baejylis

[baejylis]

im the only one understanding others. No one ever bothered understanding me.

[baejylis]

all i had was probably myself

[baejylis]

I thought atleast one person would understand. But no. Nobody does.

[baejylis]

wanting to be in silence just for a bit yet my mind was never quiet ever since it happened

[baejylis]

i never mattered to anybody

[baejylis]

Im going through relapse everytime that person is near & the sad part is nobody understands me, instead, blaming me.

[baejylis]

I feel like dissappearing

[baejylis]

funny how i used to think that im somewhat special in your life, that you would wait for the right time, where we are able to stabilize our life and go to the next phase. its hilarious and amazing how you're able to make fool of me when you knew the hurtful past i had gone through.

Shouldve realised sooner that you're not gonna wait. never.

And i regret letting you in when i know i shouldnt.

[baejylis]

another few flights until the bussiness is done. can’t wait for it to be finished.

[baejylis]

Things are going bad again....

[baejylis]

The audacity for you to act as if nothing ever happened, seems so shameful to me.

The way you act as if you we'rent the one with a jealousy disease, seems to make me wonder... just how low can you be as a person?

Does empathy even exist in you or are you just faking it to be accepted in the society.

Either way, i hope you drop your act.

Seems so petty for me.

[baejylis]

I can never forget the pain you caused that time. Dont you expect me to just let it slide this time.

Dont ask 'Why cant we be like before?'

You had that chance multiple time and wasted it.

You cant exoect us to just be nice to you as if what you did doesnt affect us badly.

You deserve this.

And im also ready to face every consequences of my actions.

Its called 'setting boundaries'.

[baejylis]

Oh god please give me strength to go through this.

[baejylis]

The only thing i ask from you was an apology. For wrongly blaming me and the others over the things we did not do. And i bet you realize that it wasnt our fault either. But since you feel like you're always right and everyone else is wrong, you continue with your egoistic. Not apologizing. Such a regret someone like you exist.

[baejylis]

I hope you found and meet another version of you so you'll know how it feels like to be treated this way.

I hate you.

I hate you.

[baejylis]

It hurts so bad,

When i see you smiling,

Acting like everything is okay,

When i'm here,

Bearing the pain you fucking caused.

[baejylis]

it feels sick.

I hope you find peace from the hearts you've wounded.

Jealousy is a decease,

Arrogance isnt bliss.