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trepang2 doodles because ive been too busy to actually sit down and draw

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I LOVE MY FRIENDS :3

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hi yes I'm Trigger

drawin' ocs and sona content that's not related to my usual fanart. Need some organization lol

possible cws: blood, nudity (non suggestive as of now)

whoever gets here by my main acc, HI TAKE A GANDER IF YOU WANT AND ASK QUESTIONS ABOUT OCS OR JUST SAY HELLO :3

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fritz would call him big guy to piss him off

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thanks pinterest for the random reference i needed an excuse to draw them kissing

trigger rant VVV

dawg balaclavas look comfy like the compression on the face sounds nice and i already enjoy wearing masks so a full head coverage sounds like a dream. plus, i like how it just hides my face. wore a mask for like 3 years every single day cuz of covid but even after it settled down i refused to take it off because of the comfort. hiding my face makes me feel more protected because people cant imagine my face. auughhh i lowkey want one but i dunno how to ask for one and if i do, its not exactly in my style and id probably be questioned. just need sensory clothes or something..plus i could put some sort of essential oils on it a little so i have a pleasant smell constantly. scents are always super important to my comfort since i hate the way one whiff can bring back horrible memories if it reminds me of someone or somewhere. PLUS THEY LOOK COOL GIVE ME!!!! augghg i want a balaclava please i only have a scarf i like to wear over my nose when i can

i figure its probably coming from a place of not wanting people to read my facial expressions and also i feel like some people just shouldnt be able to see my face if we arent close enough. i like to stay private with most things and it takes me quite awhile to be fully open or just comfortable with being alone with someone. ehe reminds me a friend recommended skiing because not only am i an adrenaline junkie, i also get to wear a balaclava to protect my face. may look into it... the more i think about it, the more i want it

thing is, i also dont wanna look like im gonna rob you if im walking around in public with a balaclava on. i just need to wear 3000 pins of stupid stuff on them on a jacket to notify people im just a loser and i dont want your wallet. the current series im into and such got me thinking about this idea since a lot of them have military stuff involved. i personally think itd be an experience to wear all of that gear..itll be really heavy but i think it would make me feel strong and secure. theres cosplayers who dress up in gear and i either want to meet one of them one day or be one myself. unfortunately, im a little shorter than id like to be so i gotta get some taller boots. im now genuinely considering wearing masks and face covers more often again, though im not sure if that would help me or not. on one hand it makes me feel safe and secure and on the other i often wore masks due to insecurity. im currently trying to distance myself from who i was a year or two ago since im trying to get healthier, but maybe i can turn this into something positive? often like the idea of wearing some sort of mask so people dont recognize me and tie me to my past self full of genuine hatred for myself and my life. i dunno, might be worth a try to see if this is the right idea for me..

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this is still funny to me

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hes sickly pale because hes been through some shit

dont worry his non-canon boyfriend is tanner so they can share the melanin. can you tell i love rappel harnesses

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made these awhile ago and i still think they're funny. literally the only time i decide to join in an art trend

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I LOVE MY FRIENDS :3

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snail love 💗

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she's so me

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Puella Magi Madoka Magica - Kazuya Shiotsuki Illustration

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random mv2 doodle

its a doodle because i kind of forgot to add a lot of details i think but my brain has shut off for this week sorry

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click for full image :3

MY UNCLE ACTUALLY GOT THEM FOR ME

trigger rant down here VVV

how? no goddamn clue but he's awesome and I'm so happy. hope I didn't stress him out too much with the very strict time limit he was given in the shop.

had them meet my Sebby plushie too :3 (2nd photo)

BUT HOLYYYY hell he actually managed to grab them for me. The fact I'm getting my Gabriel acrylic stand and bodypillow sometime early 2025 is gonna be a great addition to my growing ULTRAKILL collection. Aaa I was seriously so happy I could cry. Today was decent, honestly! Yeah, I woke up late and spent most of the day making bread and went out for like an hour and a half to hang out with some old friends who were randomly near my house but this was seriously the cherry on top. Yes, I'm tired from today, like most days on break but MAN I've been looking for this huge dose of serotonin. Good lord I hope my uncle knows just how happy I am (sent him a text with a crazy selfie of me with them).

They also came with really nice bags! (I forgot what they're called, the type of bag I mean) I can use one of them to carry my rockclimbing stuff next time I go :))) Also get to show off a cool bag and be reminded of whats waiting for me at home... seriously still amazed that he even got these, THEY SERIOUSLY SOLD OUT IN 3 MINUTES EVERY TIME THEY DROPPED IN THE SHOP?!?!? also gotta shout out my uncle for having no clue what I was into and probably has no idea what ULTRAKILL is but he still delivered. He was also the only family member (despite him not actually being in my family) that i requested the plushies to on my Christmas list because I know he wouldn't judge me if he took a gander in the store (talking about the bodypillows and bootyshorts they sell) and he would also support whatever series im into because he is also into a lot of series of video games and animes and what not. He's seriously awesome.

so sorry if you decided to read all of this, i just needed to express my joy.

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"Is there anything else you want to do?"

"I have never seen the ocean."

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"I love her."

"You look nice today."

"You say that every day, V."

"I know."

unblurry and clear image of Mirage ^^^

heyyy decided to give a wholesome mv2 post before the pressure of finals set in. My drawing pen tip broke as well, so I struggled to finish this drawing. I don't know how much I'll be able to post from now on, but I'll still be here lingering until I can relax once more and draw.

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me too mirage, me too