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I'm about to start dming people who break my DNI and tell them to slit. How are you a minors DNI account but you're reblogging my shit. Use your fucking eyes. Don't piss me off.

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The romantic urge rip your eyes out of your sockets. I want to savor the way you look at me. Maybe I can fix your eyes just like that. A permanent snapshot of your adoration.

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Bleed for me. Bleed for me. Bleed for me.

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Craving bloodied kisses and bleeding, open wounds.

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Let me tear you to pieces like an animal. A love so raw it rips apart your flesh and gnaws into your bones.

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Meeting people can be exciting yet at the same time exhausting. I have socialise with a lot of people and know the entire school, It's quite boring. I am too energetic or too tired.

What about you? What's your opnion on people? What's your opnion on socialising? What kind of people do you dislike when socialising? Do you tend to be the talker or the listener? Are you a friend-orientated person or a goal-orientated person? Can you speak multiple language?

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Hi. I hope you're well. I agree, meeting people can be both those things. I'm not the biggest social butterfly. I'm friend-oriented but I'm also more of a "minding my business" type of person. People can be nice. But people can also be pieces of shit. You never know what you have until you get to know 'em. And sometimes it takes awhile to realize if it's the latter. So while I do enjoy the presence of people, I am not that fond of them at the same time.

Socializing is something everyone needs to some extent. Just some more than others. But it isn't always pleasant either. I don't like overly loud people. At least not without reason to be loud. I'm a yapper for certain. Definitely a talker, and always have been. I can’t speak multiple languages unfortunately. I am learning Spanish right now though for my language credit.

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I don't know what is a DV yandere but it's good your irl friends accept you. For christmas, I plan on reading all my books I have bought. I plan on improving myself and eating healthy.

I'm less stress now, as I figured out on how to get the course I want. However, a lot of people want to go in it too. So a lot of competitions, not to mention they are all intelligent.

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Ah, a DV yan is a domestic violence yandere. There a yandere types that some yanderes identify with. That's one of mine. It's mentioned in my intro as well. I hope you enjoy your reading binge. Improving yourself is always good, as well as eating healthier. Just make sure you find fair balance and it's healthy in pursuit of a good and achieveable goal. I know sometimes diet changes can spiral into eating disorders if gone about in bad ways. So be safe while doing it, but I wish you luck on your self-improvement. I'm glad you're less stressed. What course are you trying to get in? And I'm sure you'll do well enough to get in. Competition can be good sometimes. Gives you a reason to push yourself. Just don't go too far past your limits. Maybe in trying to get into the course, you'll meet other people that are like-minded. Make some friends so you have familiar faces when you get in the course.

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Thank you for that. Things seem to be rough, judging by your new tumblr post. I hope everything is resolved for you and merry early christmas. Anything fun going on? Or any plans?

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Yeah, things are a bit. Just some discord drama. Shit will be fine, it's no biggie. It's just crazy irl friends are more accepting of my DV yan status than these mfs...who are in the yandere community. I hope things resolve itself soon as well. Merry early Christmas. Got any plans for the holiday? Anything you're hoping to get or any ways you hope to celebrate? Or even general things you're looking forward to? I have nothing planned yet for the holiday. Generally, I'm hoping to go to this Korean hotpot place in early December after my throat is healed.

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I wanna tear you apart with my teeth. Feel your blood get stuck to my canines like plaque as I rip apart your flesh and muscle. I wanna taste the love in your veins.

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True. I need to get good grades for all my subjects though. I'm quite nervous and I don't know what to do. I'm scared. Not to mention there's a whole event but atleast I'll get a reward for the public speaking but I have to do it at a hofel, which is out of my comfort zone. I hope you're well.

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I get the need to get good grades. The best thing I recommend is taking it easy. Study when you can, but don't overwork yourself. Make sure to give yourself breaks and downtime. I'm sure you'll do well with the public speaking. Take a deep breath, clear your head, and project your voice. The rest will follow suit. Sometimes stepping out your comfort zone is good. Helps you grow. I'm well, I hope you have been too.

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I'm sorry I'm a DV yan. I tried to be respectful and keep it away from you all. I get y'all have trauma with that, but I cannot exactly help that I am this fucked up and this is the way I loved. I'm in therapy. Sit there talking to my therapist thinking I'm fucking broken. Sit there thinking I'm some monster. But I'm not the only fucking monster. You're a fucking idiot. To sit in a community of violence and cry when you see it. You're a monster. You pushed our friend down before you turned the fuck around and did something that could be considered heinous compared to her. It was one year. Less than. Nine months. You decided to fuck around and be nsfw in front of minors because you "needed to win" a fucking competition that was not that deep. You disgust me. People like you disgust me. You make me sick. Everyone with you makes me fucking sick. And you make me sick because you're all fucking worse than me. You said you changed. But you never gave a real apology, you gave excuses. And they chose to believe your bullshit and lies. Sorry seeing me happy disturbs you so. Maybe you need to find peace. But you are shallow, and sad. You are the biggest disappointment I've come to known. I wish we never fucking met.

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Ahhhh, not in a purposefully weird way! I mainly just really liked the colour pallet you used.

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I didn't take it in a weird way, don't worry. I just found the word choice amusing because of the descriptions and things I tend to post. Not many would find it pretty so. I too like the color palette, and I'm pleased to hear you do as well. Though despite what the palette may imply, orange isn't really a color I'm interested in all that much. Though it can be nice with sunsets. How are you, spiral anon? It's been a bit, hasn't it?

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Hello Azari! I’ve been missing you. I never saw that you answered my ask. But I am so deeply glad that you did. I didn’t wanna go too crazy in my first ask, but I’ve been watching you on here for quite a while! 💛 I love your posts. You were one of the first people I saw on here, actually. I think you’re so intense, and in all honesty, I absolutely love that! Of course I’ll stay; as long as I get the attention I need. I’m a little bit of an attention freak. If I don’t get enough attention.. I get a little bit pissy. </3 Don’t apologize for a delay! I should be apologizing. I took way too long to respond to you.. I am deeply sorry. 🙏 I thought it was fitting as well. I truly love devoting myself to people, and I wanted to fit that into my name because I think that it connects to your blog as well! Would you like to tell me how you’ve been feeling? I would love to listen. 💛

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Hello, Lemuel. Apologies for the delay. I don't mind if you act intensely. The only thing that would bother me is romantic advances. It's nice to hear that you love my posts. I'm surprised I was one of the first people you came across. Didn't think I made that big of a splash on yanblr yet. I also appreciate you enjoying the intensity, because you'll see more of it as I get back into the flow of things. I had a surgery on monday and got some tonsils removed, and before that I've been busy with school and spent my freetime moderating a yan server I run. But due to the surgery, my schedule eased up on school, and my activity should appear more consistent. If you are pissy, that would be incredibly reasonable. Also, no need to apologize for delays in response. You've seen how long I can take after all. There's never a rush. The name very well connects. I can relate to the sentiment. Far as loving to devote yourself to people, I mean. It's enjoyable with the right person. Especially when they reciprocate your feelings. I already dived a bit into how I feel right now and how things have been, so I'll turn the question back around to you. How have you been doing, Lemuel? I hope things have been going smoothly.

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A Longer Fantasy.

Cry for me while I cut you open. Gliding the blade along your tender, bruised flesh. You've been poked and prodded, hues of blues and purples blossoming across your flesh. You're so beautiful like this, my darling. Tears coating your face through your hiccups and whines of pain. Shh, let me make a small cut. If you stop squirming, I'll make this end quickly.

There we go. Looks how pretty that shade of red is. Yes, I know I see it frequently these days - but it doesn't change the fact that it's always so hypnotizing. I could drown in the color. It's quite nice, don't you think? I almost want to taste it. Let me run my finger around the cut. It hurts, doesn't it? Of course. I know it does, darling. But this isn't the worse you could be experiencing. So as my finger begins digging into your muscle, bite back your screams on that mouth guard.

Good. You're doing so good for me. Let me sever flesh from muscle as blood oozes out the laceration. Don't move. I'll go deeper than intended and - Oh. You moved too much. It's bleeding so much. So much red. God, it's like the color of wine. You wouldn't notice if I took a sip, would you? Relax as my tongue glides across the wound, soon digging into it to hungrily lap up your essence. God, you taste so fucking good. I need more.

Stop squirming so fucking much. The more you squirm, the deeper my tongue will go into your wound. You don't want that, do you? Or maybe you do. With the way you keep moving despite my warnings, you must be some sort of masochist. Go on, then. Bask in the pain I'm giving you. Scream your lungs out as I continue to drink from you with the fervor of a starving man. Such a good pet for me, aren't you? Making sure I get to enjoy myself a bit. Your whines are dying down. Have you become used to the pain?

You did so well, darling. So fucking well. I know it hurt. I'll clean it and sew it close. Then we'll cuddle up and watch something. Wouldn't that be nice? I'll let you sip on something warm to soothe you. I'll cover you in kisses and keep you in my embrace to help you relax. It's the least I can do, hm? You were so good for me after all. You deserve the gentleness. This time, at least. Be good and lay there while I clean the wound, okay? You'll be feeling better in no time. So much better.

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Exam is killing me. I been considering drinkig tons of energy drinks to study and cram, I haven't finish my entire syallabus yet. Do i do it? It's next week. I been so busy I haven't been able to send in any asks, I'm so drained. Nevertheless, your shrine is still clean though..I left the candle burning now my house has burned down

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Don't drink too many energy drinks now if you go down that route. Too much caffeine can spike anxiety. Wouldn't want that for you. I hope your studies go well, however. I appreciate you keeping my shrine neat and tidy. Though I do hope your house didn't actually burn down over it. That would be a tragedy. Wishing you well with your work. School is no easy feat.

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I used to think that nobody could possibly make me feel like the descriptions of affection I so often see. I thought that I would never need someone, that I would never truly feel for someone beyond appearing to. I promised myself that I would never let anyone soften me, and never let anyone into my heart on a level deeper than a friend.

But you have become the air that I breathe just as quickly as you came into my life. Faster than a heartbeat, I found myself drawn to you. Every waking moment I spend thinking of your presence in my life. How thankful I am. How *enamored* I am for you. You are a wonderfully complex person and I can't wait to get to know you on a deeper level. I can't wait for the day I can open myself up to you and allow myself to bask in your presence without hesitation or fear of how you perceive me. Whatever we choose to do, just know that I am yours. Undoubtedly.

I can relate. I tend to react oddly when affection is returned romantically, and perhaps that's because in the back of my mind I worry it will not last. I keep my walls up in a way. My heart guarded. One foot in, one foot out as I've told you before. But I'm slowly realizing that the water is fine, and I feel myself slipping in further as time goes on. I understand promising yourself things like that. But some promises are meant to be broken when the time is right. I care deeply for you. It came as quick as an ocean wave, and before I knew it I was finding myself drawn to you as well. Finding myself wanting to get to know you on a better and deeper level. And in some ways, I have. I know you more. I enjoy talking to you and joking around. I even enjoy being able to be there for you when you need it. Or try to be. Your presence is something I'm thankful for, and despite my inital reservations, I am glad I pushed past. The greatest things can happen when you're open to it. And you were one of them. I find myself enamored with you as well. You too are complex. Many things help build you up as a person, guide your mind, and guide your heart. Every day I slowly learn more and more as I get to begin understanding you as a person, as a friend, and hopefully, as a lover. I am content. Happy to be able to loosen up. I care about your perception of me, yet I want to unravel my fears so you can see what lies beneath what I show. There is no rush to decide what we do, but do know - I too, am yours. However you need me to be.

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You can run if you want to, darling. But there is no corner of this earth safe enough to hide you. And when I find you, god forbid I get my hands on you.