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Original tumblr girl you wouldn’t understand

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NIGHTMARE, HALSEY

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So, where do I go in the process when I'm just an apparatus? I've inspired platinum records, I've earned platinum airline status LONELY IS THE MUSE - Halsey (Amazon Music Live 2025)

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Aging is cruel.

Pages of a book stuck between fingers.

You lick and lick and they stay attached

refusing to peel apart.

Hair like dryer lint, lifting in the wind

whisping away, fragile thing.

A ghost of years past

and on your face, the betrayal of truth.

Hubris washed off, and confidence broken.

Heart in shambles, the failures of relationships end.

Jobs lost and children angry.

Revealing the lonely ranks of insecurity.

I know nothing.

I am nothing.

I never was.

You are nothing too

but you posture, with your youth.

And maybe, that is good enough

while it lasts.

- Senescence. 2025

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i love halsey because she'll write lyrics like "a girl like that is a mother, must be tough/ a problem child, i was rough/ but what do you do with a difficult grown up?" and then in another song she'll rhyme "michigan" with "bitch again"

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I have been Halsey for so long. For most of this time, I never stopped to think about what I actually wanted. I just fulfilled the prophecy I thought was laid out for me. When I was 19 years old I woke up every day to a new article proclaiming me some sort of future monolith. I wanted to prove them right. I sat in that doctor’s office and filled my body with poison. I watched my face collapse and my hair disintegrate and my bones screamed into the void for help. It was then I realized, if I were ever to do it again, I would do it for me. I don’t want the prophecy. I just want to make stuff. Forever.

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@tiredandlonelymuse I really wish I could hug you right back rn! There’s so many of us who would’ve done anything to make you feel less alone, promise. I will always love you and be here for you my love, no matter what!! 🤍🤍🤍it is truly heartbreaking but know that you matter and are so so important for so many, and I’m one of them and forever will be! I promiseeeee! 🥺🥺🤍

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by Sarah Pardini

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iamhalsey: 🦷🦴🪩🗯️

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Halsey for the new about-face campaign!

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June 11, 2022 | Halsey performing at the Governors Ball Music Festival!

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April 26, 2023 | Halsey via Instagram!

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me in Paris,

pre-show Vivienne Westwood AW23/24

an hommage to Kate Moss

walking Vivienne Westwood SS95

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🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍

It’s so… Manic

Halsey

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happy 3rd birthday manic.

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He learned to make a fire in the woods, he says. As a child with awkward hands and fingernails bit down to the blood draw, he was a small intruder rustling through the brush. He shows me how he does it, in a cold house on a hill. An “X”, a tower, a steeple, open it up and see all the people. I watch solemnly from the collapsing couch and bend my bare toes forwards and backwards till they might break. The little flame isn’t taking. I watch it hard and I will it to grow. I first tense the arches of my feet, my calves, my thighs, my shoulders, my arms, and my teeth. I stare at the clumsy pile till my eyes salt-burn and beg me to blink. Grow little flame grow. It catches, and with it, his face. The satisfied smile tears across his cheeks in tandem with the center log toting new flames along its spine. He doesn’t know that it was me. I don’t say anything. He’s too proud. One day he will make a fire out of me. One sheet of my dry skin, crushed for kindling. 5 brittle bones for tinder. Poking and prodding in a brick cave, he will blow and give it life. I will glow, with orange meringue peaks along my back. He will smile. He doesn’t know that it was me.

-Date with an Alchemist, 2022