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#there's something wrong with me#so earlier i had an epiphany right? i mean just the sort you get when you're really depressed or really tired or something#i think it felt good for the first time in a long while. maybe not good actually but i know i Felt Something and in the moment it was like#temporary high. i'm probably not going to do anything because i think i'm fated fir death anyways. but knowing that i can just escape is#such a big feeling. good feeling. i think i really need company but i think it might already be Irrevocably Permanently Bad#and it sort of feels like a natural ending. i've drifted through my own life for so long and i let everything get bad and now at my pinnacl#of badness. i can move on#i'm not going to take action. i can already sort of see it. i think it's going to happen. some underlying medical condition is going to shu#me down all at once and i'll disappear or a car will speed through a red light. i want to feel the adrenaline. i think i'm going to gone#i've lost the will to eat lately. i don't know why it just happened suddenly. i think i've overstayed my welcome#do you know the feeling of needing desperately to be heard#i think i need to give people one last good impression of me and yhen cut them all off#i don't think i'm someone who can be around other people#i haven't been myself i don't think i'm in control of my body. i think someone else is using it right now. my head feels so unfamiliar#why did i draw a rabbit? i don't know. i guess i didn't know what else to draw. right now i want to draw something that will feel like#cold winter air. maybe a lake with frosted grass.#it was a sudden rush really. i felt sick and empty and sort of like falling face down. that was last night but i don't remember anything#from the last few days. oh yknow it's like i'm a spectator. i'm just watching everything play out from behind my eyes#really i am just a human animal
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#basementcreation#digital art#my art#bpd#will i delete this later? who knows#whatever i'm sick of being embarassed and insecure and whatever#you're gonna read my amateur prose and you're going to LIKE it goddamnit#i didn't want this to come off as me acting like a victim and i'm not sure if i conveyed that well enough#lately i've felt like a part of me is absent and i'm scared because i don't know whether i can go back to what i was before#whatever that was#so many big feelings so little room blah blah blah#it's one big still lake yknow? time is stagnant and nothing exists (even more than it already didn't exist before)#in conclusion: maybe i should get into photography#(edit) actually i'm not done here#the twigs cracking line was supposed to be about getting hurt from things that aren't actually real#yknow? like being so on edge that i convince myself that people hate me and feeling hurt#but in reality it's just paranoia. maybe delusion honestly but i don't know i should probably talk to my doctor#anyway i just don't think i conveyed it clesrly enough
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working on dnd character art for a new campaign. he's spiders
#dnd#dungeons and dragons#dnd art#dnd character#dnd oc#dnd arachne#tw spiders#(just in case)#oc art#oc artist#art#oc#my art#digital art#basementcreation#he's a hivemind of small spiders#trying and failing to act more like a human#because he follows adventurers to eat the monsters they kill#it's mutually beneficial because he needs them alive to kill more creatures for him to eat
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It’s LOIS DESIGN CONCEPT SKETCH TIME 💪
One of these days I’ll be bothered to properly render metal
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So I just put far too many hours into a joke drawing.
This is based on an ongoing bit I have with @butchbaragordon where dick joins the JL anonymously and is subjected to bruce having terrible taste in men (or more specifically Hal Jordan talking about his sex life loudly and in gratuitous detail to Barry and Ollie) and is in constant dismay over it.
(Edit: Click for better quality because tumblr compressed the shit out of it)
Yeah.
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pretty late, but here's my art fight account! will hopefully do a few attacks before it's over :) my hastily made character sheet + a current attack wip v
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Idly sketched this at my desk while listening to my Jason Todd playlist and physically ragdolled in my chair when army dreamers-Kate bush played and was then immediately followed by no surprises-Radiohead. Nightmare combination for him truly. Jason Todd robin they could never make me hate you
If he looks a little young that’s because the original sketch was supposed to be a 11~ish y/o dick but I couldn’t help myself. I do imagine him having a baby face in his early teens anyway though, so ehhhhh
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GO INTERACT WITH MY FRIEND'S ART!
Messy Sketch of one of my friend’s dnd ocs, Zeus!
Would you believe me if I told you he is a straight cis man.
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"business partners"
character on the right belongs to @hypsomsalts
#yeah they have evil gay sex every night#surely nothing bad will happen#oc art#ocs#basementcreation#digital art#my art#oc
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i fucking love shading clothes. hair on the other hand.... evil
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mikuuuu
#my art#digital art#basementcreation#vocaloid#hatsune miku#vocaloid hatsune#miku#vocaloid miku#miku fanart#vocaloid fanart
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blue door to the aerodrome (pinball storage unit)
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Whoops, another wave of burnout and health hit while I was in the middle of this but hey I finally finished it. Got my first moss rain and it nearly gave me a panic attack, why the hell was Elliott so chill about it. Green!
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