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it's been a while & i feel pretty 🖤

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2020, a summary

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“I love you. I hope you go to sleep knowing that.”

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All I ever want to be is myself. Unapologetically

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there’s a difference between making love and fucking and if you’re lucky you get to do both with the same person

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Gillian Flynn, Sharp Objects

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“And I wanted nothing. Simply to disappear. Silence, muteness. I didn’t know why.”

— Szilárd Borbély, from Berlin-Hamlet: Poems; “Invalidenstrasse,” (via violentwavesofemotion)

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I used to think I was being too picky but fuck that. I deserve someone who wants to know about me. It may sound silly but I don’t wanna be out here fucking with people who never ask my favorite color or if I ate today. I deserve someone who wants to hear my dreams just as much as I want to hear theirs. I deserve the same energy and effort I release. Fuck that. 

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“I could not stop wasting time. It was crazy. I wanted to do something with my life, but instead I went to sleep, or sung in the shower, or sat and stared at the wall. I couldn’t even tell you about anything that I saw. I didn’t talk to anybody. The cicadas kept dying outside, and as I dreamed, my mouth grew thick and venomous with silence.”

— Yiwei Chai, The Jacaranda Years (via crowsummer)

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I bought a new romper 🤓

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i’m so big on peace rn, i don’t want to deal with no lame shit.

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i feel disconnected from literally everyone and everything.

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thinking bout 2019 and how i took her for granted