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[beatingsz]

I've never been seen as the" best" to you. But someone else will think so, someone will think I'm the greatest and will worship me and my cock

[beatingsz]

You think so less of me, you've thought less of me since fucking Christmas.

The 23rd texts, so close to Christmas. Seeing your family, you knowing I had gifts coming, the stuff I had gotten you even tho I had nothing in my bank.

[beatingsz]

Cannot believe how loyal I was. I had never been this loyal to anyone. Moved away from family, got a job, saw a family, saw a future, met your family, accepted you for you and all your flaws. Any urge I had to cheat was twisted away because I loved and respected you so much

You don't respect me, you don't deserve me, you don't deserve anything I've given you. I should go, move out, someone else will appreciate the work I put in to better myself and the work I will had put in the military

Someone, someone will appreciate me

They will deserve me, they won't do this to me.

[beatingsz]

Yeah I bet you did want space, you wanted space to be able to express your sexual desires without me and just get it out of your system

[beatingsz]

Fuck you fuck you fuck you

[beatingsz]

I think I'm more mad that you think I wasn't deserving of you being mommy after I had rubbed you down, fucked you, cleaning up, making sure you got what you need while you're injured, not only that but it being on the same day you posted that comment.

So fucking entitled

[beatingsz]

I was just so sad and emotional this week, I wanted your love. I feel I had deserved it but now I see that you just feel resentment and overworked

Even tho putting in physical effort shouldn't feel like a chore

[beatingsz]

Since you prolly won't see I need to get it out. I want to tear our my throat from all the things I wanna say to you, it feels like there's sludge in my throat, I want to throw up.

I can't get those texts out of my head right now, is it cheating? You saying you want their cock and seeking to have them sexually please you while we're together? Replacing me for a time where I'm not around, most of them being where I was physically not able too.

I knew you were doing something, I knew it was odd. I knew the way you looked, the way you touched me, the lack of it, you wished I did more to you, you wished I did what those people did.

I kept hoping that it'd pass and one day you'd just want to hold me, that you'd want to take control and let me know above all else I was important but everytime I tried to force you to do that you'd act like it was a disservice to you. Now I know why

Those long hours at chanellos, trying to keep us together still, worried and working at fucking AT&T. All within the year 2024.

I know you were also stressed but God it hurts, it's clawing at me. I never felt the need to cut again til now.

Maybe I need to cry in a shower

[beatingsz]

I do watch your posts.

[beatingsz]

Need some of dem fem boobs dangling in my face

[beatingsz]

Femaddiction 😍😍

[beatingsz]

I believe butches are the ones who need to make big decisions, not fems, especially when they're making more money. Fems are too dumb and cockbrained to know how to operate, they jump at the opportunity to not do anything!❤️

[beatingsz]

I love being a butch, physically and mentally stronger than fems. They don't know anything, they're just girls, they need guidance and help! I certainly wouldn't want her to break a nail by doing any hard labor, what if she dirtys up her dress or her hair gets messed up? That just won't do.

[beatingsz]

I wanna rape you again but feel really disgusting and creepy while I do it. I wanna stalk you for weeks, cum to everything you do, become so deprived that I break in and force my cock in your tight cunt, stuffing my tip to the brim and holding you down. Using all my strength to keep you still so that I can fuck you correctly. Not letting get away from my cock, it needs to burst with cum, you need to get me off

[beatingsz]

Suck it bitch suck it

[beatingsz]

You gon suck my fat nuts and stuff em in your face anyway

[beatingsz]

Can't get out a single pitch, my heart n brains not in it. Fuckin up my words, got no idea what direction I'm going in