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Something about a fresh blanket of snow, hearing the crunch under your feet. The cold crisp air, the fresh powder, and the beauty of this country. Ember knows Switzerland is a vacation destination for her, one that she has had on her list for years. She has always loved going to the snow, being in the snow and cold. Winter family trips to Colorado is where she learned her love of skiing. Hoping she can get there soon this year, before the snow to ski is gone. Making memories with her older sister Niomi is something dear to her, so she is hoping she comes with her. She is ready to hit the slopes!

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When you love what you have, you have everything you need.

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One unheard voicemail, a number from Texas. “Please don’t let it be who I think it is.” Pressing play she heard her mothers voice on the other end. Her blood turned to ice. Hearing her say, “Mari, I am in town, call me I need to see you.” She felt sick, holding onto her stomach, her small pregnancy bump just showing. Lena called her back, waiting for her mother to answer, and once she did. ”What don’t you understand? I don’t want to see you.” Those words came out of Marialena’s mouth, screaming into the phone. Her body was shaking, she was trying to hold it together. Not wanting to break down, and Linda, her mother, hearing her on the other side of the phone. ”Por favor mija, please. I want to see you, why can’t a mother see her own daughter?” Lena remained silent, wanting to tell her why. She held it in, ”Linda, after everything that has happened to me, what I have been through. I would have stayed home, I never would have run away if actually if you would have been a good mother.” It was a few minutes before either of them spoke.

Then Linda caught Lena off guard, I will be in Central Park, in about an hour. Please meet me there.” The call ended, Lena threw her phone onto her bed, Axel had been there, turning to him she embraced him, holding onto him tightly, tears streaming down her face, ”Maybe I should go see her. Tell her that I don’t want to see or hear from her ever again. She needs to know that I don’t need her, haven’t for a long time.” Axel’s soothing words made her mind up, ”You should, because you know she won’t stop, and you need peace of mind. Just tell her how you feel.” Lena nodded, he was right, she needed to let her know. Let her know how she failed her as a mother, how she wasn’t there for her, the one time in her life she needed her mother most.

Getting ready, Marialena texted Valentina, knowing she was at work. Val needed to know what was going on, Hey, Linda is here. I know I said I never want to see her again, but she won’t stop bugging. I think it’s time to tell her how I really feel. Let her know that I want nothing to do with her and that she can forget about me. Wish me luck. Love you hermana. Grabbing her jacket and purse, she stopped just at her front door, ”Axel, maybe you should come, stay in the car. I don’t know, I may need you.” Getting into her car, she drove to Central Park, traffic a bit heavy this time of day. She was able to find a parking spot, her mother texting her, I am here, by the fountain. It took her a good fifteen minutes, before she built up enough courage to get out of the car. Only taking her phone and jacket, her stomach in her chest. It had been since the fall of 2006 since she last saw her mother.

Walking towards the fountain, at first she didn’t see her, maybe she just didn’t recognize her anymore, no that’s not it, she would know her mother when she saw her. Looking around, she jumped when someone tapped her shoulder. Turning around, she came face to face with Linda Maria Quintana, her mother. She was frozen, she couldn’t move, no words came out. Even when Linda hugged her, Lena didn’t move, her arms frozen by her sides, finally she managed to speak, ”Please let go of me.” Linda let go, and backed up a bit, a grin on her face, Oh! Mija, it’s so good to see you! It has been too, long!” Not long enough, Lena thought, ”Let me see you.” Good to know somethings don’t change. Linda, always had to make sure you looked decent, presentable, anything out of place she would comment on, it would be harsh, but she would always say, I tell you because I care. Oh how she hated that!

She gave her f***ing nod of approval, with a small smirk on her lips, “You look good Mari, you do, especially for one having a baby.” Lena’s brows furrowed in confusion, looking at her mother, her hand held up, ”Wait what? You actually think I gave birth?!” Now her mother’s smirk was gone, what followed no one expected, Linda looked furious, she walked up towards Lena, before she could swing, Lena moved out of her way, ”Como puedes hacer esto?! Tener un aborto, un pinche aborto! Ese bebe, ay Dios mio! Marialena Reina Qunitana! Como pudiste hacer eso?! Linda was livid, and surprisingly Lena was calm, ”Why mom, why did I have an abortion? Because my father raped me, he impregnated me, and instead of helping me like any good mother would do, you made me feel helpless, made me feel as if I had no one. So yes, I ran away, ran away from the hellhole of your home. You wanna know something, no God lives in that house, it’s all evil and I have renounced God, your Catholic faith. If I go to hell then so be it. Nothing could compare with growing up under your f***ing roof.”

Linda was shocked, Lena knew she wasn’t expecting her to talk to her in that way, especially when she told her about renouncing her faith, ”Como? How could you renounce God? No, no no no, Marialena, esto no es justo! Dios es your savior…” Lena cut her off, ”No Linda, he is yours, please, this conversation is over. Don’t contact me again, don’t come see me again. I don’t want anything to do with you. You believe in God, your judgement day will come, sooner or later. I just hope you are ready to face it.” Lena nodded, a small smile on her face, she felt okay, she was actually happy. She felt a bit lighter, “Thanks Linda, I needed this. Blessed be.” With that she turned away from her mother, leaving her to her thoughts, and that was the last time she has heard or had any contact with Linda.

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01. A simple black dress. Off shoulders with a slit to show leg.

02. A nice black coat to go over her dress. It’s still winter and chilly in New York.

03. Her wedding ring from Giovanni. She never takes it off.

04. Her favorite black heels, and yes they are Louis V.

05. A cute necklace, which goes with the cut if dress she is wearing.

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Q&A

1. What is your favorite Valentine’s Day treat?

I love mini round heart shape cookies. Simple, yet delicious.

2. Are you pro- or anti-Valentine’s Day?

I’m in between. I don’t hate it, but I don’t love it.

3. What movie do you like to watch during Valentine’s season?

I love 10 things I hate about you, and my bloody valentine .

4. Who’s your celebrity Valentine?

Definitely Henry Cavill, mmm.

5. What would you do on your perfect Valentine's date?

I would cook a dinner for my boys, and stay in while we have a lovely evening together.

6. What type of gift(s) do you like to receive?

Anything my little Carter gives or makes me.

7. Who was your first Valentine?

Haha, wow, hmmm it was 1st grade and it was Tony Lopez. I hope he’s doing well.

8. What is the best Valentine’s Day you’ve ever had?

Back in 2009, with Giovanni Santorini. He has shown me what love really is, I never thought I could love but he has shown me how to.

9. What is your favorite thing about Valentine’s Day?

All the candy that goes in clearance the next day lol.

10. Who is your Valentine this year? Do you have any plans?

My husband, Giovanni Santorini. I would have no idea, he always tells me it’s a surprise.

THIS or THAT?

11. Roses or a mixed bouquet?

A mixed bouquet

12. Candlelight or fairy lights?

Fairy lights

13. Shoot Cupid’s arrow or be shot by it?

Shoot the arrow

14. Perfume/cologne or none?

Perfume Chanel 5

15. Receive 100 valentines from friends, or receive one that is romantic?

Receive valentines from my friends

16. Conversation hearts or sour candy?

Sour candy

17. Handmade gift or store-bought gift?

Handmade gifts

18. Box of chocolates or Hershey’s Kisses?

Box of chocolates

19. Romantic movies or romantic music?

Movies always

20. A huge teddy bear or a funny valentine?

A funny Valentine

21. Wine or champagne?

Wine

22. Chocolate-covered strawberries or chocolate-covered pretzels?

Mmm yummy chocolate covered strawberries

23. Going out or staying in?

Oh staying in

24. Love letter or Valentine’s card?

Love letter

25. Nice dinner or an experience/outing?

Nice dinner

26. Hugs or kisses?

Both

27. Heart-shaped locket or a promise ring?

Heart shaped locket

28. Chocolate syrup or whipped cream?

Whipped cream, it’s less messy

29. Typical date attire or all dressed up?

All dressed up

30. Valentine’s party or one-on-one?

Start with one on one and finish with a party

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Our love was like the wind, I could feel it, but I couldn’t see it. - Landon Carter

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Trigger Warning: Rape 

Till It Happens To You, You Won’t Know How It Feels

Only a few really know what happened to her, the aftermath of her rape. She was only sixteen and at first she thought she at least had her mother, she was furious and heartbroken as well. That changed when Lena found out she was pregnant. Telling her mother that she wanted to have an abortion wasn’t easy, at all. Living in a strict Catholic family, it’s a sin, you will go to hell for killing an innocent soul. Lena knew this, and with a heavy heart she told her mother, “Mom, I’m pregnant, and I want to have an abortion.” There was anger, hurt in Linda’s eyes, and before Lena knew what was about to happen, the stinging on her cheek from her mother’s hand was already on her flesh. She was shocked, tears in her eyes as Linda spoke, “Marialena Reina Quintana, you will have this baby, I do not care if it is your father’s, this baby is a blessing from God! God help me if you do something to this baby!” That was the night she left Texas and never looked back.

You Tell Me It Gets Better In Time

She left, left her life in Texas behind, the people that really mattered. With the help of her older brother, Roman, she found herself in New York, with little money, and nowhere to stay. The shelters became her home, and with the help of Planned Parenthood she got the abortion. She renounced her faith, she renounced God. In a way she was free, but alone, scared, not knowing where she was going to be the next day. People say, ‘you’ll be fine’, ‘don’t worry you will get better,’ they speak as if this traumatic experience has happened to them, and no it hasn’t. It has been fourteen years, and it hasn’t gotten any easier, becoming an alcoholic to cope with the pain, to feel nothing, drinking so much that there have been a few times that you have almost died of alcohol poisoning, because, no matter how much you drink it is not enough, you need more, you want more. Then that doesn’t become enough and then the drugs happen, and OH MY GOSH, the drugs, the high, not having a care in the world, is it worth it? Is it worth possibly overdosing and killing yourself? Yeah, it is. Why? No matter what is explained, you won’t understand, because till it happens to you, you won’t know how I feel

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chanel at paris fw fall 2010

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90s Chanel 🦋

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Chanel No 5- The Eau de Parfum draws inspiration from the Parfum with which it shares its floral aldehyde signature. This floral bouquet composed around May Rose and Jasmine features bright citrus top notes. Aldehydes create a unique presence while the smooth touch of Bourbon Vanilla leaves an incredibly sensual trail.

It’s her go to scent, she wears this almost everyday. Just one pump of the perfume.

Liquid Luck Tattoo Shop - You don’t think of a tattoo shop having a smell, but when it comes to the artist, the ink that can or may splatter on them, it can stay on their clothes and the smell of ink lingers with them.

The only times she doesn’t smell like her shop, the days that she is off. Otherwise she is smelling like ink and it’s one of her favorite smells.

Sens Perfume - A fragrance inspired by the orange blossom that awakens the senses. The originality of Eau des Sens can be attributed to its unique composition of bitter orange and unexpected spicy and woody notes.

She loves woody notes, something about this fragrance just calms her.

Fireplace at home - Cold nights, the fire burning, making her home warm. The smell of burning wood, lingers in her home, on her clothes.

Smelling like a bonfire, one of her favorite, calming, natural scents.

Amethyst Body Scrub - Reveal silky-smooth skin with the Crystal Queen of Calmness. Gently exfoliating and purely magical, crushed amethyst gemstone combines with magnesium-rich salt, ultra-nourishing organic virgin coconut oil and night-blooming jasmine sambac to lavish your body with luxe moisture.

Lena loves body scrubs, being able to scrub the dead skin off of her, and feeling the her smooth afterward and the calming scent of lavender. 3-4 days a week at night.

Into the Night - A timeless, feminine, alluring blend of dark berries, midnight jasmine and rich amber

Usually this scent is used for date night, or at times right before bed. The smell of amber and berries can calm her.

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Huck

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Lena…

1) What would completely break your character?

If something horrible would happen to her girls. 2) What's the best thing that has happened in your character’s life?

Her twin girls, Eliana & Emerson 3) What's the worst thing that has happened in your character’s life?

Being raped by her “father” 4) What seemingly insignificant memories stick with your character?

When she was 10, going to Mexico to visit family. The amazing time she had, she has never gone back. 5) What is your character reluctant to tell people?

Many things, she has a tough shell to crack. Even the people close to her don’t know everything about her. 6) How does your character feel about sex?

Lena is a very physical person, but she isn’t one to just fuck around. She sure gets lost in it. 7) What would your character make a scene about in public?

Rude ass people, a creep who is looking at her or anyone else inappropriately 8) What would your character give their life for?

Eliana & Emerson 9) What are your character’s major flaws?

She trusts to easily, she wears her heart on her sleeve 10) What does your character pretend to care about?

Her mother 11) What is your character afraid of?

Of her “father” finding her 12) What is something most people do that your character thinks is dumb?

Posting to social media about every little thing you are doing that day 13) Where would your character fall on a politeness/rudeness scale?

Lena is in the middle but can be definitely towards being rude then nice. 14) Is your character the type to re-read a book? If they are, what book have they re-read?

She can get lost in a good murder/mystery, but she usually binges shows 15) Does your character believe in an afterlife? Why or why not?

She does, being born on the day of the dead, and a Wiccan, says it all 16) What is something your character feels strongly about?

Same rights for the LGBTQ community 17) What is something your character wishes they could say to an ex?

How much it really meant him being there for her and her girls 18) What is one dream your character has had, even if it made no sense?

Walking up underwater, living in a city 19) What is the stupidest thing your character has ever done just because someone said they couldn’t?

Outdrink a man twice her size. She woke up in the hospital with alcohol poisoning, oops 20) Does your character indulge in anything? If they do, what is it? If they don’t, why? Fashion, her closet is definitely filled with fashion designers clothing

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