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I think my favourite concept in Dunmeshi is that... There is an urgency in most of us to sacrifice our peace of mind when push comes to shove. Perhaps to worry means that you care about the emergency at hand (whatever level of emergency that is subjectively) and we pinpoint focus on the task and everything else disappears. Our sleep and diet patterns change even though these activities are pivotal for our dopamine systems and functionally make us feel healthier and help us think clearer. It's self-punishing, the "grind" so to speak: to persevere we have to forget the self and think solely of the object.

But Dunmeshi doesn't let you get away with that. These people's friend is captive in a monster's body, their world is literally ending, and still they sit down to eat. To eat is to live. Only living things eat and it is the privilege of the living. Yes, there is a crisis. Yes they are upset and heartbroken and distressed. But they still focus on the food: the very thing that sustains you and gives you energy to think, to move, to keep going. A moment of gratitude offered to life by actually, consciously indulging in it. They aren't bad people for eating while Falin's suffering, no. It is simply unfeasible to give parts of yourself to a situation while hoping to gain twice as much back. Just take the time to make food, think about how delicious it looks, and eat. Even if you fail, you need to eat. Even if you succeed, you need to eat. You need to live life no matter what. You need to enjoy it no matter what. It is never "inappropriate" to just live your life.

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i literally cannot stop thinking about wang baoxiang... the struggler of all time. love when the minister asks him if he has hobbies and hes like I Paint ♥️ and what he means is that hes obsessively making a poster to call some guy a cuck to destabilise the military power dynamics. girl thats not a hobby!! neither is Ending The World Because of Homophobia. he should be at the club 😭

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I have never been on the same page as fandom’s clear communication fetishists and I never will be. I love miscommunication, concealment, pigheadedness, and lies. I think characters should talk around what they have to say and ignore each other and impute needs and beliefs onto others that have nothing to do with those other people and everything to do with maintenance of the ego. A little clear communication is fine but it should come at the end and be earned by repeated instances of snobbery, tomfoolery, self righteousness, or blockheadedness. If you decide you hate a character just because that character isn’t communicating in the way a therapist might coach them to, well consider that people don’t actually talk like that at all and that most of us get things wrong many times before we inch our way out of the labyrinthine darkness of our own heads.

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my favorite genre of fictional character is like "i am terrifying to almost everyone, i'm very good at killing, i can endure anything, i've become exceptionally good at playing into my reputation, and if you try to give me positive social interaction i will react with confusion and cower in a corner like an abused animal. and i may try to shoot you. but there is also a chance i may imprint on you like a feral dog receiving its first loving touch! good luck."

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rb with your most common recurring theme in your nightmares. mine is pregnancy

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The End of Eddis - Moira's Pen x

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There is just something so funny about Ianthe constantly getting stuck in duos where she is the least favorite.

Pull off an incredibly complex con in your early childhood and become the best necromancer of your generation? Everyone likes your sister more.

Ascend to goodhood? God likes the freshly lobotomised bone nun operating at 60% brain capacity more.

Try to woo the bone nun? She prefers her dead girlfriend she forgot about, actually. Also the body she has been hallucinating.

Save God, at the risk of your own life, becoming his only remaining lyctor? He has a surprise daughter. You're not even on the radar.

Become bff's with gods daughter? Whoops! Harrow is back.

My girl just can not catch a break. Whatever she does in Alecto, I hope it's funny and stand behind it.

Truly makes you think if the power of friendship could have fixed her.

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i'm such a big fan of laios using being well fed as proof that he's serious. like there's so many techbros & etc who will use not eating breakfast as proof that they're productive & just in general, the idea of being "too busy to eat" is getting more common (which is exactly what toshiro is doing here!) but laios is like. no. i'm so serious about this i'm thinking about what comes next. i'm so serious about this i'm making sure my body can do everything it can when i need it.

the fact that everyone in the party took care of themselves & carefully planned out their route & when they'd take breaks is what made them so successful. they always made sure to understand their limits

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he is so drunk girl at a party "you should dump your boyfriend" coded.

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thinking about how Fitz's mother never got to raise her own son and Chivalry never got to raise his own son and now Fitz never got to raise his eldest daughter AND one of his basically-sons

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´"Beloved, I have missed your company."

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the only thought on my mind these past few days

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this shit makes me insaaaaaane gideon has been down bad for harrow her entire fucking life

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Fitz and The Fool

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toxic codependent familial dynamics this. toxic codependent romances that. what about toxic codependent coworkers. i can’t do my job without this guy here or i’ll kill myself.

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The Hunger Games has the FUNNIEST arranged marriage of all time btw. Katniss realizes she'll have to marry Peeta and she's obviously upset so Haymitch tries to comfort her by saying "you could do a lot worse" and Katniss is like "well DUH of course I could do worse than Peeta he's the best & handsomest person on the face of the planet but that's not the POINT I want to be able to choose for MYSELF". Then she goes and chooses Peeta anyway lol. Comedy gold I tell you

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jeaneil sketch