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Dreams: Cheater!Levi x Reader

(Y/N)’s POV

I open my eyes and see a crystal clear body of water. I’m lying on the sand and although I would normally be irked that this sand will be going in places that sand should not go, I find myself at peace. There’s something in my hand, I look down at my hand and see another. I follow the owner’s arm with my eyes and see the love of my life and my current boyfriend, Levi, looking at me with love and adoration a stark contrast to his normally bored and stoic visage. Normally I would soak in this beautiful yet rare experience but now I know that I’m in a fantasy world. The man I fell in love with would never look at me with love and happiness but instead disgust and shame and its all my fault.

Its my fault because I’m worthless, ugly and undeserving of even a glance of Levi and recently he’s been that to me everyday for the past month. I sigh and shift closer to the fake Levi, this dream started off so well but now is so bitter that I want to wake up.

Wake up.

Wake up.

Wake up…

I open my eyes for real this time. My eyes are met with the boring white ceiling, I move my hand around the other side of the bed and is met with cold and empty sheets.

He’s gone to work early again.

I’m not surprised anymore. For the past month Levi has been leaving for work early in the morning and coming home late at night. I always thought that he was just a hard worker or was trying to get promoted but now I think otherwise. I don’t know what he’s doing but I do know that whatever it is has been putting a wall between me and Levi. Its weird that we live in the same house but never talk to each other anymore maybe its because we don’t see each other either.

When me and Levi started dating he was kind and generous, always putting my feelings and needs above his own. I know he may not seem like it because of the stoic facade he usually puts on but he’s actually a nice person who cares about the people in his life. He always showered me with kisses, hugs, cuddles and little tokens of appreciation so much so that it was no longer surprising to feel an arm come out of nowhere for a hug or a pair of lips finding their way onto my cheeks, forehead, hand and finally my lips but now that pleasant normality went away faster than the speed of light.

“I have extra work today I’m going to be late.”

“I don’t have time for your neediness when there’s work to be done.”

“No (Y/N) I won’t give you a kiss I don’t have time for that.”

Those were just some of the many excuses he made but today’s excuse was far worse than anything that he has ever said.

“No (Y/N) I won’t be home early today. Why would I? There’s nothing special about this day. Now would you stop being so clingy and needy all the goddamn time I have more important things to do than look after you.”

That was the response that I got today when I called him. I felt tears well up in my eyes. “Yeah the day we first confessed our love to each other is just another day.” I say after he hanged up.

Am I the reason he’s acting so cold? Am I too clingy? Too ugly? Too fat?

~Time Skip to 1 am~

I stayed up late tonight, too worried about Levi to actually fall asleep. I get out of bed and walk to the kitchen in search for some food when I hear the front door open. “That was a lot of fun! I never knew that one man could make feel so happy and naughty at the same time but then again you’re just full of surprises!” An annoyingly high pitched female voice says.

“Whatever. Get lost, you might wake up my girlfriend.” Levi says

“Fine.” She says with a sigh. “See you tomorrow.”

I hear the door close and immediately walk up to him. “Why were you out so late?” I ask

“I was working.” He says exhaustively.

Normally I wouldn’t question him but after his conversation with whoever that girl was I know that he’s hiding something. Is he cheating? “How was your day.”

“Fine.”

I sigh and ask “Who was that girl you were talking to?”

“Just a colleague from work.”

“It sounded like she was more.”

Levi sighs and runs his fingers through his hair. “Could you stop being so clingy. Seriously, what’s wrong with you?”

“Well maybe I wouldn’t be like this if you didn’t forget our anniversary.”

“Why would I even want to remember the day I got stuck with you!” he yells looking at me straight in the eyes with fire in his own.

I gasp and feel tears well up but hold them back so I don’t seem weak in front of Levi. “Why are you like this? What did I do to turn you into this? Please Levi talk to me. What can I do?”

“You could do nothing like always, you stupid brat.”

I turn my to him. “Fine. Don’t tell me. You’re sleeping alone tonight.” I say as I walk to the bedroom and lock the door. I body slam onto the bed with a sigh as I finally release the tears that I have been so desperately trying to hold in. What happened to the Levi I know and loved?

I close my eyes and dive into the world of my dreams, the one place where I’m safe.

I’m running up the stairs of my apartment but I’m way past my place and I seem to be on the last floor but I still continue to run, run from what I don’t know. I’m on the roof now and I’m close to the ledge. Feeling quite bold in this dream state I stand right on the ledge. I look down at city beneath my feet, everyone so busy with their own problems that mine seem miniscule. I hear the door open behind me and I turn to look who it was.

Levi.

Why was he here? I was about to ask that when I felt his hand on my back, the warmth of his hand is felt on my clothed skin. I relax into his touch when he suddenly pushes me causing me to fall of the ledge.

I’m falling…

Falling…

Falling…

Before I hit the ground I open my eyes and find that I am back in my room. I’m shaken by the dream because it felt so real. What does this mean?

I have no time to ponder my dream, I’m a woman on a mission. I have to find out what Levi’s not telling me, I have to go to his place of work.

I get on the bus and make my way to Survey Corps International. I enter the building and get greeted with a smile by my best friend Hanji Zoe. “Morning (Y/N). What are you doing here?” she asks.

“I’m here to see Levi.” I say.

As soon as I said that Hanji’s smile instantly drops. “I don’t think thats a good idea.”

“Why not?”

“If you go up there you’re going to get hurt.” she sighs then says. “But its better if you find out sooner rather than never. His office is on the 25th floor.”

“Thank you Hanji.” I say. I turn towards the elevator and get inside and hit the big 25 button. The ride up is smooth with no interruptions. The door slowly opens and I get out only to find my friend and Levi’s boss Erwin Smith look straight at me.

“(Y/N)?” He asks with his beautiful eyebrows raised. “What are you doing here?”

“I’m here to see Levi.”

He sighs quickly after I say that and begins to pinch the bridge of his nose. “Okay it’s about time you found out anyways. His office is the first one on your right.”

I furrow my brow confused by his statement but thank him before heading down to Levi’s office. As soon as I reach the door I hear sounds that are very sexual. I open the door and see Levi pantsless fucking his secretary Petra Ral on his desk. I gasp in horror alerting them to my presence.  

“(Y/N)?” Levi asks shocked.

I found myself in shock so much so that I find it hard to move. I can’t breathe. The world begins to spin and my entire body feels heavy. My world becomes dark as I fall to the ground in a deep sleep.

~Time Skip~

I wake up on the bed of me and Levi’s room with a throbbing headache. After a few minutes of confusion my memories came back to me and hit me like a brick.

Levi cheated on me…

With Petra…

And everybody knew…

But nobody told me.

I feel sobs begin to rack my body. Why? Why did this happen? What did I do to deserve this? In midst of my thoughts the door opened revealing Levi.

“Hey honey. How are you feeling?” he asks in a calm voice.

“Don’t ‘honey’ me I want answers. Why did you do it? Was I not enough?”

“Everythings going to be fine babe we’re going to get through this together.” he says while stroking my hair.

I slap his hand away and get out of the bed. “Its not okay. I was crying alone and silently suffering while you’re having the time of your life.”

“Its okay babe, I’m here now.” he says while trying to hug me but I push him away.

“But you weren’t there when I needed you.” I say while tears run down my face. I turn towards the door and say. “You use to make me feel alive when I’m with you and I’m sorry but now the only place you do that for me is in my dreams. I’m sorry but I can’t live with the lie you call your love. I’m sorry that I can’t live without you.”

I run through the door and exit the apartment building. I hear Levi calling out my name but it falls on deaf ears.

I’m sorry.

I’m running up the stairs of my apartment way past the place that I use to call home as I seem to be on the last floor but I still continue to run, run from what I still don’t know. I’m on the roof now and I’m close to the ledge. I stand right on the ledge, I look down at city beneath my feet, everyone so busy with their own problems that mine seem miniscule. I hear the door open behind me and I turn to look who it was.

Levi.

Funny how similar this was to my dreams except this time Levi is crying and telling me to get down from the ledge.

Don’t worry Levi I’ll get off soon.

You’re going to push me. Not physically but emotionally and mentally.

And that’s exactly how I fall.

I’m falling…

Falling…

Falling…

As the concrete comes closer and closer I close my eyes and think…

I’m finally going to be allowed to dream forever.

For more stories go to my Levi x Reader Oneshots on Wattpad:

https://www.wattpad.com/story/112904348-levi-x-reader-oneshots