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I feel like a lot of fanfics portray Mu Qing as a prissy, sarcastic, sassy bitch of a character (and we love him all the more for it) and it’s usually seen that he’s the one going through a healing process as such, but I also want to point out the fact that Feng Xin (albeit being relatively the most sane person in the heavenly court), still has loyalty issues. We know for a fact how badly it affected him when Xie Lian sent him packing. So I genuinely think that there would be situations where Mu Qing would need to pull up his inner mama cuz Feng Xin would be broken every time they had to separate for a bit too long, cuz what do you mean he can’t follow his petty, gorgeous, sassy boyfriend around everywhere he goes? He’s waited so many centuries for this! You absolutely cannot just leave him like this.

Mu Qing has trust issues. But Feng Xin also has abandonment issues. I know it.

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I’ve created a mxtx community cuz I couldn’t find any and I decided to get on with it myself.

Please join. I’m lonely out here 😃

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Any Updates on the sanzu fic?

I’m sorry but I won’t be able to post any fics for a while now 😭😭 we have our semester pre-finals and finals for the next few months and it’s literally taking up so much space in my brain and life 🫠 I’ll get it done in the few months of holidays we have after the exams istg-

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I think we need to make it a compulsory thing to put tags regarding whether a fan fiction has a happy or a sad ending.

I just read three freaking fan fictions of Fengqing. I read the second one because the first one was depressing as fuck then I read the third one cuz Mu Qing died in the second one and then I find out all three of them ended with Mu Qing dead. wtf.

My soul needs super glue. Scratch that. I need some nails and a hammer to piece myself together again.

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I got Aventurine on my first pull. wtf.

wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf-

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Honestly I love the fact that in most of the ship fanfics that I’ve read, confessions are so soft or even silly sometimes, but then we have Fengqing, who, in almost all of the fanfics I’ve read, confess (if you can call it that) to each other in situations that involve either do or die, violence, fist fights, or all in all them being absolute bitches to each other. And once they do confess they fly at each others throats for the next few minutes, being absolute idiots in denial. Then it turns to teeth and tongue fights. Then they merrily go back to bickering and fist fights. This time lovingly. Smh.

Yes I’m still fucked over by the Fengqing agenda. No i will not accept help, this is the only thing keeping me from going crazy-

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I’ve created a mxtx community cuz I couldn’t find any and I decided to get on with it myself.

Please join. I’m lonely out here 😃

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This is so damn pretty, I had to sit and cry about it for minutes on end every time it showed up on my main page.

My poor little souls.

“I want to take someone back to the cloud recesses… take him back and hide him.”

📖 Mdzs | Wangxian

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'- More? - More..."

...and there are no more regrets

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I’m crying. Literslly. Thank you for this.

There was this post that I can't fucking find that said sth along the lines of "Imagine Xie Lian getting all of Hua Cheng's prayers to him like an email inbox or something after his cursed shackle breaks"

(If anyone finds it please tell me so I can tag/link op)

So based on that I present you the Fengqing version. (oh and SPOILERS ig)

In which Mu Qing looses access to the communication array after getting his cursed shackle and Feng Xin doesn't believe him at first and claims it's a ploy. So he's saying things that would get Mu Qing's attention through their private array. Only after several tries he realizes the general ,actually can't hear him.

They don't really get a chance to talk about it because things go to shit way too fast.

When all is done after and the Heavenly Emperor has been defeated, Mu Qing's cursed shackle falls off. He gets no time to cherish his freedom though because Xie Lian is on his knees, a husk of himself, arms open around a few fluttering silver butterflies, and both he and Feng Xin know that their job here is not done yet.

It's days later, that Mu Qing finds some time to relax by himself, whlile they're camping out for the night on mount Tacaing. Enough of his spiritual pressure is restored for him to heal the worse of the burns on his legs and he's found a small spring nearby to wash himself of the dirt and recent traumatic events.

He takes his time to soak in the cool water but his mind is still with his friends (f-f-f-friends) in the camp. Feelings need to check on Xie Lian he reaches out to Feng Xin via spiritual array, just in case Xie Lian managed to fall asleep.

As soon as he opens the array his mind is filled with Feng Xin's voice. He's talking over himself in various different tones and Mu Qing head is a mess. Emptying his mind helps a bit in separating them and Mu Qing feels like he knows what these are now. All of these are Feng Xin's attempts at communicating with him. If he focuses enough, he can put them in chronological order from first to last. Not all of them are clear enough to understand properly but he'll work with what he has right now. It feels important enough.

The first of the "messages" are teasing, a normal and usual tone for most of their conversations.

"I bet this is just another one of your schemes."

"You're lying and I know you can hear me you little shit"

"Oh well would you look at that. Crimson Rain has a whole list of your shittiest life decisions."

"Nan Yang is the strongest of the two generals of the south."

"Remember that time that we were playing that game you like and I won and you accused me of cheating? I did cheat. I moved tiles while you were serving yourself tea."

There's a whole lot of ones similar to the last and Mu Qing can't help but laugh at Feng Xin's futile attempts to anger him.

The next ones are similar to their most casual conversations, ones they have through the array when they're with company.

"I don't like this mountain. It's so hot here and it smells bad and I want to get this over with as fast as possible."

"I am kind of glad that Crimson Rain is here with us right now. He might be a dick but he'd give his live to protect Dianxia and we need that energy right now. Don't tell anyone I said that."

The last one starts of the same way but gets interrupted. "Us three here with guoshi kind of reminds me of old ti-"

And after that most of the "messages" are pure anuguish.

"NO- NO MU QING. Please don't let that sword go. We can get you up- How the fuck do we get you up?"

"Oh heavens, the smell. No no no no, I'll come get you, please."

'"NO FUCK. Where the fuck did he send you. Mu Qing where are you. Where's Dianxia. Please-"'

There's more of those and even in the ones that Mu Qing can hear clearly Feng Xin makes zero sense.

"Fuck. FUCK. NO NOT AGAIN NO. What do I-"

"I've got you Qing'er. I have you. You're ok. We can do this. I can do this for the both of us."

Mu Qing remembers hiding his face while Feng Xin held him over the lava. He was so sure Feng Xin did it out of obligation and staring at him like he hung the sun in the sky wouldn't make the situation easier.

But knowing he was scared for him? That he cared? That was new.

The rest of the "messages" up to a point are half panicked and half Feng Xin's attempt to call himself.

Feng Xin freaking out seeing Mu Qing fall limp on the ground during the fight with Jun Wu.

Feng Xin screaming "not again, not again" when he almost fell in the lava again.

Feng Xin overthinking about Mu Qing saving him for a change.

He tries to go through all of them but he's interrupted by a new one. A live one. Feng Xin accessing his spiritual array to talk to him.

"Hey Qing'er."

Before Mu Qing manages to answer Feng Xin continues.

"I know you can't hear me right now but I'll say this either way. I feel so selfish. Not just right now. All these last days, ever since the Heavenly Emp- no, Jun Wu was defeated I've felt like the most selfish man in all the realms. I keep seeing Dianxia breaking down in tears. He's shaking violently in his sleep. He's been a mess since Crimson Rain disappeared. And all I can think is that I'm so lucky. I'm so lucky because even though Dianxia lost his other half I still have mine. I don't have to get through what he's going through because I didn't lose you."

Mu Qing doesn't know if the shaking of his voice is carried through the array, but that's a risk he's willing to take, only to answer.

"I'm so lucky I didn't lose you too A-Xin"

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The reality behind these words have hit me like bricks ever since I finished reading svsss. It good to see this in a post. Smh.

i firmly believe that if shen qingqiu had just turned on the waterworks in the water prison luo binghe would've folded like a house of cards. no self detonation no nothing if shen qingqiu had just let the mask down even for 2 minutes and cried real tears luo binghe would've busted him out, healed his wounds, fed him nice food, tucked his shizun in, and punted himself back into the abyss again. my god

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What do you mean am I crying? You are!

No I didn’t just finish svsss and the entire of mxtx work collection. No I don’t feel a void in my very existence.

… if anyone knows of any other similar good works then please (please) lmk. I’m dying. 😃

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i’ve been in your in box sm abt chigiri lately and i don’t feel bad for it, live laugh love chigiri<3 anyway in the bllk egoist bible vol.2 there’s a section abt the 3 best and 3 worst characters at various prompts. one of the prompts was abt who cries the easiest and number one is MY PRETTY BOY CHIGIRI (i gotta make him cry in bed😩)

and ranked number one for who is the least easiest to get to tears was Sae and somehow i feel like that is a challenge. i will bring that man to tears.

😩😩 need those pretty little things in tears under me istg seeing Chigiri cry would probably make me ascend 😮‍💨

(Dw I realised it was you. You are the only anon of mine who’s alive rn 🥲)

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Nagi, Chigiri, Bachira and Rin be looking REAL FINE in s2 ep6 😩😮‍💨 Sae is also looking rlly pretty

i may be shorter than all of them but i would top every single one of em

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We stan them pretty bottoms 😩✊

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i’m going insane. i cannot get enough of chigiri so i decided to check out his wiki page and apparently he loves praise but hates it when people are jealous of him

chigiri who is possessive of his charming s/o AND has a praise kink⁉️😩

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Ikr 😩 I got bored and binge read most of the bllk players wiki’s and three things I found surprising were chigiri’s praise kink, isagi’s thigh fetish and sae’s ass fetish 🤯

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This seems canon….

This is canon.

Au where everything is the same except Lan Zhan grabs Wei Wuxian's hair ribbon like a leash every time he gets ready to cause problems.

Wei Wuxian: 🎶🎵Time to do some sketchy shit! Doo-dah doo-dah🎵🎶

Lan Zhan, dragging him back inside: Absolutely not

Wei Wuxian: 🎶🎵Did not get away with it. Fucky fuck fuck fuck🎵🎶