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La conexión que tuve contigo nunca se volverá a repetir con alguien más.

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“If you care about someone, you’d be honest with them about everything no matter what it is.”

— Unknown

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Si te vas, te voy a llamar. Voy a ir a visitarte. Voy a esforzarme mas.

Si te vas y nadie te devuelve la llamada, no te vas en vano.

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Is it worth to be in love with a monster?

Fuck.

I'm scared.

Please, please, please. Stay.

I want a present with you, I want to live a life with you. I know I can do things right. I made a mistake. Fuck! I'm scared. I betrayed you, and here I am, crying about it like an idiot. Please, please, don't shut the door on me! I made a mistake, this could break your trust if you ever knew about this, but please, stay, I want to repair the damage... I'm slow, and don't really know what I can do, but I want to learn, I want to be good for you, I want to make you smile, I want to support you through your storms, I want to navigate life with your hand on mine! Please, love me...

I can take your anger, I can take broken trust, but please, stay. I can't loose you. I want my actions to speak, but I can't help it, I had to write all this. I want to show you with actions that this is a mistake that won't repeat itself. Let me love you, let me love you on purpouse. Let me kiss your cheeks, let me kiss your forehead, let me caress your back, let me play with your hair. Allow me to wake up next to you every morning and see your sleepy face. Please, stay in my life, and let me be part of yours, I beg you. I love you.

it is so worth it to fall in love with humanity it is so worth it to fall in love with the universe it is so so worth it. to fall in love with love

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I was being authentic, until I was not any longer. Every second that goes by I'm failing. I've betrayed that one person that has loved me so deeply, so purely, so greatly. Fuck! I was being authentic, I was being authentic until I made a mistake, one that is difficult to forgive. Fuck!!! I betrayed trust, Im a monster. I CHEATED! I FUCKING CHEATED! SAQUENME EL CORAZON DEL PECHO!!! ME ODIO!

The best part of being authentic is that there is no image to maintain. You will delight some and disturb others, and none of it will concern the truth of your being.

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love is so insane, it makes me want to build things. someone i love could say they're tired & wanna sit & my first thought would be "ill learn woodworking so i can build them a chair"

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I love you, I love you on purpouse... please, even if you get to know I'm a monster, love me, love me on purpouse. I'm working on being better, I've learnt from my mistake. I swear to all my Goddesses I can love you right. I hate myself.

on purpose!!! love people on purpose!!! find someone wonderful and love them and tell them it wasn’t an accident, you had a choice, you saw who they were and realized how lovely it would be to love them, and it is!!! i made a good decision! i love you on purpose!!!

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Shame is all I have right now... Im a monster.

btw life is more beautiful and magical than you could ever imagine you just have to open yourself up to it and free yourself from shame

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HAND ON MY HEART. HAND ON MY STUPID HEART

ross gay / susan sontag / unknown / richard siken / warsan shire / lana del ray / tturing / hera lindsay bird / richard siken

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I did this to myself... it hurts, please help. It hurts, Im a monster.

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Please, let me grow old with you. I want to wake up next to you every morning, I want to see those rosy cheeks and that beautiful smile of your's.

“We don’t realize what a privilege it is to grow old with someone.”

— Cecelia Ahern

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Soy una mala persona? Soy un monstruo? Me destruí sola. Ni lo que pasó con G me destruyó tanto como lo ha hecho mi propia falta.

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Si quiero amarte bien, si quiero amarte sin que me duela debo dejar ir la culpa, y eso es lo que quiero, y no, no voy a olvidar lo que pasó, no es que vaya a hacer de cuentas que no hice nada, pero hoy decido tomarlo como aprendizaje, decido transformar mi culpa en ganas de ser mejor, en energías renovadas para aprender a amarte mejor cada día, para aprender a acompañarte mejor. Dejo ir la culpa, la culpa abandona mi cuerpo, mi pecho, mi cabeza. Se que va a tomar tiempo, pero hoy la dejo ir, dejo que vuele y que tome su lugar todo el amor que te tengo, mi niño. Perdón.

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Guille, no te odio, no tengo tiempo para eso. Pero que asco los meses que pase contigo. Eso, byeeee.

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Guillermo, now I know... I've done my research, now I know for sure that I didn't ever truly loved you, I tried tho, I tricked myself into believing I did, I managed sucessfully trick myself. I've reading about psychology a lot, about attachment, relationships, all that jazz... and now, just now, who knows if I will learn anything new that will make me change my mind, but now I see that it was not that you were demanding, I just couldn't give you what ypu needed in the ways you needed, and same the other way around, the ways you showex me your love didn't align with what I need... and I was not aware enough to notice nor had enough emotional responsability towards you to simply tell you this and do something about it. Somehow I'm happy things happened the way they did, I'm happy I broke up with you. I hated every second I spent denying my true feelings, denying that I was looking for him in you, and maybe if it wasn't you, it would have been whomever decided to pursue me as a partner... it's him, it's always been him. I'm sort of sorry, but also not really. It's weird.