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I'm Kogan, an Explorer grunt in training. I usually do office work for them but sometimes I help in researches and theorization about Rakua and materials surrounding it.

Also, there's a whole segment of our group that is constantly failing because of a little girl and I'm here to gossip about it.

I've been wanting to make an explorer self-insert for a while.

Kogan comes from the Japanese word for tiger's eye.

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Tree roots following the pattern of concrete footpaths

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Autistic? Me?

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Lilo & Stitch is a great example of a story that has no villains. It has antagonists, sure, but most of them are well-meaning. The worst person in the film is that little shit Myrtle, but she’s not in the film that much anyway.

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Dot's food character arc means A LOT to me. as someone on the autism spectrum who also struggles with ARFID, the fact that people accept her food struggles (including the social aspect of it) while also not giving up on helping her overcome them is just so good.

When Murdock got super happy because Dot ate something he did for the first time, I cried, literally. Many times I simply couldn't (and still can't sometimes) eat because of texture/flavor problem and when I get to eat something new my family is always cheerful. Many times the struggle made my family have to come up with strategies to make me eat something, like the secret donuts. I've never felt such a strong connection to any fictional character before.

Since today (as I'm writing this), is World Autism Awareness Day, I recommend reading this text, from Autism Self Advocacy Network about the basics of autism.

emotional about the dot food character arc

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I’m posting the ever-so-rare photo of myself alongside one of my characters based on my childhood because today is World Autism Acceptance Day, and I wanted to show my little corner of the internet who this particular autistic person is:  

I was officially diagnosed in February, at age 38 (I’m now 39). A lot of people thought I couldn’t be autistic.  Some people who know me in real life still don’t.  And until around 10 years ago, I didn’t think I could be either, because I was nothing like the stereotype media portrays. I was told that autistics lacked empathy (untrue), and never played make-believe (also often untrue) and only enjoyed STEM.  I was — and am — an empathetic artist -- and make believe?  I can spend days sketching finely bedecked bears brewing tea or carefully choosing the right words to weave tapestries of fiction — though perhaps my hyper focus was a bit of a red flag.  Even so, how could autism describe me?  I was a good student.  I got straight A's. I didn’t act out in class.  I can make eye contact…if I must.  And lots of girls hate having their hair brushed with an unholy passion, right?  Clearly I swim in sarcasm like a fish, so autism couldn't be why I was so anxious all the time, could it?

If someone had told me when I was younger what autism ACTUALLY is — instead of the nonsense I’d seen on screens — I would have seen myself in it.  I didn’t hear that autistics have sensory issues until I was in my mid-twenties, which is when I first began to really research autism symptoms, and I had almost all of them:  sensitivity to light, smells, fabrics, temperatures, textures, and certain touches, all of which make me feel anxious, I fidget (stim), I never know what the hell to do with my hands or where to look, I talk too little or too much, I have special interests, I have entire animated movies memorized shot-by-shot and can remember the first time and place I saw every movie I've ever seen but I often forget what I'm trying to say mid-sentence, I echo movies and tv shows (my husband and I have a whole repertoire of shared echolalias, making up about 20% of our conversations), I was in speech therapy as a kid, I have issues with dysnomia and verbal fluency, I toe-walk, I can't multitask to save my life, I like things just-so, I’m deeply introverted but not shy, I need to recover from all social interaction — even social interaction I enjoy — and I find stupid, every day things like grocery shopping, driving and making appointments overwhelming and intensely stressful, sometimes to the point where I struggle to speak.  It turns out, I am definitely autistic. My results weren't borderline. Not even close. And while these aren’t all of my challenges, and not everyone with these symptoms is autistic, it’s definitely something to look into if you present with all of these things at once. 

So why did it take me so long to get diagnosed? The same bias that exists in media threads through the medical community as well, and because I'm a woman who can discuss the weather while smiling on cue, few people thought I was worth looking into. Even after I was fairly certain I was autistic, receiving an official diagnosis in the US is unnecessarily difficult and expensive, and in my case, completely uncovered by my insurance.  It cost me over $4000, and I could only afford it because my husband makes more money than I do as a freelance illustrator — a job I fell into largely because it didn’t require in-person work; like many autists, I have been chronically underemployed and underpaid, in part due to physical illness in my twenties, which is a topic for another day.  But it shouldn’t be like this.  It shouldn’t be so hard for adults to receive diagnoses and it shouldn’t be so hard for people to see themselves in this condition to begin with due to misinformation and stereotypes. Like many issues in America, these barriers are even higher for marginalized groups with multiple intersectionalities. 

It’s commonly said that if you’ve met one autistic person, you’ve met one autistic person.  This is why it’s called a spectrum, not because there’s a linear progression of severity (someone who appears to have low support needs like myself might need more than it seems, and vice versa), but because every autistic person has their own strengths and weaknesses, challenges and experiences, opinions and needs.  No two people on the spectrum present in the same way.  And that’s a good thing!  No way of being autistic is inherently any better than any other, and even if someone on the spectrum struggles with things I don’t — or can do things I can’t — doesn’t make them more or less deserving of respect and human dignity.

But speaking solely for myself, the more I learn about autism, the happier I am to be autistic.  I struggle to find words and exert fine motor control, but my deep passion and fixation has made me good at art and storytelling anyway.  I find more joy watching dogs and studying leaf shapes on my walks than most people do in an entire day.  More often than not, the barriers I’ve faced weren’t due to my autism directly, but due to society being overly rigid about what it considers a valid way of existing.  My hope in writing this today is that maybe one person will realize that autism isn’t what they thought — and that being different is not the same as being less than. My hope with my fiction is to give autistic children mirrors with which to see themselves, and everyone else windows through which to see us as we actually are.

If you’re interested in learning more about autism or think you might be autistic, too, I recommend the Autism Self Advocacy Network  autisticadvocacy.org and the following books:

What I Mean When I Say I’m Autistic by Annie Kotowicz

We're Not Broken by Eric Garcia

Knowing Why edited by Elizabeth Bartmess

Unmasking Autism by Devon Price, PhD

Loud Hands edited by Julia Bascom

Neurotribes by Steve Silberman

(trigger warning: the latter two contain quite a lot of upsetting material involving institutionalized child abuse, but I think it’s important for people to know how often autistic children were — and are — abused simply for being neurodivergent).

Thanks for reading 💛

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Greetings bugs and worms!

This comic is a little different than what I usually do but I worked real hard on it—Maybe I'll make more infographic stuff in the future this ended up being fun. Hope you learned something new :)

If you are still curious and want to learn more about OCD, you can visit the International OCD Foundation's website. I also recommend this amazing TED ED video "Starving The Monster", which was my first introduction to the disorder and this video by John Green about his own experience with OCD.

The IOCDF's website can also help you find support groups, therapy, and has lots of online guides and resources as well if you or a loved one is struggling with the disorder. It is very comprehensive!

Reblog to teach your followers about OCD

(But also not reblogging doesn't make you evil, silly goose)

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The next arc in the anime has been announced, Terastal debut! (Curious that we don't see Friede and co., wonder if we'll see the RVT gang and the kids temporarily part ways, but with Cap looking after Liko in case the Explorers pop up.)

Also, Floragato and the Paldean E4 (and Grusha and Katy)! 🤩

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go to settings > to the right, under "Blogs," pick the blog you want to change the settings of > scroll down to visibility settings > turn on "Prevent third-party sharing for [blog url]" > do this for each individual blog you have

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Pokémon Gold 2 & Silver 2 ideas

Note that these are just ideas and not a leak.

This sequel takes place 6 years after the events of GSC/HGSS;

New player characters (maybe with Japanese names even in the English version);

New Ho-oh and Lugia forms;

After Team Rocket's disband, a new evil team arises, one more like the early villain teams (obviously evil). This one is willing to mess with the timeline. It may cause new paradox pokémon to appear;

The player will meet with a trio of characters working for a time travel police, composed by Looker and two mysterious people, a young woman with cyan/teal hair that is later revealed to be Kris from a deleted timeline and an old man with graying red hair that is later revealed to be Silver (with his gen 2 hairstyle) from another deleted timeline. Both Kris and Silver are somewhat like Ingo in Legends and Anabel in gen 7, where they lost part of their memories. The two also wear sunglasses to hide their eye art style (which is different from the rest of modern game characters, similar to the original Sugimori style);

A dragon type eeveelution is revealed (It's the Year of the Dragon after all). Old legends from the Dragon Clan talked about it but was believed to not be real until, for still unknown reasons, the Eevee of a kimono girl evolved into it. This girl would be a relevant character. In the later part of the game it's discovered what caused the evolution and you'll have access to it.

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Pokémon Day 2024: Next game speculation

Pokémon has been trying to give us unexpected things is the last few years: gen 6 introduced generational battle gimmicks and the fairy type, gen 7 gave us regional forms, pokémon that barely seem like pokémon and Let's Go, gen 8 brought the DLC and Legends Arceus... I feel we could still get a surprise.

Many people have been sharing their thoughts about what the next game could be. It's not a surprise that after the Sinnoh remakes people are waiting for Unova remakes... but where's the surprise on it? It's not that it's a bad idea, but it's not hard to imagine that the Unova games woul: be remade or re-imagined with new graphics (like BDSP or ORAS), get a Legends game set in the past or even a Black 3 & White 3.

After Kanto has been revived through Let's Go, people also theorized that Johto, being not featured in a game for a long time, might be the next region in the spotlight, maybe getting a game that fits the mold of Let's Go or a Legends Celebi.

What if we tried expecting the unexpected? Here are some ideas I thought about:

Pokémon Legends: Futuristic Unova

A good amount of people talked about this, considering all the futuristic elements of the gen 5 games it does fit Unova better than Hoenn or Alola. Pokémon hasn't really touched cyberpunk territory despite all the sci-fi tech it showed, and I feel like the region where you find Genesect and a person building a time machine might be a good opportunity for it. Not the most surprising idea to me though.

Pokémon Let's Go Unova

Very unexpected. Maybe a little unwanted? Unova had a small regional dex so it could benefit from it and it's not hard to reimagine the structure of the DS locations in a Let's Go-esque style.

Pokémon Gold 2 & Silver 2

Now that's something I haven't seen people talking about. B2W2 are very clear sequels to BW, and GSC are considered by some sequels to the gen 1 games, however, Pokémon didn't really gave us sequels to an older game, only to the last core series titles. It'd give us more novelty than any other thing I could think of.

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Armandino feeling down for some reason.

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What Why on earth is Terapagos?

I have noticed some similarities between Terapagos and other crystal pokémon that have connections to space. In this post I'll elaborate these connections and explain why it may be extraterrestrial and a possible reason that it came to earth.

Similarities

Terapagos has an "inactive form", where it is nothing more than a crystal. If it has energy and the crystal is not stuck somewhere, then it is able to make its body take form, to restore its physical body. A crystal core from where the body comes from is a thing in common for three other pokémon that have connection to space:

"As long as its red core remains, it can regenerate its body instantly, even if it's torn apart." (Staryu's Black 2 & White 2 Pokédex entry)

"Its unusual body shape, reminiscent of abstract art, led local people to spread rumors that this Pokémon may be an invader from outer space.", (Starmie's Moon Pokédex entry) "Its sparkling core is called “the gem of the sea.” This core can be made into high-priced accessories that are traded in secret." (Starmie's Ultra Sun Pokédex entry) "Its core shines in many colors and sends radio signals into space to communicate with something." (Starmie's Black 2 & White 2 Pokédex entry)

"The DNA of a space virus underwent a sudden mutation upon exposure to a laser beam and resulted in Deoxys. The crystalline organ on this Pokémon's chest appears to be its brain." (Deoxy's Ruby Pokédex entry). In the seventh movie, Deoxys as shown to need energy and break free from the meteorite in order to take form

If the biological similarities are not enough, Starmie, Deoxys and Terapagos all can learn Meteor Beam. According to Bulbapedia, "Meteor Beam is learned by most extraterrestrial Pokémon"

Speculation part:

I believe that the crater where Terapagos is found may have been made by the collision of a meteor. Coincidence?

Let's take a look at the ability "Teraform Zero", that clears all weather and terrain effects. I believe Terapagos might have been sent to Earth to "teraform" it. Not "terraform", as in to make a planet be enough like Earth (Terra) so we could inhabit it, but the act of transforming a planet into Tera crystals. To make our world a crystal world ideal for the extraterrestrial crystal pokémon — and maybe other crystal beings?

The reason why Lucius hasn't returned is because he turned into crystal.