awkward---bean
awkward---bean
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awkward---bean · 2 days ago
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call me crazy
but i really do think we're gonna get a hot and heavy scene with melissa where Shauna accidentally calls her jackie
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awkward---bean · 3 days ago
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awkward---bean · 10 days ago
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awkward---bean · 10 days ago
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♡ Yui Childhood HC ♡
(Btw I did not make Seiji a creep in this, 'cause what on earth was that LE ending...)
And sorry for any mistake
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♡ Yui's biological parents were Romanian. 
♡ She was born on the summer of June 21, 1995.
♡ Her father worked as a construction laborer. He had a stubborn and hardworking personality.
♡ Yui’s mother was what we call a book smart person. She graduated as a veterinarian years before Yui’s birth and moved with her partner to a small but comfortable house near some farm towns. She helped treat the pets of the local people. 
♡ Yui was a precious newborn baby with rosy cheeks; curly, delicate blonde hair; big pink eyes, and soft blonde eyebrows. She looked just like her mother. Honestly, the father was just there. Yui is 100% like her mama.
♡ Yui lived with her biological family only for the first year of her life.
♡ She was kidnapped while in the care of her grandmother while her parents were at work, never to be seen again...
♡ When Richter found Cordelia's dying body he knew he had to act fast. The heart of his love needed a vessel and he opted for a human child. 
♡ The exchange of hearts left the little girl's body so weakened that she didn't wake up for a couple of days.  
♡ Richter knew he couldn't keep the child with him for the time being. If the viboras smelled a part of Cordelia in the baby, they would definitely take her away.  
♡ And he wouldn't let that happen.  
♡ Instead, he decided to give the girl to the only person he knew would keep her away from the Viboras: a demon hunter.  
♡ Richter tricked a famous Japanese hunter (who at the time was visiting some priests in Romania) into taking care of the child.  
♡ The hunter, Komori Seiji, believed that the little girl was being targeted by vampires who had killed her parents. So, not trusting Richter, Seiji adopted the girl instead of staying in Romania as the vampire had ordered, baptizing her as Komori Yui. Then, he returned to Japan.
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♡ Let me talk about Seiji: he wasn’t raised in a religious environment, but since he grew up in a neglectful house, he always felt like something was missing in his life. He ended up in the custody of his uncle, a devout Catholic, and Seiji quickly found a sense of security within the religion.
♡ After learning of the existence of vampire hunters, instead of continuing with his college studies, he began training to become one of them.
♡ He spent almost three decades of his life as a hunter. 
♡ It wasn't until his mid 40s that he longed again for a religious life, and started studying theology and philosophy with the hope of rising as a priest in his local parish.
♡ Shortly before Yui's second birthday, Seiji became the new priest of the only parish in Kaminashi City, the Parish of Blessed Thomas Tzugi.
♡ With this position, he also inherited the treaties that the former priest had maintained with the Bishop of Japan. These pertained to the agreements that the Church had with Karlheinz: sacrifices in exchange for the demons refraining from invading the human world.
♡ Seiji was already aware of certain treaties between powerful people and demons, but he never imagined that his own church was involved in human trafficking. At first, he refused to accept the idea, so his colleagues convinced him that they didn’t have another choice: that humans just couldn’t withstand an invasion.
♡ His parish was connected to a nearby orphanage run by nuns. In it, whenever one of the girls reached adulthood without getting adopted (between 15 and 18 years old) they would be turned into a sacrificial bride. 
♡ But returning to Yui…  Since Seiji was usually busy with the administration of the parish and his life as a hunter, the little girl was cared for by the nuns from the orphanage.
♡ Yui adored her father; just seeing him come home would always make her happy.
♡ That's why between the ages of four and six, taking care of Yui was a difficult task. When she started missing her dad, she would cry and ignore anything the nuns said, staying by the door until Seiji returned.
♡ Her father was a kind man, but he was also reserved and strict. In an effort to protect her, Seiji never shared even his smallest concerns with her. However, he expected his daughter to not keep any secrets from him. 
♡ As for his discipline, he was intimidating. Seiji only needed to raise his voice for his daughter to stop protesting, and if things got out of control, he would resort to physical punishments, such as pulling her hair or striking Yui's hands with a ruler. 
♡ Because of this upbringing, Yui went from being a rebellious and sometimes bossy child to becoming submissive in the presence of authority figures.
♡ Seiji didn't like wasting money on things he considered unnecessary for a peaceful religious life, so Yui  grew up without television.  He considered all the cartoons on TV to be violent and with inappropriate teachings for children (he hated Crayon Shin Chan with a passion lol).
♡ Their home was simple, small and somewhat rustic, with walls that let every sound filter through and made the rooms cold even during hot summers. Seiji always let Yui put up her drawings on the walls so she would never feel scared.
♡ However, that wasn't enough to stop Yui from developing a fear of loud noises, like storms, because of how much they echoed through the house and the fact that she often had to endure them alone.
♡ It never crossed Seiji's mind to tell his daughter that she was adopted, not even later on, because he was afraid of losing her somehow if she discovered the truth.
♡ And although Yui felt curious to know why she didn't have her mother in her life, she never truly missed her absence because the nuns at the orphanage already filled the role of her maternal figures.
♡ She was especially close to the director: Mother Makiko. 
♡ Makiko was actually the one who taught her how to cook. 
♡ In the orphanage, only girls who had been abandoned were accepted, meaning there was no record of their parents. The common number ranged from twenty-five to forty girls.
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♡ Since Yui could remember, that orphanage had been her second home. 
♡ It wasn’t a very big place, but it had enough space for the five nuns and the girls who lived there. Machiyad-inspired, it was silent because that’s how the nuns demanded it. The books were so old that some were made of wood.
♡ It was expected for her to use her free time studying, doing chores, or helping at the church.
♡ As a little girl Yui already was a compassionate person, she didn’t like seeing any of the other kids cry or play alone, so she would go to them to make them company.
♡ Yui was a very silly child. The kind of child that liked covering her body with stickers first and ask herself if it was gonna hurt taking them off later. 
♡ She also loved, LOVED, aquabeads.
♡ She would make animal figures all the time ‘cause she had a little obsession with them. 
♡ Like, she could tell you the most random animal facts as soon as you fell silent. Were you in the middle of eating? Did you know that hippos' sweat is red?
♡ But the closest thing she ever had to a pet was the orphanage director’s parrot, which screamed whenever she got close. When she tried to win its affection with food, the fluffy thing would accept the treat only to start screaming again.
♡ Oh, she hated him. 
♡ What she always dreamed of having instead was a turtle. In the Mizube Park, where her father took her most of the time, there were many red-eared turtles, and Yui often put flower hats on them ‘cause it was cute. Sometimes she even made the hats herself. 
♡ I think that in elementary school, Yui probably had a larger group of friends because she liked talking to everyone, but this group was less intimate compared to when she was a teenager, as they were just classmates.
♡ She never had a good ear, so the subjects that were most difficult for her were music and languages. On the other hand, she was quite good at social studies. 
♡ Yui was described by her teachers as a sweet, cheerful, persistent girl, and very talkative.
♡ Honestly, I can’t see Yui as an introverted person. I think she’s shy and easily embarrassed, but she definitely likes being able to open up to others.
♡ Once she entered adolescence, in junior high school, she began to drift away from her father a little. She still adored him, but Seiji was incapable of opening up emotionally to her. Yui didn’t understand why he would get upset when she asked him about his past or his travels, and didn’t like it when he responded poorly, so their only connection ended up being through religion.
♡ And speaking of religion, her faith was what influenced Yui’s life from a very young age, especially during the moments when she felt vulnerable.
♡ I mean, is there another reason she has such an optimistic personality? She always had faith that God would make things turn fine in the end.
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♡ She had her first crush at thirteen. She developed an almost obsessive interest in a boy from another class—not necessarily because of him, but because of how he made her feel. He was a teacher’s favorite, just like her, so they would often run into each other while doing tasks, and Yui became fascinated by the way he spoke and acted (which helped him stand out in school). He was incredibly intelligent and charismatic. There came a point when she wasn’t sure if she wanted to be with him or just be him. That first crush didn’t last too long, though, because all that perfection started to annoy her. Maybe it was the first time she ever felt that way. The first but unfortunately not the last.
♡ (Ryoutei Academy was hell).
♡ Leaving that incident behind, Yui actually enjoyed junior high school. She began to take the initiative to hang out with other girls her age. Her group of friends was smaller than in elementary school, but much closer.
♡ After school, they would often go to fairs or the arcade. Seiji was actually happy about this because it was the moment when Yui showed him that she was responsible enough to go out and still maintain good grades. That’s when he started to be less controlling with her routine.
♡ It’s canon that Yui wasn’t really into the idol world, but I can see her being a fan of two or three 90s/2000s singers, mostly influenced by her friends liking of them
♡ I think of artists like MISIA or Miliyah.
♡ As for her future, I don’t think she thought too much about what she wanted, or at least she wasn’t someone to make big plans about it. She liked the idea of a peaceful life (oh my sweet summer child), and that’s why becoming a nun always was her number one plan. She wouldn’t mind whatever happened as long as she could feel content with what she had, as her father taught her.
♡ A final addition: I firmly believe that the gorgeous pink  flip phone was her 17th birthday gift, so god dammit Subaru! 
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awkward---bean · 10 days ago
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Henriëtte Ronner-Knip, A dog and her puppies
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awkward---bean · 12 days ago
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she is so bisexual wtf
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awkward---bean · 13 days ago
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sometimes a theme recurs in your work without your permission. and sometimes it reaches a threshold where you're like. well now i think this is saying something about me against my will. don't know what though
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awkward---bean · 18 days ago
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It feels like this every time I write a fic
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awkward---bean · 21 days ago
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kara's such a hater lol
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awkward---bean · 23 days ago
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Love love love characters that present themselves as emotionally open social butterflies but the more you see of them the more obvious it is that they’re the most closed off fuckers in the story. Sure, they want to help you with your personal problems and messy emotions, but if you turn that shit back on them, they’ll shut down or deflect every time. Why are you sticking your nose in their business anyway? It’s not like it matters. They’re not a person, they’re just a role being played. They’re the guy who fixes things and saves people. Please ignore the man behind the mask, he’s fine. Everything’s fine.
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awkward---bean · 24 days ago
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awkward---bean · 26 days ago
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GET. AI. OUT. OF. FANDOM. Stop making headcanons with it, stop making fanfic with it, stop making fanart with it. If I see one more "asking chatgpt *blank* about *character/characters in a fandom* I'm going to lose my goddamn mind. Use your own fucking brain, stop asking AI to do everything. You could even ask other real people what they think. Just. Stop. Using. AI. In. Creative. Spaces.
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awkward---bean · 26 days ago
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"Wow Supergirl that's soo sad, Alexa play 'I really don't care' by Demi Lovato"
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awkward---bean · 26 days ago
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give her a smooch
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awkward---bean · 26 days ago
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Inspired by that first look image James Gunn recently released for Supergirl: Woman of Tomorrow!
I'm beyond hyped for its potential and the fact that we'll be treated to a space opera flick. Love that!
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awkward---bean · 29 days ago
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Manspreading is really hot when its a masc woman thing but unfortunately my fav fictional butch Kara Danvers is too polite to do it
Ugh you're so right. In this particular case I think she could take a leaf out of the book of one of my other favourite fictional butches
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awkward---bean · 30 days ago
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First tooth 🦷
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