autisticjon

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i think alice and gwen are doing something to my brain chemsitry

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kind of obsessed with alice and sam and celia's cute little office romcom thing while gwen is offscreen getting a firsthand look at the horrors

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we've got a joker. i repeat we've got a joker

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yeah alright i can be into this. i don't understand colin(?) so i will be looking at the transcripts but frankly good audio mixing bc i was walking alongside a fairly busy road for most of it. i like the bureacratic toxic yuri i hope that continues. the intro/outro are appropriately "spooky until you look up and youre standing outside a walmart at 3 pm and then its just goofy". looking forward to meeting mr. bumpo or whatever that thing is

starting tmp. they've introduced too many characters 5 minutes in i won't be able to keep track of all of these

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oh shit they put those guys in the computer

starting tmp. they've introduced too many characters 5 minutes in i won't be able to keep track of all of these

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i missed alice and sam's exposition because i found a dr pepper on the side of a road and started drinking it. they work for the government?

starting tmp. they've introduced too many characters 5 minutes in i won't be able to keep track of all of these

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starting tmp. they've introduced too many characters 5 minutes in i won't be able to keep track of all of these

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taking my pet mag200 to the vet to put it down :( but look how happy it is, it thinks we're going to the "it was the web the whole time" park

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I always wanted my friends to call me Gerry

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next time jon is horribly injured is going to be so fun bc Idk much abt bones or ribs but. Isn’t that something that a doctor might, idk, notice? just, a patient missing two ribs, no scars indicating rib removing surgery, no records about removing ribs? and this is the guy that was dead what the fuck? a doctor staring at jons ribs just. 

“where are your fucking bones, mr. sims”

“ah. uh. i. lost them.”

“You lost your bones. Lost them?”

“…..Yes.”

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next time jon is horribly injured is going to be so fun bc Idk much abt bones or ribs but. Isn’t that something that a doctor might, idk, notice? just, a patient missing two ribs, no scars indicating rib removing surgery, no records about removing ribs? and this is the guy that was dead what the fuck? a doctor staring at jons ribs just. 

“where are your fucking bones, mr. sims”

“ah. uh. i. lost them.”

“You lost your bones. Lost them?”

“…..Yes.”

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131. time to reblog the rib post again

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did you know that if you pause 119 at just the right moment tim is literally fine forever? follow for more pro tips

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i really relate to s3 jon because i too have been kidnapped by clowns (had to visit my parents' house)

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have i posted this yet. stokers

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“i don’t know, he stopped using that jargon around me after I joked that ‘urbex’ sounded like a brand of drain cleaner”

redraw of an aaaancient stokers comic because after all these years at my core I will forever. be a stokers guy

here’s the old version if you’d like to see it. it’s… really bad

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There's something about Tim Stoker's storyline that resonates so deeply within us traumatised people, especially people with cPTSD and complex grief because he's in an objectively horrific situation. He's stuck in the plot of a horror tragedy and he seems to be the only genre aware person, the only person willing to 1. See the injustice of it all and 2. React in a normal way to it, which is to be mad about it. Martin is actively rejecting the idea of fully processing the situation and therefore being angry cause he's trying to plough on and it's infuriating because he just doesn't get it. Or what's even worse, he does get it and Tim, with his all encompassing rage, is the one that's dealing with it wrong. Which is unacceptable to him, because It's Just Not Fair. He's got no one else, really, to understand.

And the thing is, all of his actions are completely understandable. In a horrific situation, it would make sense to let the grief and rage over take you and to a certain extent, it makes sense how he would get to the conclusion of blowing himself and the Circus up in revenge. But even though it's completely and utterly understandable, it's Not Right. It hasn't been constructive and it hasn't helped him move on and it's made the situation worse for the people around him.

And that tragedy really sticks with me. Cause we've all fantasised about anything between burning it all down and lashing out at our loved ones and punching someone in the face. Cause people would probably understand. We've been through a lot. But that wouldn't make it right. So the fact that Tim does it anyway is cathartic and I love him so much AHHHSGSHHAHANAHAHAJJAJAHAJAJSJJSJAJAJSJSJJSHSJSJSJSJSJSJJSJSJSJSJ