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Adam Clague (American b.1982), Cara Oranges and Coffee, 2022, Oil on board

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Gabriel Ferrier, Moonlit Dreams

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Dark Academia

Eating disorders are overdetermined in this culture… 

The relationship between problems such as these and cultural images is complex. On the one hand, the idealization of certain kinds of bodies foments and perpetuates our anxieties and insecurities …But on the other hand, such images carry fantasized solutions to our anxieties and insecurities, and that’s part of the reason they are so powerful.  They speak to us not just about how to be beautiful or desirable, but about how to get control of our lives, get safe, be cool, avoid hurt…novelist and ex-anorexic Stephanie Grant…says, “If I had to say my anorexia was about any single thing, I would have said it was about living without desire.”

…Why would anyone want to live without desire?

…Why has death become glamorous?

Freud tells us that in the psyche death represents not the destruction of the self but its return to a state prior to need, thus freedom from unfulfilled longing, from not having one’s needs met…Should we be surprised at the appeal of being without desire in a culture that has invested our needs with anxiety, stress, and danger, that has made us hungering and craving machines,  …and then repaid us with addictions…shallow and unstable relationships, and cutthroat competition for jobs and mates?

…yes the causes of eating disorders are “deeper” than just obedience to images.  But cultural images themselves are deep.

–Susan Bordo, Twilight Zones

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~ all images from Pinterest ~

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i don’t know who lied to me in high school and said if you worked hard you’d get to where you want to be….

-3.87 unweighted 4.3 weighted GPA

-1320 SAT (710 english 610 math)

-8 APs and 1 post-AP

-AP Scholar with Honor

-Lamp of Knowledge and Academic Letter recipient

-2X nominated for Governors Honors

-40 service hours

-about 25 hours of extracurriculars a week

-internship in my field of study

-part time job

-NAHS, DAP, captain of the color guard, 3rd chair violin in top group, DHO, SSMF winner, Presidents Education Award, graduated with honors, top 15% of my 500 person class ETC

…and now i go to the commuter school 15 min away that doesn’t even have a minor related to my major and i hate it here

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oh yeah… i graduated or whatever

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some of you need to romanticise the fucking paragraph break

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School doesn’t feel like work if you crave knowledge

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No matter how much I sleep I’m always tired

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chapter 9 of frankenstein 😩

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YALL i just got all my paperwork finalized to start my internship!! I’m dropping AP 3D art and instead I’m working as my schools Lab Aid/Tech for the science department and I’m being mentored by my favorite teachers!!!!!!

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if you are into hozier and heavily analyzing text and getting lost in media (you probably are if you follow me)- YOUVE GOTTA WATCH THIS ANALYSIS

Absolute embodiment of my favorite parts of media analysis. Historical and textual background and connections mixed with a modern pov in such a poetic way. Plus she has a lovely voice.

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trying to organize some books (24.03.23)