betreybrained

[betreybrained]

I need to hurt you. you're not allowed to be unbothered and ineffected it's not fair. you should not be allowed to live and exist. you will never be anything more than an empty husk of a human

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anxious I'm too much. im sorry I love so much (but only if it's too much) and im sorry for being needy and I'm sorry for needing you to be nice to me . I can manage without it but if I get a little of it I need it all the time. there's something wrong with me and I think j have an anxiety disorder

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I want lego and flowers and bracelets and playlists and cds and cards and hugs and toys. I want to share a cigarette and go on a walk and swim in a lake with my friends and to stay up too late at sleepovers. i want to bake and i want to run away and i want to be right at home in my room in your arms. I am greedy and needy and I am full of love

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vauge tweeting on Twitter to lead bo on because I think it's a little funny . am I evil for that? maybe. maybe he shouldn't be ugly

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[betreybrained]

me a little bit

there’s actually nothing sweet or nice about being an extremely sentimental person. feeling wistful and romantic about everything is also a great way to be let down by…….. everything

[betreybrained]

Beautiful wonderful woman with a deep spiritual and physical connection to the floor❤️

She's trying to reconnect with her hometown (the fiery pits of hell)

[betreybrained]

I think I've grown greedy to your sweetness. I feel needy, strange and all funny on the inside because /why/ are you nice to me and why cant i stand (being without) it. I tell you ill push away if you need as I cling on tighter, i think i cant even stomach the idea of you not being all nice because youre sweetness itself. sugar trapped in the body of a stubborn, punk teenage thing. like honey encapsulated inside the walls of a defensive bee hive. i feel STUPID because of how much I feel like I've grown to crave the love in your hands and the sugar in your words. I have a cavity because of you, it's reached down deep into my jaw and settled into my bones. you've kissed me sweetly and spoiled me rotten and now all I wish is to decay in your arms. is that so evil of me? one (i) may think so

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this was about my conflicted feelings about being in love with my best friend . girl shut up you're in yaoi now

I can never tell how i feel. there's always just too much of it. would I be better off feeling nothing? can I make it go away? I stare at my ceiling and try to go back to bed.

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just remembered tumblr isn't blocked by the school wifi ... hello everyyaoi I am thinking about his hips and the curve of his back again. boys in skirts and girls with dicks 4ever

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and oh you're so pretty. I don't understand what you see in me , even if that sounds corny. but holy god. I look at you and my mouth goes dry. your crooked blunt teeth and low lidded eyes and moles and thin (hight wise, not hair thickness) eyebrows and you're pretty "too loud" laugh and overly expressive expressions. the way you wear yourself is so you and so perfect. I love you a little I think . can I skin you

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I miss my wife (my bestfriend) where is he.. come home I miss you a lot and my bed is empty and cold without you and im sad I am going to die

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you said you /liked/ being around me. and like yeah it makes sense we willingly spend time together everyday and I'm your closest friend but for some reason the idea that you actually like me is so foreign. not to be corny but there's no way people actually like being around me.

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[betreybrained]

I can never tell how i feel. there's always just too much of it. would I be better off feeling nothing? can I make it go away? I stare at my ceiling and try to go back to bed.

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[betreybrained]

hi yeah. yeah it's me. yeah my bed feels empty and cold without you. yeah I know it's stupid. yeah.

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NOTICE NOTICE NOTICE

notice how I shake and notice how I get freaked the fuck out. you know how expressive I am through body language so why do you struggle to see how I'm scared? whatever, I guess it doesn't matter anymore if you stopped. I dunno it just bugged me how you acted like you were being accused rather than the fact that you were just being an ass? I dunno, whatever. I love you a lot, and I think you're cool. j guess I'm just upset for whatever reason, and he's peeved because you upset me, and so I'm upset at you because he's upset at you. you know I value his opinion more than yours, sorry. haven't you noticed I pick favorites?

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spend Christmas with me, I know you want to. we don't need to exchange gifts, just lay with me. cool my hands, fix my temperature. stay a while, a forever.

we don't have (enough) time, or a ride home, or any money but I've got you and you're enough for me. I know you've said km enough but is it true? I'll ponder as I stare at our christmas tree. I want you to stay forever, would you mind? I know my sheets aren't cleaned and my room is cold but there's (usally) enough food to go around and you've said my hands are warm. I miss you, come back home for christmas night.

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I don't know how tumblr works but this acc is where I post things from my brain. ive got something wrong with me I think