laugh. If you are falling down, she will be right there to pick you up. She is the one that always says sorry, even if it’s not her fault. Even if she is feeling like the scum of the earth, she will never let you know. This is the girl who is afraid to love because she has already lost so much.

(via olderandwiserandetc)

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I’m in love with you and I will never be able to say “I Love You” because those are scary words with big meaning. I’m just a small person with too much time and not enough courage. Instead I’ll write it down and hope one day you find it by accident. You can write down whether or not you feel the same way and then I’ll know. Because I can’t say the words to you, let alone know how you feel- especially if you don’t feel the same way.  Because I’m just a tiny 20 year old human with a heart that feels like the size of the ocean and emotions that I could bottle in a jar around your neck. But that ocean and that jar are filled with you. If only I could tell you.

I keep words inside my head that I should say out loud.  (via theangeltothehunter)

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It’s amazing how two people can be so perfect for each other but they’re both too afraid to get hurt that they don’t do anything about it.

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I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes. Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You're doing things you've never done before, and more importantly, you're Doing Something. So that's my wish for you, and all of us, and my wish for myself. Make New Mistakes. Make glorious, amazing mistakes. Make mistakes nobody's ever made before. Don't freeze, don't stop, don't worry that it isn't good enough, or it isn't perfect, whatever it is: art, or love, or work or family or life. Whatever it is you're scared of doing, Do it. Make your mistakes, next year and forever. #vsco #VSCOcam #NeilGaiman (at SM Aura, Fort Bonifacio Global City Taguig)

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The difference between being loved and being fucked is I can’t remember how the first feels. I have a body like an open door. I have a body like an open hand. It is too easy to hold me.

Find me a boy with a heart more hopeful than spun sugar on a hot day, I will teach him to...

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On Sundays I dress like a 21 year old fresh from college who's obsessed with indie bands working as your local IT. All those are true. Except, unfortunately I'm not 21 anymore and I've been out of college for like 10 years. LOLOL 😝😂 #chvrches #VSCOcam #vsco (at Net Lima)

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I feel like I’ve swallowed a cloudy sky.

Haruki Murakami, Sputnik Sweetheart  (via h-o-r-n-g-r-y)

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"I will love you when you are still a day, I will love you when you are a hurricane." ☀️🌀#ClementineVonRadics #poems #VSCOcam #MO #AE (at Avant at the Fort)

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I thought leaving you would be easy, just walking out the door but I keep getting pinned against it with my legs around your waist and it’s like my lips want you like my lungs want air, it’s just what they where born to do so I am sitting at work thinking of you cutting vegetables in my kitchen your hair in my shower drain your fingers on my spine in the morning while we listen to Muddy Waters, I know you will never be the one I call home but the way you talk about poems like marxists talk of revolution it makes me want to keep trying. I’m still looking for reasons to love you. I’m still looking for proof you love me.

Clementine von Radics (via 47giraffes)

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 Home, by Clementine von Radics

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14:01: Did you do good today? How are you? Is it raining? I miss you. 15:32: It’s strange, whenever I go to the bathroom, I can smell you between my thighs. 15:34: Is that normal? How am I supposed to get over something when you are everywhere with it? 17:15: Mum asked where the mark on my throat came from and I had to tell her I bumped into a door. I am not sure she bought it, you sick fuck. 17:17: I don’t mind, honestly. I keep running my fingers over the skin there and it hurts and it feels warm at the same time and I kinda never want it to fade. 20:43: God, it’s the aching kind of missing. I think I’m in mourning for you. 20:43: Do you? I dunno, think about me or something? I hope you’re okay. I hope tender things are kissing your knuckles. 20:45: Speaking of aches, you sure did a number on me. I can feel you everywhere. Well done, buddy. 21:05: I wish that someone had told me that you can’t use love to fix everything. Isn’t that awful? Someone should put that in the children’s books. 22:57: It’s just that two nights ago we were twisted around each other at this time and I can’t get it out of my head. I want to always be naked with you. I want to kiss you until my heart is sore. 00:09: Goodnight, I don’t know how to say this, I want the empty space in your bed to hurt you. I love you, I love you.

Azra.T “Texts I never sent”  (via 5000letters)

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Someday, one day I will introduce you to my love (more like addiction) for Volkswagen Kombis, we'll ride it to neverland wearing cute socks minus the shoes, drink coconut juice all day long and listen to weird raggae songs that only you and I could understand. 🚗💫👞🍹🎶 #woosah! #volkswagenkombi #relapse #medyas (at Bonifacio High Street)

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This is my 4th birthday cake (the first one's a mamon but that still counts lol) this year. Thank you @nanzjess for the cake! @jrelingado for blowing my balloons. Haha! My south homeboys who travelled faaaaar and beyond for tonight. @aiiia_ Yay! Who kept her promise. @kayecubillo, red label. You know me best. Thank you! @endaymada who walked from Aura to BGC. Lol @msthursday for my favorite! For always being present on my birthdays. I love you! @renkampupot for eveeeeerrrrthing! A million and one! @gloomdrifter for the awesome VIP tiiiickeeeeets! @jennypanic the soft copy of that picture. I have no words. @iamkylereyes fistbump homeboy! Renegaaaaade! Thank you for coming! Percy and Erwin. @aineemarie I love you! Thank you! ❌⭕️ Birthday week (literally!) ended wonderfully. I know tonight is far from the previous parties I throw, #lolamoves! But 10 straight shots goes to all of you followed by 5 puffs and a drop! Merci! je te aime! ❤️ (at Avant at the Fort)

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Also. This. Thank you! The 5th was a series of highs and lows followed by crashes. This being the "crash" (not only because I crash you ategurl) because I have friends who are just as crazy as I am who always feed the fangirl in me. Quoting your awesome lyrics "Leave me sane, leave me breathless. Stay young and free" 👌 Three shots and a puff for yaaaa! #flyingipisband #happybirthdaytome #sorrynotsorry (at Avant at the Fort)

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Quoting the great #NeilGaiman "May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you're wonderful, and don't forget to make some art -- write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. And I hope, somewhere in the next year, you surprise yourself." Merci! Trente! ❤️😍 🎈🎉 (at La Mancha Residences, Coronado St.)

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One more start. 🔆 (at Crystal Beach Resort San Narciso Zambales)