beanythings

[beanythings]

i guess this is where it all starts

hello! never thought i’d be making a blog but i guess this is just the result of one of my random monthly motivation splurges.

i’m not making this with the intention of trying to gain traction, i’m looking at this as my own personal diary i guess. maybe future bena could look back on this in a few years and cringe at how sentimental i thought this would be, but in reality it’s another typical teenage angst-fuelled pursuit. 

i’ll try to keep everything on here as raw and uncensored as possible (sorry future bena). there’s a lot that goes on in my mind and i struggle a lot with articulating these thoughts. i feel like this truly does let me down in social situations, but i digress... sometimes i just feel the need to write down the things on my mind so that i can comprehend them for myself and that’s why i’m here ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

i guess i’ll start with introducing myself, hi i’m bena (or bean hence the blog name) i’m a seventeen year old from new zealand. i’m into art, music, psychology, music, mbti, i had a brief poetry phase recently but we don’t talk about that (it was another teenage angst-fuelled pursuit). i guess you could call me a wannabe art hoe.

next year i’ll be going into university with the hopes of becoming a clinical psychologist. my dream job was psychiatry, until i realised that i had to go through med school and my high school grades didn’t reflect that. but yeah, psychology has been a pretty big interest of mine and you’ll probably find a lot about that on here. i don’t ever read, but somehow the DSM-V has found it’s way through my hesitancy and it’s nearly 1000 pages so i’m off to read that!

cya later! <3