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Same old

Still here, still broke.... Enjoying regular fb correspondence with my 59 year old musical hero. He's actually a really sweet, regular guy. Nice to know.

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Okay... okay.. okay.... be cool 15 year old me...

The lead singer of my favourite Canadian band as a teen added me to his personal Facebook account. 15 year old me is having a fucking stroke. Almost 47 year old me isn't far behind. The fangirling has been intense.

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You've probably met my stepson on the news recently

Two days ago, four kids chased my stepson down at school and relieved him of his property and then beat the living shit out of him. Kicking him in the head until he was covered in blood and had a concussion. His mom is keeping a close eye on him and he's out of school for the rest of the year. He's a good kid. He's a fourteen year old boy who is a good cadet and on a nationally ranked shooting team. He's never been in a fight before now to my knowledge, and I just had to tear a strip of off some troll in a buddy in Englands feed on fb suggesting he might be a bully or a rapist who deserved the beating. People are seriously fucked up.

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It’s finally finished! I’ve been working on this for a week and I’ve loved every second of it. I needed a good excuse to really get the hang of Clip Studio Paint and I wanted to make a big background-heavy piece again. This setting worked perfectly for that.

I recently saw this video by @hewhois and I got instantly inspired. It made me want to draw a modern male witch in his private den. I loved the peace and comfort that the video emitted and I did my very best to create a similar feeling. It’s so difficult to capture a very specific mood, but I hope I succeeded!

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To celebrate the start of 2017, I give you the Modern Male Witch Bathroom! I’ve been casually working on this for weeks and I finally finished the animation today.

This is an older version of the flower witch boy I designed a while ago. I thought he would fit nicely in this setting. He is now a plant/crystal/water witch <3

This is the second piece in my Modern Male Witch Project.

Available as print on Society6

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These are gorgeous

It is done! The Modern Male Witch: Kitchen is here! :D

He is a bit messy, but he can always find what he’s looking for, even when some things in his kitchen get a mind of their own. There’s a different fragrance in the air every day <3

This is the third piece in my Modern Male Witch Project.

Available as print on Society6

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Ugh

Lost a close family friend this week. My best friends gramma who treated Alpha Teen and I like one of her own from the day she met me. There was always birthday gifts and Christmas gifts for Riley and always a place at her table. She was 95 and unwell, so it wasn't a shock when it happened, but it still was you know? I came back home and had lunch with an old friend in Toronto. The weather was killing me so I politely begged out and went home, only to find a friend/coworker had passed. We have mutual friends in his religious community so I unfortunately found out how he passed. I'm so very angry right now. And I understand. I wish I didn't , but I completely understand the allure. That scares me a little. What really makes me angry is that I know for a fact he felt persecuted by people at work and verbally and mentally abused. He took on a lot as the human rights rep. I wonder how much it played into his decision along with the depression. I'm sure there will be investigations. I hope there is. As for me, my financial house of cards tumbled this week and I don't know how I'm going to get out of it, but I'll figure something out.

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Ugh

An old friend and I were discussing the fact that I wouldn't know if a guy was hitting on me if he whipped it out and smacked me in the face with it tonight. Not that I'd do anything about it if they were, because I'm still in love with my stupid husband and his stupid crappy problem solving skills. It wasn't until I was home that I thought... holy Christ... this guy i had the worst wood in the world for 25 years ago may have just been mildly hitting on me and I am so utterly and completely fucked up now that I completely missed it.

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What the actual fuck

Is with all the porn tumblrs suddenly following me when I've barely been here for months?

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:(

Co worker who doesn't like me much had to put his dog down yesterday. I still felt bad for him and said sorry for your loss, it's never just a dog is it? He looked at me like he was seeing me for the first time and said, no, it never is, is it? If it weren't for my dogs the past six months I don't know how I would have survived. I likely would have, but with more damage I'm sure.

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Today's adventure

He came over after work and returned the signed paperwork. Didn't give me a lick of trouble about it. No questions. Played with the dogs briefly and came to the bedroom to go through a bag of clothes he'd left. (He's been working out and lost a lot of weight so some of them may have fit again). There was nothing in it but a few trinkets were in his closet that he collected. He hugged me for a few minutes and said he was sorry this was hurting me so much, but it was really to protect me in the long run. Why does protecting me feel like ripping my heart out? Ordered Swiss Chalet with the kid. Made it as far as the couch before a total system crash and I couldn't really move any further. Ensconced in the couch nest with two dogs and a therapeutic heat blanket. A friend asked if she could bring us tea while she was out, so that's coming too. Also, attendance management meeting tomorrow. When this first all happened I totally shut down for a few weeks. Depression was overwhelming and I missed a lot of work. Probably not wise to pilot a commercial vehicle when you're wondering if people will say nice things at your funeral. I got through it, somewhat, but I am also still having serious pain issues an am looking at a hip replacement next winter at the ripe old age of 47. That's also a thing now btw. Hip replacement. Six weeks at least off work. Fun. Attendance management, though: It's only 'first step' so basically you had X incidents of missed work in the period between this date and this date. We are telling you we are now watching you. The supervisor who is doing the meeting is fully aware of what has been going on and has been as supportive as a supervisor can be. I will have a union rep There as well. I'll let you know how it goes

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Yesterday

While everyone was exchanging gifts of love and pleasantries, I was signing the separation papers in a lawyers office near my work that for all intents and purposes ended my marriage. Pretty much want to die.

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This makes me tear up

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You aren't missing much. I haven't been very likeable or much fun lately.

Dear diary, Today, whilst I was dealing with the fact my child is an adult and graduating college in two months, on the eve of Valentine's Day, one month to the day from my 8th wedding anniversary..... my separation papers arrived by email for my perusal and approval. While I was waiting for my husband (?) to pick me up so he could come to my house to look for a hardhat. Needless to say with the amount of tears he didn't stay long. Never did find that hard hat.

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Holy fuck

Here I am still barely able to function and my mom has told me she started seeing a man 12 years younger than her. Dad left two weeks after Moe did. I know the guy. His wife passed away six months ago or so and he's a doll. Huge too. Like as big as my brother. Go mom, I guess :)

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Gawddamn.

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