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Please take care of yourself!

I'm gonna be so fr with you I don't think I know how <3

I've been taking care of other people for so long I don't think I will ever be at the front of my own mind. Had a dream last night where the Jinx who tackled me at the premiere saw me at a con, tackled me again, broke my arm, and the only thing I was worried about was making her not feel bad and letting her know how good her cosplay was. That's all my dreams are anymore. I don't exist for myself.

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Sorry I've just been dead, essentially. Been going through shit, I hardly find joy in drawing anymore, cons are getting exhausting, got a job and then lost it for the most bullshit reason. Hanging on by a thread, I went from being the most outgoing person to the person who talks to so little people now that I have no safeguard when I get overwhelmed bc I've shut everyone out out of fear of them knowing I'm overwhelmed. Had to fight off handfuls of relapses the past couple of months and the days go by so quickly it feels like a daily struggle. People keep coming to me for mental health advice, too. At first I thought it helped me, but I can't actually carry every one when I don't have my own spotter. I'm tired. I'm holding on for my cat. He's the only reason.

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After applying to over 150 jobs......... I finally have one

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Commissions going a little slow due to. Everything Most recent development is now that my cat needs to go to the vet tomorrow

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Sorry I've been dead, working on comms and just got back from a con where I was drugged </3 I love Silco and I'll continue to cosplay him, but things like this only happen to me in Silco cosplay so sometimes I'm thankful my following on here is mostly Rick and Morty people so I don't have to worry abt the batshit crazy Silco stans. I used to think I was unhealthy but man at least I am aware of his actions and I'm not pretending cosplayers and his VA are HIM.

I've been assaulted, fetishized, antagonized and now drugged in Silco cosplay by Silco FANS and his VA deadass went "Now you know how I feel" (not in a condescending way at all, he's very nice) like this is NORMAL for him ?? Meanwhile one of the other VAs went "You have a stalker before I do??" and I'm still trying to process that.

I need to make friends with more Vi enjoyers.

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Putting all the confirmation Silco canoncially genuinely loves Jinx as his daughter in one place since some people still can't put 2 and 2 together after watching him choose Jinx over Zaun, admit he understands Vander now, and use his last words to comfort her.

Also not only does he keep the ashtray jinx drew on with him along with the other trinkets she gave him, he always keeps the side that says "DAD" facing him 🥺

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I'm so happy they scrapped that AU Silco design bc I'm so sorry, what is that.

Those ankles. That hair. Not fitting for one of the fashionable characters in the series, even when he was a dirty little rebel he wore jewelry and useless bandages, he's fashion forward. That outfit is a mile backwards.

I got heels for my AU Silco cosplay and while Silco is OBVIOUSLY not fem, he's always worn very tall boots in every single model and concept art he's had and AU Silco just gives me wine red heeled boots vibes. He walks into a room and wants to be heard.

Silco full body concepts from the expo in Shanghai

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Starting this ask with your singed sticker is wonderful!! I can't quite put it into words, but he looks so in character. Thanku for drawing him 🤍

Secondly is it possible to buy the digital files of some of your stickers to print myself... it won't ship to my country lol

My Etsy is set to ship internationally, but yeah, sure, hmu and I'll sell the files for the same price at the stickers themselves

I was also thinking abt updated my Arcane stickers styles since I've improved significantly since then and found a better design style

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just bought the r&m tamagotchi thingies it was too freaking cute!!! praying for your situation to improve... us silco enthusiasts gotta stick together...🫶🫶

Ty <3

Also, situation update:

- My roommate's parents are trying to find him a new car since they bought him that one (his car was already super beat up before this and they'd spent more than the car was worth on maintenance over the years) I tried driving his car twice and I genuinely feared for my life the entire time, so him getting into an accident felt like something waiting to happen.

- I was supposed to have an interview yesterday but they never met with me. Kept me waiting for over an hour and didn't even tell me why. I have an interview on the 6th that, if anything, I am over qualified for, so if that interview doesn't go well I'm gonna be pissed.

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It's gotten worse!! And I cannot stress enough just how OPEN my commissions are!! Like I'm actually begging at this point for people to reshare this.

I was already begging.

My roommate just rear-ended some dumbass on the freeway and got his car totaled and Idk how he's gonna get to work and I am panicking.

We could get evicted and I moved out of my parents house because they were neglectful and abusive, I can't fucking go back.

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They’re happy and healthy in the AU and that’s all that matters to me 🧘‍♀️

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Nothing is working Do you want Birdrick?? 😭 Here is unfinished Birdrick PLEASE my comms are OPEN I am DESPERATE

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!! EMERGENCY COMMISSIONS !!

The post where I explain why I need to do emergency commissions got little to no attention at all so Ig I have to make a separate one without the yapping ?? Idk why the last one did so badly.

WILLING TO DO ANYTHING EXCEPT PROSHIP OR FERAL !! Can do NSFW but only if I get confirmation that the buyer is over 18

Icons are $10, busts are $14, full-bodies are $30 <- may go up or down based complexity or whether or not I've drawn the subject before (like mechanical or furries) Prices go up by half the original price for extra characters ($5 for icon, $7 for bust, $15 for full-body) and I take PayPal (through Ko-Fi), Venmo and Cashapp

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!! Emergency Commissions Open !!

(Or you can check out my Etsy) !! Please share !! I have a long history on this account of me going back and forth with my awful workplace, from my old terrible manager who psuedo-fired me and then got fired himself, me getting "hired back" and then getting promoted to 2 positions, and now months later the same workplace demoted me from my supervisor position, for reasons I actively complained about and asked them for assistance over.

They kept my pay where it was since I had another promotion there (That I never actually got a pay raise for) but my other position as their mechanic was becoming super difficult because our building was just fundamentally broken and I was still in training and the guy training me only came in on Sundays so half of our building would be out of commission for an entire week.. and then when he tried to train me, 5 minute sessions would become 2 hour sessions because the building was so broken. I couldn't keep up with the maintenance and every time I came up with a solution, the mech team who didn't even work at my location and didn't see the issues, would tell me to fix it differently, then when I did what they told me to and it didn't work, they blamed me for their screw up.

My manager said I would get to keep my pay if I stepped down from my mech position, so I did. Everything was fine up until corporate realized our building was losing money and decided to cut my pay and said it was because I stepped down from mech. A job I still never got a pay raise for and constantly asked when I WOULD be getting a raise for. I fought this for weeks and even contacted HR.. only for the woman from HR to call me and put me on speaker with THE MAN WHO DEMOTED ME to figure out my problem. I chewed her out for this, told her I didn't trust her and that that was extremely inappropriate and unprofessional and her only response, with him still in the room, was "Well is he the problem? Do you want him to leave?" So right after he found out I went to HR to complain about him, bc of HR, he kept fighting even harder to cut my pay. I kept refusing to sign the wage decrease form until I had enough for rent, then put in my two weeks. They retaliated to my two weeks notice by only giving me two work days for my last two weeks, so my next paycheck will be maybe $50 at best. (I tried to ask for PTO for the hours they took from me, but my entire time working there, every time I asked about my PTO they would tell me they'd get back to me and then never did. For a year. Every single time I asked) I have an interview on the 29th and two other buildings on the strip from my old workplace want to hire me but I have to wait on both of them to get back to me and I have no idea how long that will be and need something to at least hold me over enough to pay for groceries or pay back the credit I use for gas before I get charged fees with money I don't have. Plus I only have money for this month's rent, so I'm really hoping someone gets back to me within February. Comm info:

Icons are $10, busts are $14, full-bodies are $30 <- may go up or down based complexity or whether or not I've drawn the subject before (like mechanical or furries) Prices go up by half the original price for extra characters ($5 for icon, $7 for bust, $15 for full-body) and I take PayPal, Venmo and Cashapp

WILLING TO DO ANYTHING EXCEPT PROSHIP OR FERAL !! Can do NSFW but only if I get confirmation that the buyer is over 18

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Another day another

Gets a completely random and unexplainable nosebleed

Bodily function shutting down.

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Love when my friends pick on me for being the token cishet friend in the group but then unironically call me gay when I fold for fictional men, then get genuinely confused about what I am.

You're confused?

I'm just as lost as you are.

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Commented on a video on Instagram about a girl telling everyone the baby names she liked but wasn't using bc they were perfectly fine names but everyone was whining as per usual, and this guy replies with "Someone who draws Rick and Morty yaoi doesn't get to have an opinion."

I have no Birdrick on my Instagram account, I only have drawings of just Rick. One of just Morty scenes for a print in my shop. That's it.

So either this man HUNTED for my other accounts, found my Tumblr and dug so deep that he found Rick and Birdperson kissing from MONTHS ago..

Or he somehow knows about my private NSFW art account and he just outted himself.