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on loving your siblings

I don't love anyone, Belle and Sebastian//The Reynolds Pamphlet, Hamilton by Lin-Manuel Miranda//The Other Boleyn Girl(2008)//Fleabag, 2x06//@earth-to-mothership //Rabbi Joseph Telushkin, Jewish Literacy//Antigone, Jean Anouilh//Maurice Sendak//Little Miss Sunshine (2006)//The Elektra Complex, @filmnoirsbian //NA

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Lidia Yuknavitch, The Chronology of Water

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Fuckin’ Dog, 2003 by Yoshitomo Nara

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A nonhuman character in heavy makeup: *is very long*

Me: is that you, Doug

The credits: Freaky Creature played by Doug Jones

Me: YEAHHHH

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stay stay stay (for quite some time)

hello all! i finally published the small les mis fic i’ve been keeping on my laptop for a few years. if you want, give it a chance??

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People really need to realise that “media can affect real life” doesn’t mean “this character does bad things so people will read that and start doing bad things” and actually means “ideas in fiction especially stereotypes about minority groups can affect how the reader views those groups, an authors implicit prejudices can be passed on to readers”

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 i rewatched baz luhrmann’s romeo+juliet and i discovered this really interesting recurring image of water as suspension from the action of the play, which. yeah. i wanna write an essay about it.

but basically, the skinny is that juliet starts off the movie suspended in a bathtub, not yet caught up in the trajectory of the play, which is later mirrored by romeo dunking his head in a sink to come down from his trip. he does that in a bathroom, distanced from the main action of the party. right after that, he sees juliet for the first time through the aquarium, emphasizing how their love makes them feel detached from the immediate familial conflict of the ‘real world’, and later that night, they kiss in the pool, again desperately trying to escape their families’ rivalries and the impossibility of their love.  when tybalt dies, he falls backwards into a fountain, effectively leaving the main action of the play. juliet pushes romeo from the balcony just before he goes into exile, and he lands in a pool, once again signalling his departure from the goings-on of the play – although interestingly, he spends that exile in a desert trailer park, so i wonder whether the complete lack of water in arid mantua already tells us that any attempt to remove him from the conflict and its inevitable tragic turn-out is futile.

perhaps most heart-wrenchingly though: just before his final fight, mercutio stands in the ocean, up to his knees in water, shooting at the waves and the sky. not only does he foolishly try to combat the forces of nature, but he’s also half-submerged in water. he almost made it out.

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Do every retail employee a favor this Thanksgiving/black friday: stay home.

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Different EMP starting points

So, since I’m currently in the process of uploading all my EMP metas to AO3 (here), it just occurred to me that we might need a summary post of all the different proposed EMP starting points. So here goes:

If I remember correctly, the three founders of EMP theory, @monikakrasnorada, @the-7-percent-solution and @gosherlocked originally proposed (in 2016) that Sherlock’s EMP (extended mind palace) starts at the moment Mary shot Sherlock in HLV.

Then there were a lot of people in the fandom who had all sorts of earlier or later EMP starting point ideas (e.g., Sherlock actually jumped off the roof in TRF, Sherlock OD’d on the plane at the end of HLV, Sherlock only slips into his EMP sometime during s4, etc.)

@ebaeschnbliah and a couple of others were proposing very, very early EMP scenarios (i.e. everything we see right from the start of ASiP is already happening in Sherlock’s mind). And @ebaeschnbliah and a few other fans are also playing around with PILOT!verse (i.e. the unaired Pilot is real; the show is not. Or: Sherlock actually slips into his EMP at some point during the Pilot).

In 2017 @possiblyimbiassed had a completely different idea: EMP starts in the gap between TSoT and HLV as Sherlock OD’s off-screen after the wedding at home in his 221b flat. Everything we see at the start of HLV is already EMP.

Shortly after that @possiblyimbiassed re-worked that theory under the influence of an idea that @raggedyblue had come up with. @raggedyblue had proposed that, while Sherlock indeed OD’s (probably in the gap between TSoT and HLV), what we’re seeing on the entire show right from the start (!) is actually not what really happened, what we are seeing is instead Sherlock re-imagining his entire friendship with John right from the start in his mind due to the fact that he read John’s (not entirely factual) blog right before putting that needle in his arm. (This theory that @raggedyblue originally put forward and @possiblyimbiassed has worked out in intricate detail is something I refer to as the raggedypossibly-theory.;))

As for myself: I am not that creative, so I haven’t really come up with EMP starting points of my own. :D While I like all EMP starting points and think they’re all fun to play with, I mostly go back and forth between two ideas:

1. TRF: I.e. Sherlock actually jumped off that hospital roof at the end of TRF. 

2. @possiblyimbiassed’s original theory from 2017 was right, and Sherlock OD’d after the wedding. Everything we see at the beginning of HLV is already EMP.

Both theories aren’t originally mine (obviously), but this argument in favour of them is something that just occurred to me:

Both scenarios have one big advantage over all other EMP starting points, the advantage of being closely tied to ACD’s canon!Holmes stories!

1) There was actually a Reichenbach moment in ACD!canon, after which Holmes’ disappeared for years hiding from both the public eye and Watson. 2) And the fact that Holmes’ gay heartbreak and sorrow find their expression in his drug use is canonical in SIGN and also massively hinted at in the film TPLoSH (Mofftiss’s favourite film).

So, that’s what those two theories have got going for them: Their deep foundation in ACD!canon.

Mostly, I believe in theory 1, though. (I mean, theory 2 has its merits, what with Holmes’s canonical drug use, but it has the drawback of putting the starting point into an off-screen gap between TSoT and HLV.)

Theory 1 is the simplest, really: Sherlock jumped. 

There’s a reason why we never got an actual explanation of how Sherlock supposedly ‘tricked’ everyone at the end of TRF and how the jump worked out well for him. (Hint: It didn’t.) 

There’s a reason why the last episode of s4, which, on a meta level, pushed us into the same void as the original readers of the ACD!stories after the Reichenbach Fall, is called ‘The Final Problem’ linking it back to TRF (which in canon was actually called ‘The Final Problem’). 

There’s a reason why Mycroft’s weird bunker office starts to appear in TEH, etc., etc., etc. …

Sherlock actually jumping and everything being in his head starting with TEH would explain all of that. 

It would tie the whole EMP idea to the ACD!stories, and it might even have the advantage of making Mary a figment of Sherlock’s imagination, some nurse he hears (in his coma), a nurse coming into Sherlock’s hospital room and flirting with John. Obviously comatose, jealous Sherlock has to turn her into a great villain after that.:D

So, yeah, theory 1 has a lot of things going for it.

But, as I said, theory 2 (OD in the gap between TSoT and HLV) is also very close to my heart, for various reasons (Holmes’ drug use in SIGN, his symptoms fitting a cocaine overdose, as I pointed out at the end of this thread here: x).

In short, I keep bouncing back and forth between these two theories, basically.

So, this is it. My EMP summary post. Feel free to add more EMP starting points of your own in the comments, if you like.:)

P.S. And then there are obviously those of us who believe that all EMP starting points are true because it’s an ‘Inception’ style dream-within-a-dream-within-a-dream scenario, which Mofftiss have, after all, hinted at in both the Sherlocky ‘Doctor Who’ episode ‘Last Christmas’ and the massively Sherlocky show ‘Dracula’…This has been proposed by many different people over time, I believe.

Tagging: @sarahthecoat @ebaeschnbliah @gosherlocked @raggedyblue @possiblyimbiassed @sherlockshadow @monikakrasnorada @fellshish

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"feminine urge" is just girly things 2.0

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Kō No Mono

I’m gonna feed you to my pigs.

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“I fell asleep after I told myself I’d watch him. What convinced him there was relief to find in the flames outside when he’d seen already what I showed him? I woke to his smell. The heat of the door and his turning of its knob burned to the bone before he could get it open. His flesh fell uneven and beaded on the hardwood. The circling flames blew through. A plume of hellfire brushed me back from where I’d been standing, but I rushed to the one window to track him. I watched my brother running, the flames in a cruel attachment to his skin, his arms flailing. He ran with his mouth open, screaming, as everyone outside was, and crying, though no tears, no intimate evidence of conditions. The fire took his face, and for his black skull, all I could think was how we’d once been told that deep down the two of us were identical, beyond the arrangement of muscle and its appearance. I knew the house would never let my brother back in, but even waking from the dream, I knew I wouldn’t wake from any decision to leave us separated, leaving everything in the moment our eyes opened to unite us, but even migrating to the door, I couldn’t open it. Between burns on my hands and anticipating the pain of the outside, I failed each time. I walked back to the window, watched my brother disappear. I was left alone in the house, my brother finally let to roam. And though I knew under those terms we’d never see each other again, I knew we found a home outside the sea of each other.”

- Dustin Pearson, My Brother Outside the House in Hell.

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instead of a brain in my head there’s simply a frog in a tweed jacket, sipping tea, and occasionally saying mean things to me

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howdy ladies and gaydies, I spent ages making this What Tarot Card Are You quiz which has ZERO pop culture references and lots of horror / surrealist writing! (also if you get death I’m sorry)