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Vane and I have ✨️schemes✨️

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Love the new purple/pink blog theme!💜✨

Aww thank you!!!💜💜💜

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Sammy and Billy getting together and not telling Steve because they worry about anything rocking the boat and his general fragile mental state so they keep it to themselves for a bit. But Eddie sees them together and Billy swears him to secrecy and Eddie, who is, as you said, in his downward spiral era, “accidentally” let’s it slip to Steve to try and force a wedge between him and Billy cause, ya know, Eddie’s jealousy makes him do crazy things.

This is such an interesting element. Early on with SS, I debated back and forth about HOW jealous Eddie would get over Steve&Billy and it's a part of why I wrote them like this. IDK if people are aware of the GREATNESS of 'Queer as Folk' USA but that was a hugely formative show for me and part of what I loved so much about it, is this very intimate and boundaryless friendship between two characters that has stayed with me forever. The Billy/Steve friendship was inspired by parts of this, the intimacy of it at least and the platonic kissing, but with one BIG change - not having it be unrequited love on either side. And therefore, Eddie (who can be INSANELY jealousy prone) plays into it so well because to be a longstanding presence in Steve's life, he has to accept that this IS the friendship they have and not be threatened by it, so WHAT FUN AHEAD when he's in a spiral as you so delicious wrote above and can't help but let his jealousy control his mouth. Endless possibilities for pain, angst and anguish!!!

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Oh holy cats — the Jaeger Moon update!

I’m dying. What a place to leave it … now I have to WAIT for things? Such a cruel trick to make me come to terms with my insatiable need for instant gratification.

Truly, truly, AMAZINGLY done. Holy shit.

I cannot wait to see what’s next!

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Ahh thank you!! Only a few days until HELL IN PARIS!!!!🐺🖤✨️

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PART SIX

Posting chapters back to back, so Part Seven over the weekend!

Read it here

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I am so excited for you at some stage to write metalsandwich. Other than Prism I haven’t read any (mostly because I’m super picky and no one quite hits the spot like you do). What would you do with the ship, if you don’t mind me asking? I, in every fandom I’m in, try and seek out 3 way pairings where either they’re all polyamorous and just love each other OR they’re in a love triangle fighting over each other but I can just never find anything good.

FYI the thoughts of this have me imagining precious little brat Steve in a relationship with mean Dom Billy and soft Dom Eddie. Or best friends Billy and Eddie fighting for Steve’ affection. Anyways, toodles.

This is so kind, thank you!! I really do love the idea of all three of them, it appeals to me in a deep way and I can't wait to write more of it. Also a little sidenote, it's still "in progress" but I wrote a fic called 'Rooms' that's metalsandwich: Rooms (Whose Thighs Are Lilac Rose Gardens) - Chapter 1 - Oonionchiver - Stranger Things (TV 2016) [Archive of Our Own]

I think this ship is sort of top tier to me, I love writing poly!rom so it would be something pretty special. I have no specific "plot" in mind beyond the three of them falling in love and how that works, but it would definitely something fairly obsessive, angsty and painful as well as grossly romantic, sexual and all-consuming.

I DO have a few gift fics in the works that are metalsandwich too! One is EXTREMEEEELY DARK and will be posted to the Azriel AO3, one is a Victorian era Penny Dreadful type story, and one is "competitive wooing" between Eddie and Billy to win Steve over.

Thank you so much for this again!!!

Az

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i just want to deeply thank you for making the decision to continue writing prism. i 100% respect brooke’s decision to step back, i always want the artist to put themselves first before the art, but this story is so deeply special to me and i’m grateful that it won’t be abandoned. i think about it every day, i re-read it all the time and look for new little details (and to try to piece everything together that hasn’t been revealed yet!), and i see so much of myself in steve wanting a monster because he feels like one as well. this is my favorite version of eddie ever written. there’s not enough words to properly articulate my love for this story and this relationship you’ve crafted but i hope you know i would wait forever happily for this fic to be updated, just knowing that it won’t be abandoned is a huge comfort <3 so excited to see where it goes next!

This is so lovely, thank you so much. I do really appreciate the support and kindness, especially for Brooke. This was such a hard decision for both of us and made over many weeks. She will always be the co-writer and creator of this story, but it's an ENORMOUS story and we never planned it to be and life evolves. I am, however, so excited to write and post and get stuck back in this story because I think about it constantly and we have SO. MUCH. INSANITY on the horizon. It would never be abandoned, especially because Brooke and I spent months planning every element of this story so it's fully mapped out. I may even be able to post a little preview over the weekend!

All my love, Az

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I have a question about your fanfic, “Prism”.

Does anyone in that story have personality disorders? Or, disorders in general? If so, which ones? I hope this can get answered.

Hi, thanks for your Q. So first off, neither Brooke or myself are psychologists and nothing here should be taken as academic or accurate in terms of diagnosis. Disorders can be complex: subtle, overwhelming, nuanced or even invisible. We would never want anyone to take any mentions or hints of disorders as a diagnosis tool in real life.

That being said, we both agree that Steve has mild BPD and histrionic as well as PTSD and a hint of DID.

Eddie is much harder to label but he has ADHD in swathes, degrees of NPD & ASPD and he would also score high for all 4 types of psychopath. He would also have C-PTSD, OCD and a sleep-wake disorder.

Again, bear in mind we are not licensed experts and this is fiction.

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hello Vane! I wanted to say I'm a huge fan of yours and I wondered if you would ever draw Little Bit from You're Divine? You and Az are my favorite creators xoxo

Hey dear! I replied this one a few weeks ago, saying this was rather possible, I don't know if you're the same anon!

Happy to say that I have actually made an art of him already! It's in @azrielgreen 's Patreon if you want to check it out! I will probably make more art of him or Az's fics in the future, they're really an infallible source of inspiration.

Thank you for your lovely words!

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I am genuinely about to combust at the idea of reading your takes on mungrove, and as a “put billy in makeup” lover you have immediately intrigued me with that scene. ESPECIALLY knowing from your previous works (thinking specifically of black out days and you’re divine but definitely other pieces as well) how good you are at making tension feel both heavy and incredibly real? That slow burn and angst are going to make me cry in the best way possible.

I can’t wait for the day that happens, but until then? No pressure obviously, I just love your writing.

Out of further curiosity, what’s your favorite story you’ve ever written? I’ve read Touches, YD, Black out days, and small town boys so now I’m trying to decide what to read next!

Black Out Days was my favourite thing i ever wrote until Scorpio Skies, but i also really love 'Sea of Waking Dreams', 'In The Water, With You' and 'We Should Just Kiss' ✨️💜✨️

I can't wait to write the Mungrove fic, I think about it a lot, just this one so very charged scene 🥰💜✨️

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AHHHH okay im not that last anon, but I LOVE metalsandwich, your Steve has helped me process a lot of things in my own life, and specifically the way YOU write Eddie is one of my favorites. On top of that, Billy is one of my favorite characters in media. With that in mind, are there any plans for mungrove in the future? Obviously no pressure, I’m just curious! Either way you’re by far my favorite writer and I’m grateful for any works you post! I hope you’re having a good day/night!

Hi, oh thank you so much! I'm super excited to write MetalSanwich &! Harringrove but I also can't wait for the day I have time to write my little Mungrove fic where I have no solid plot just "explore" but there's this scene in my head of Eddie putting lipstick on Billy when they hang out one day and it being extremely charged and slowburny and angst heavy.

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I wanted to write this before I read today’s surprise (🥹) chapter of SS to say… 

I’ve spent the last couple years knee DEEP in interdisciplinary trauma theory, with a focus on literature (suffice it to say, ya girls read a looooot of trauma depictions) and I just wanted to let you know- your depictions of trauma hit such a sweet spot for me both academically and personally. 

I’ve read and lectured on multi-award winning novels that deal with trauma in such a careless way that I have lifelong vendetta’s against their crusty-ass authors and the lectures I gave were essentially a 45 minute roast. It’s a pretty open secret that people who’ve experienced trauma are drawn to study it/depict it/explore it through art so…also suffice it to say, I’ve got some personal dogs in this fight 🫡. 

You write undoubtedly graphic and challenging trauma but a big key difference is that, for me, there’s a palpable and rich seam of care that runs through all your work. There is a lack of authorial judgement meaning you can craft fully realised characters that, despite sometimes grotesque actions, never completely escape feelings of empathy or sympathy. 

Have I finished chapters and had to go outside and do a lap of my building to work off the feeling I might puke? For sure. Did I also feel that way the entire time I was falling in love with my partner because big feelings make me pukey? Also 100% accurate. Do I LOVE reading shit that makes me feel that way KNOWING there’s the Jane Austen safety-net of happy endings? Absofuckinglutelyyyyy 

I love that you write purely for an audience of one, I think that makes your work that bit more engrossing. It lacks that self-consciousness so much writing has where you can feeeeel the writer is always trying so hard to convince the reader it’s worth reading…you don’t need to convince YOURSELF so you save a lot of time and awkwardness and we all benefit besides. 

Basically, you’re a babe of the first water. I felt compelled to tell you all this because I think everyone could always do with hearing what a gift they are, especially when they share something so rare and special with strangers. 

Thank you xx 

Please everyone take a second thread this if you can because this is the encapsulation of why I share what I write. This means the fucking world to me. Today was so hard for me, I've been sick and couldn't write and had no sleep at all but this really truly made me feel warm inside. Thank you, darling. Thank you so much💜💜💜

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You can definitely ignore my ramblings by the way. I just like to share 💖💖

I love your ramblings💜✨️💜✨️🦂🌃✨️

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Me again, here to pester you about Sammy and Billy. You know how you’re listening to a song and then realize you haven’t been appreciating it enough so you re-play it so you can? Well I just went back to SS and re-read all the bits where Sammy is mentioned cause I feel like I haven’t fully appreciated her enough and now that I’m aboard the Billy/Sammy (Bammy? Sally? SILLY? Bilmy? Harringrove 2.0? Let’s work on that) ship I need to obsess over literally every tiny interaction they have. And let me tell you now that I’ve been really thinking about the possibility of these two “you are mine” just hits different. And when he called her sweetheart? 10/10.

While I’m here bothering you, I’ve also been thinking about jealous unhinged Eddie and thinking about him turning up to Steve or Billy’s motel room only to find that they were sleeping in the same bed, not understanding that that’s just what they do and then like idk, handcuffing Steve to his own bed so it never happens again

Maybe I’M the unhinged one.

This is so lovely, it truly is so exciting to me that people are invested in them!!!! If you're unhinged, I'm way worse 💜✨️💜🦂🌃✨️

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Why do I feel like when Eddie and Steve do finally have sex that Eddie just won’t leave Steve alone ever. Like it’s first thing in the morning and Eddie is just on Steve then they go to work and it’s their lunch break and Eddie just has to bend him over the desk. Then they get home and Eddie is crowding Steve against the wall in the shower. Then it’s like oh it’s time for sleep HA JK Eddie is all up in Steve again to the point where Steve is like ENOUGH

WELL👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀

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Omg the commenter who said Eddie telling Steve Billy is after Sammy!!!!

Omggggg, please this SS energy is unhinged! YES. 😈😈😈🌟

Look at the behemoth you have created Az!

Eddie in a downward spiral, hasn't slept for 3 days and Billy is trying to help him while Steve hovers in the background but Eddie lashes out at Billy, can't control himself. "Like you fucking, care, *Camaro!* We both know the only one you care about is the version of Steve you *can* fuck - his sister!" or something like that and Steve is in the background like... "hold up"

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Is the specific kink you’re thinking about for them related to Billy being taken care of for once instead of the other way around and he always does with everyone in his life ? 🥺

It really does 💜💜✨️💜✨️🦂🌃✨️