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Okay so the real idea that prompted this was "What do the both of them think about the Guardsman Curse?"

Soohyeon sees her miraculous recovery as a sort of 'Second lease on life'. She had been preparing for the fact that she would die from her curse for awhile so her 'resurrection' is nothing short of divine providence to her. This caused her to think about life a bit differently, with the bewitcher problem 'solved' and everyone she held dear in the East gone (besides Li Hwa I guess), she started to feel discontent with her own existence. She is living for no one and is being tossed around by her fate and past.

When she gets her reunion with Tindoiimu it's representative of her acting on her own desires to live the life that she wants. So when considering the curse, she sees spending time away from Tindoiimu as a worse and far more prolonged fate. If she can spend a few blissful days together with Tindoiimu then she would give her life up and more.

Soohyeon does feel a little bad when considering Tindoiimu's feelings. She knows it will be difficult watching her rot away and die but reasons that their parting is inevitable for Tindoiimu and by hiding away it will only haunt Tindoiimu more as those feelings would remain unresolved. The thought that she's being cruel and selfish constantly floats in her mind, especially as she approaches death, but she forces it back down with more and more rationalizations.

Soohyeon does have one desire, one thing she hopes to do before her death. She wants to get Tindoiimu to love herself again. She wants her love to fly as free as Soohyeon is now, to indulge in her desires and to live with purpose and love for others in her heart.

Tindoiimu is, of course, very much against Soohyeon 'throwing her life away'. She does not see herself as someone who warrants such a sacrifice, and that Soohyeon is throwing her life away on a whim. She believes that eventually Soohyeon has the capability to move on and that it's just her acting rash by committing herself to a cursed wretch like Tindoiimu. She wants deeply for Soohyeon to live a long, peaceful life and to relish this world that they all fought so hard for. But Soohyeon stays no matter how much she pleads.

Tindoiimu does however, deeply enjoy her time with Soohyeon. She feels whole when she's with her and it makes the loneliness of being a Guardsman easier to bare. This does not sway her very much as she still does not see herself as someone deserving of this love and the lingering doom taints all this happiness.

She thinks everyday about running away, leaving Soohyeon behind but knows that instead of doing what Tindoiimu wants and living a fulfilling life she will just chase after her endlessly instead. She tries to talk sense into Soohyeon but her love is stalwart. It feels hopeless to her sometimes but Soohyeon always talks her down with a bright smile on her face. Soohyeon tells her again and again to just relish these memories of their happiness together, that a day with her is worth a thousand lifetimes anywhere else. This is cold comfort for Tindoiimu who hardens her heart everyday, seeing the death that lingers behind every smile of Soohyeon's.

The end is coming with certainty but in the meantime they live in peace together. Two souls drifting through Vendacti with nothing but love in their heart to keep them going.

I have a sort of 'Post Canon AU' for TindoYeon since it seems like we're never ever getting the next story arc. The details not pertaining to my blorbos don't matter but the basic idea is

Tindoiimu becomes a guardsman (canon)

She ends up killing Juan Yun and it probably severely damages her psyche

She personally heals Soohyeon because of her void energy guardsman powers or whatever (important note, nobody knows that she did this)

Leaves the East without so much a farewell

Lives out her days as a wanderer, drifting around the world

She bears the guardsman curse which brings unspecified ruin to anywhere or anyone she spends too long around

Still holds a deep affection for Soohyeon that eats away at her constantly since she never properly ended things

Soohyeon meanwhile is the only mythic alive in the East anymore (that we know of at least) and is burdened with being the defacto head of state

The Insect Tribe and the East are at peace once again but it's very tenuous. This peace is predicated on the myth that Tindoiimu is the sole cause of the last conflict. Tachi may or may not still be alive

Soohyeon longs to see Tindoiimu again despite this but she's unsure if she's even alive still and all the diplomacy she's had to undertake pushes her yearning to the back of her mind

This is my speculative sort of ending for their characters based loosely on canon. I even have a whole fic outline drafted about this but I'll probably never actually write all of it lol.

From this point it branches out into different kinds of doomed yuri. 1: They go their seperate ways, hearts forever broken by the other 2: Soohyeon runs off and lives the life of a vagrant with Tindoiimu. Number 2 sounds appealing but the doomed part comes in with Tindoiimu's Guardsman curse which slowly eats away at Soohyeon. The exact nature of the decay I haven't really decided on yet however but she will die in Tindoiimu's arms, that is for certain. I am primarily interested in the second option for what are obvious reasons. It's sort of the closest thing I can imagine for 'Domestic TindoYeon' without severely breaking canon or it being an massively different AU.

This post was initially about something else but I felt I had to explain my weird post-canon thoughts before I got into the meat of the subject. I'm going to sleep now see you next time for the realllll discussion!

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Wait wtf you can't just rerun two characters I missed out on and really want at the same time that's not allowed! You haven't even rerun Sanchez yet and Gretta came out like yesterday chill out!!!

At least I'm ''""""guaranteed""""" Tachilaanda but for Gretta I have to deal with Hoyoverse tier rates since she's a side unit.

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I have a sort of 'Post Canon AU' for TindoYeon since it seems like we're never ever getting the next story arc. The details not pertaining to my blorbos don't matter but the basic idea is

Tindoiimu becomes a guardsman (canon)

She ends up killing Juan Yun and it probably severely damages her psyche

She personally heals Soohyeon because of her void energy guardsman powers or whatever (important note, nobody knows that she did this)

Leaves the East without so much a farewell

Lives out her days as a wanderer, drifting around the world

She bears the guardsman curse which brings unspecified ruin to anywhere or anyone she spends too long around

Still holds a deep affection for Soohyeon that eats away at her constantly since she never properly ended things

Soohyeon meanwhile is the only mythic alive in the East anymore (that we know of at least) and is burdened with being the defacto head of state

The Insect Tribe and the East are at peace once again but it's very tenuous. This peace is predicated on the myth that Tindoiimu is the sole cause of the last conflict. Tachi may or may not still be alive

Soohyeon longs to see Tindoiimu again despite this but she's unsure if she's even alive still and all the diplomacy she's had to undertake pushes her yearning to the back of her mind

This is my speculative sort of ending for their characters based loosely on canon. I even have a whole fic outline drafted about this but I'll probably never actually write all of it lol.

From this point it branches out into different kinds of doomed yuri. 1: They go their seperate ways, hearts forever broken by the other 2: Soohyeon runs off and lives the life of a vagrant with Tindoiimu. Number 2 sounds appealing but the doomed part comes in with Tindoiimu's Guardsman curse which slowly eats away at Soohyeon. The exact nature of the decay I haven't really decided on yet however but she will die in Tindoiimu's arms, that is for certain. I am primarily interested in the second option for what are obvious reasons. It's sort of the closest thing I can imagine for 'Domestic TindoYeon' without severely breaking canon or it being an massively different AU.

This post was initially about something else but I felt I had to explain my weird post-canon thoughts before I got into the meat of the subject. I'm going to sleep now see you next time for the realllll discussion!

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Something about Cinq Don 2 just rubs me the wrong way. I don't like her. Not for any of the bad reasons mind you, I just don't really jive with her design at all.

I imagine she's going to be horrendously OP so I will be forced to use her but I will NOT be smiling the entire time.

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I'm in the process of creating a write up about my idea for a TindoYeon role swap AU and part of it is the idea that Tachilaanda is the Dracotine plant instead of Juan Yun. This led me down the train of thought of 'What if Tachilaanda pined after Soohyeon' which I thought was funny and interesting enough to include.

This did however bring to mind the idea of 'What if Tachilaanda was kind of obsessed with Soohyeon in the canon timeline'. The concept here being that Tachi is so obsessed with the idea of being 'superior' to her sister that she wants to claim everything she holds dear. It starts with Jihasha but when she finds out that Tindoiimu has a lesbian situationship she wants to claim that too. She doesn't try to force herself onto Soohyeon, much the opposite but wants Soohyeon to willingly become her ally. It's kind of a trite plot but I think it'd be fun especially given that Soohyeon doesn't know about their falling out. It could go something like.....

Tachilaanda hears of their relationship and starts plotting

Sends out a messenger to contact Soohyeon in particular, posing the idea that they could hold secret peace talks

Tachi leverages her connection with Soohyeon to drag her in deeper

Offers some assurances on her safety

Soohyeon very reluctantly ends up agreeing and sneaks off one day

Tachi is astounding kind and generous, treats her fairly despite being a bewitcher

Soohyeon goes 'wow being amazing must run in the family'

She slowly realizes that it seems like talks of peace move completely past Tachi and she's interested in something more

She starts getting weirdly clingy and touchy all of a sudden

Soohyeon wants to leave after this but due to 'circumstances' (like a bridge breaking or something) she had to spend the night with Tachi

Sleeps in her room

Tachi suddenly switches to being much more emotional and tries to emotionally connect with Soohyeon

Idk things get weird from here

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Oh hey! I've played this game for 1600 days! Terrifying!

No Tachi with the gems btw

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I think part of the reason I find myself so engrossed in the latest R1999 is because Willowrine sort of kind of matches me conception of TindoYeon. I think I've written about it before on here but it's the idea that Soohyeon's idolization of Tindoiimu gradually shifted over time and turned into a deep affection and love for her

This line in particular jumped out to me because that's just exactly how I see them. There's other detials too but I'd be yapping all day if listed all my brainrot so I'll just keep it short.

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No Tachi on her rerun

Time to crash out

I'll probably do a proper 10x multi at the end of the banner if I still don't have her so I can do the annoying random mineral strategy to eventually get her. This is foolproof but also takes FOREVER.

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Got around to reading Willow's character story today and it was pretty good! I like how it puts a lot more focus on what it means for her to be disabled and the Irish heritage/druid side of her character than the main story does. I weirdly find it really compelling how out of focus 'why' Willow lost her leg was in the grand scheme of things. I think a lesser story would make that the focus of the whole side story but here it doesn't matter 'how' she lost her leg just that she did and it changed her life.

Anyways I think Druvis and Willow should meet up and talk about Druids, arcanum, and lesbianism together. That is all.

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Finished the new event. Shockingly good after the mess that was last update. I really love Willow and Flutterpage's characters and the way they develop throughout the story. Willow is particular is a really real representation of what it's like to wallow in your own self-loathing and depression. There's also lesbians, like she's not even trying to hide it Caroline wants Willow BAD.

If I had to complain about anything it's that it kind of runs out of gas by the end and wraps up way too quick for my liking.

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Because of the new meta team of Willow + Tuesday + Sotheby + Kakania it has led me to wonder what would happen if you locked Tuesday and Kakania in the same room.

What would Kakania's greatest fear be? There's a lot of options for sure, failure being the most obvious. I feel like she would want to confront that fear, whatever it is, but it's a different matter if she's able deal with it.

So many possibilities..........

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Took a little bit but I finally got Willow. Maxed her out (mostly) immediately.

She will go nicely with my Euphoria'd Sotheby! Though I think I need to raise her anecdote cube.

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Not finished with the story yet but I appreciate how the new event perfectly captures the particular emotional state of "Having something mildly inconvenient happen while you're already at rock bottom" with Willow.

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The results from War Zone are in......

And I'm second! Love wins!

Grinded up to the last second. No way I hell I could get first from this super whale so Im content with second.