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““Why? I asked myself for days after our night in the kitchen. Why was my mother born with superior intelligence and extraordinary gifts as an organizer, an administrator, a financier and an artist if she was not meant by her creator to use those gifts fully? And why has she turned into a timid, frustrated woman? Because she was allowed… only her family as an outlet. The family is a very narrow sphere. It is cruel to bottle up immense talents there. It isn’t fair Mama, what happened to you. Listen to those echoes: not fair, not fair–not kind, not decent, not loving, not fair. Dad first saw her galloping bareback over the Idaho plains in men’s overalls. Where is that girl who galloped with her hair flying? That she is lost, that her gifts were ignored and spurned and pounded out of her is a cause for grief to those of us who know and love her. But multiply her life by the billions and try to keep from howling with rage and despair at the impoverishment that women’s bondage has wreaked upon the human family.””

— The actual diabolical lie told to women is that homemaking leads to happiness.

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STEPS TO CLEARING SPACE TO HEAR THE RIGHT QUESTIONS THAT ARE KNOCKING ON YOUR SOUL’S DOOR:

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remove any object that no longer feels good to you. clothes, books, jewelry. empty the junk drawer of things you’ll never need. clear the boxes in the closet. honor sentimentality but let go of what isn’t yours anymore.

don’t fill the space with something new. allow the space to just exist. let it breathe.

have conversations you have been putting off.

reflect on the stories you tell yourself about who you are and your limits. write a list of these limits.

write a list of the opposite of these beliefs. let yourself imagine what you could be capable of if you trusted yourself. keep these lists together as a reminder.

delete old text threads & emails. unsubscribe from things you’re no longer interested in. clean your camera roll.

buy a small journal to carry around with you. leave it blank until you feel called to write in it. it could be a day from now, a month from now.

don’t feel that you need to answer every question you are asked. get comfortable with “I don’t know yet.”

write a list of things you learned you should want for your life (type of relationship, career, lifestyle, etc.). get specific on what you feel isn’t your dream but maybe someone else’s. release them back into the ether. let them go.

forgive.

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Perhaps I will set a plate at my table for grief for it is grief that preludes joy

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infusing your weed with a horse aspected shard of the pearl of the soul at the heart of the world can make your highs a lot more pleasant

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who needs therapy when you can Realize™️ things about yourself alone at 1am

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Alfred Eisenstaedt. Sailor giving his girlfriend a kiss goodbye at Pennsylvania Station. 1943

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Interaction of Hidden Forces Drawings 9 x 6 cm 2024

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start seeing everything as God, but keep it a secret

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Leonid Pasternak  (Ukrainian, 1862–1945) - The Torments of Creative Work