Don't wanna be here? Send us removal request.
Statistics
We looked inside some of the posts by azalea-petal02 and here's what we found interesting.
Average Info
Notes Per Post
46K
Likes Per Post
30K
Reblog Per Post
16K
Reply Per Post
41
Time Between Posts
2 days ago
Number of Posts By Type
Text
17
Last Seen Tumblr Blogs
Fun Fact
12.7% of mobile users access Tumblr.
Text
I pray to the stars when I get a bit desperate.
by 笨加鸡蛋
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
Things are uh, pretty tense at my house. If the worst happens, I’m scared my husband will go into a deep depression or , worst cases: go do drugs. That one doesn’t seem all that likely to me but still it’s a tough fear to let go. It’s been over a year clean for him and I’m finally settling down in many ways. I went out of town this past weekend ( he without fail would get high if I left town, even for a day trip🙄for years). But not this time or last time or the time before. Yeah I only though about it happening once before I left and once when realizing I’d need to wake him up bc her overslept. The were brief flashes, too. So I’m getting better. I need it to stay that way. I need him to be ok. I guess that’s codependency. I should go to Al anon if trump wins. God recovery meetings of all kinds are about to be a total nightmare for the rest of the month ugh bc of the election. The constant discussion in client sessions, relentless fretting at home, then hearing everyone’s attempts at presenting their political woes in the frame work of the big book of AA ?,. Never ends!
0 notes
Text
My PT recommendation seemed so clear when I was there but the handouts have me all confused. Also doing exercises every 2 hours is super hard and not that realistic.
I woke up and thought my chin felt kinda sore, I was wondering if I was going to break out but I just laid on the floor to do my cobras (in my office after closing all the blinds 😂) and I realized my chin is bruised from pressing on it between reps which is a bit embarrassing for some reason.
I just want to do everything right so they take me seriously. I want a medication adjustment so I want to show I’m doing everything correctly first and not looking for a quick fix
0 notes
Text
I'm getting so scared about the election. Obviously I'm scared about our future but I'm even more scared my husband will have a complete mental breakdown and have to be hospitalized.
Please please God don't let the worst happen. At least in 3 weeks it will be over.
0 notes
Text
Also, he vacuumed. Finally. Don’t think it should have taken this many asks, so it was painful to thank him several times but I gritted my teeth and did it to reinforce the behavior.🙄
0 notes
Text
So close to seeing this specialist. I’m just scared they will downplay what I’ve been experiencing. What do I even say regarding pain scale? How do I bring up the irregular rheumatoid factor numbers? Will they put on the brakes and say i need to wait 3 months for the rheumatologist? Surely not, I’ve been waiting a month to see them I don’t think they’d do that too me. I see why my dad always wanted surgery, it seems like an extreme problem needs an extreme solution. Everyone says that won’t happen but I watched him have almost 10 of them. This is scoliosis related, which is structural, so it’s really not crazy to think they might recommend that. Idk I’m going to google what pain scale stuff means
0 notes
Text
Oh and when I was fighting with the office about a script they never called in, some rando insisted it was a paper prescription. I knew she was wrong but went through the treatment summary anyway and despite all my efforts to avoid it (I did blind weights and had my husband read recommendations from the summary to me) I saw my bmi and couldn’t help but look up my weight.
I feel so devastated and torn and I can’t even run right now.
life’s been really hard lately. I had a bit of a breakdown after a doctor call and cried to my husband. He started to make it about himself but then we were able to do some productive talking I guess. I told him the fighting leads to pain flares. That’s how the beginning of this medical process started 3 weeks ago. After he refused to talk to me for a weekend, my body fell apart. My mind and spirit kind of broke and he does have empathy and want to help.
Guess I’ll mention the vacuum again
0 notes
Text
my life is ruled by back pain these days.
getting insurance in order has been a complete nightmare and I finally have an ortho appt Monday. Really wanting answers and hoping for an epidural (nerve block).
weirdly when I was at the new primary care place the NP wanted to test me for rheumatoid arthritis. I thought it was a waste of time but it was abnormal so now I have a rheumatologist referral in 3 months
I wish my husband would vacuum and help around the house more when I can barely walk
but he is being nicer
0 notes
Text
The Earth is what we all have in common.
-- Wendell Berry
423 notes
·
View notes
Text
So taxes have always been a scary topic. My dad always did them, and then he passed right around tax season. Because taxes aren’t withheld for me it gets complicated.
I went with H&R Block and now it looks like everything didn’t go through like I thought it did (we got an extension so we are still within that extension period but in just over 2 weeks that ends). But still I’m beyond stressed about it, it’s Sunday and I’m worried I don’t even have a tax professional to work with now bc so much time has passed. I do think this is fixable, if I have to pay the pro fees all over again, I don’t have a problem with it. I just want it done.
My husband always uses this kind of thing to shame me and push this narrative that I’m a procrastinator and he’s on top of things blah blah blah. I actually asked him to file separately bc my issues were so complicated this year but he insisted on filing together which idk see financially was the right move. It hasn’t been good for the relationship to be sure.
He is always getting mad bc I don’t ask him to help but I did that before he initial tax date and he did nothing. It was a simple specific ask to gather, scan and send all of his tax related documents to me. I had to go to work later that day so I really did need his help but he was mad at me at the time so he blew me off and went to the gym leaving me with it. Then later that night he wouldn’t really help with reviewing it and was irritated with me the whole night. He’s never followed up or asked me about any of it, including how much was owed.
So I can’t wait for couples counseling where I’m going to hear all about it like he’s the good guy and I’m the idiot. Anything to deflect how awful he treats me when he I wants something
0 notes