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Kendrick: America is built off of the backs of slaves whose descendants, who were promised freedom and reparations they never got, are now being told that they're not good enough for this country. We're told that we're too black, we're too ghetto, we make everything too political. The elite like to watch us fight amongst ourselves because that way they'll be safe from the consequences of their actions.

Y'all: HAHA wow, Kendrick played Not Like Us!!! Everyone called Drake a pedophile!!! Kendrick is such a hater about This One Guy and This One Guy Only, this is a single instance after all, that's so funny. Anyway (proceeds to never interact with anything else he makes ever again)

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i’m obsessed with whatever these are

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i dont know there is some urge on me to explain myself but people gonna believe what they want to believe .

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i dont know there is some urge on me to explain myself but people gonna believe what they want to believe .

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i used to feel really self-conscious about calling myself a poet cus i think im mid at best but if tsw*ft can do it why cant i

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And i began to question

are those all worth it ?

for what will i get ?

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tonight i just grabbed snacks and watching some netflix, Sex and The City precisely. i love the way that show its not just literally about lifestyle itself but it talked about things that has been carved up on my mind since my multi trip last week : romantic relationship.

I mean, i do barely aware much theres a complex factor that should be thought and talk about for time to times. we crave someone that literally built on our perception. it was quite interesting that somehow we listed long paragraphs and notes about who shoudl we date and what should be going, because somehow preception is subjective just like beauty itself.

the long you walk with them, surely theres certain hope and wishes and foreseeing about what event should be occured and what state should be set foot. for example, in two weeks of dating its just on my mind that we have casual chit chat and sex as it is without any specific event. it could change on a months or year like communication and what you know about them. later on you also discover more part of your partner which people thought that way. but how about if they dont think the same ? how about if they have their own time frame and just think everything going smoothly without any idea whats need to be done that moment ?

and somehow, we live with biased view about perception. about what we think are we on the same boat. meanwhile, human are too complex to be just that way. that also explain the worst part is realization on vision difference popped up right on the time you already down to the pithole. it just like sudden slap when youre high on drunkest party ever that make you realize " what did i do ? who is my partner ? what we have done ? " just like you wake up from coma nap. and just like that, faith is shaking and you look for the sign. if things goes well, i mean they would give the sign. but how about if theyre still unsure about themself and you ? straight up doomsday.

it also, make us think does we live on right relationship. we dont know, suddenly. So, what makes relationship working in "our" terms together ? i mean communication always comes first when it comes to solution but how it our partner doesnt communicate much and give mixed signal ? another problem. and it just kinda hard when it comes to dating because how you could ensure the person have such a normal propper commucation way meanwhile we know we hvae generational trauma that make us literally silent when it comes to express our thoughts and minds clearly.

does it means that - i dont know - we are doomed to romantic coupledom things for the first ?

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a single daffodil floating in Lake Erie

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landlord definitely deserved like fuck yall capitalist hoard

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boys: jacking off

girls: jilling off

non binary : ferching a pail of water

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Mercury retrograde literally shrink my mind it makes me cave in and reading postmodern journal about loneliness and singledom

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There’s no way of being against love precisely because we moderns are constituted as beings yearning to be filled, craving connection, needing to adore and be adored, because love is vital plasma and everything else in the world is just tap water - Laura Kipnis

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Hanif Abdurraqib, They Can't Kill Us Until They Kill Us

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I hate productivity

its just bugging for me, literally. dont know what in the world people took productivity as a scale for better living. as it is crucial part of people that somehow influence your self worth or value.

Reading a book, Watching something useful at Youtube, Practicing writing, Discussion on latest science

kinda baffling because we put certain activities that actually could be fun but becoming serious. you could draw something but it should be an output for your career wise or else. you could writing for fun but the output should be something "meaningful" .

I dont want built something deep and mind-taking. i want to write just to share something. to spread what i see from the world itself. i want to draw something just for fun, because i love to pour all my feeling towards lines and colour. i want to play musical instrument but not in covering-song-typa-shit but in a way that it filled my heart with joy, or just accompany me in my solitude cocoon.

people judge on what other read, draw, paint, write. but somehow i dont find it necessary. critics is there but not all people made something to be valued as bigger thing.