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After an hour or so, the guys wrapped up their set and headed backstage, where Alex was tackle-hugged by Awsten. They fell to the floor laughing. “Hey, pretty boy!” Awsten grinned.

“Hey yourself!”

Alex seemed a lot better than yesterday, more like his typical self. It wasn’t often that he got that bad, but it was really terrible while it lasted.

“Oooh, looks like we’ve got ourselves some lovebirds!” Jack yelled teasingly.

“Yes, yes we do.” Zack agreed.

“Don’t act like you aren’t worse!”

“We’re only worse in the sense that we fuck more than we do all that lovey dovey couple stuff!”

“You’ve been together for a day!”

“So have you.”

“Whatever.”

Awsten and Alex pulled eachother up and went to go hang out back in the lounge. Lisa and Ciara were there, so they all cuddled up together on the couch.

They all felt overjoyed. Lisa because Alex looked so happy, after having been less so, especially the day before, over the last week. Alex because he was feeling much better, and because he was with the people of his dreams. Awsten because Alex looked so happy and he was glad to be the cause of that. And Ciara because her boyfriend was so adorably happy after being slightly out of it for a few days.

All that mattered in that moment was each other. They quickly fell asleep that way, awoken not long later by Jack yelling at them to get their asses to the busses or they’ll be left behind.

They trudged to the busses and piled onto ATL’s. Alex and Awsten were quickly pushed onto a bunk together by Lisa and Ciara.

The two boys lay together, Alex’s head on Awsten’s chest, listening to his heartbeat lulling him to sleep, softly, one beat at a time. One beautiful beat.

“So…” Awsten trailed off, hands in Alex’s messy hair and legs intertwined with his.

“Hm?” Alex looked up to the younger boy.

“I- Jesus Christ you are so cute…” He smiled lovingly upon him, gaze never disconnecting from Alex’s deep brown eyes.

As Alex peered into Awsten’s eyes, he noticed something. They were two seperate colors. “You have beautiful eyes, Awsten.”

“You do too, Lexi.” He reminded, kissing his temple.

“What were you gonna ask?” Alex mumbled into his neck.

“Can I… Can I kiss you?” Awsten asked, awkwardly. He really didn’t want to upset Alex by doing something he didn’t want him to do.

“Yes,” He answered and lifted his head. Awsten touched his jaw softly, before slowly bringing his lips to Alex’s. They stayed there, kissing gently for a few seconds, before Awsten asked permission silently to deepen the kiss, to which Alex answered positively. Soon, his hand was creeping up Alex’s shirt, while Alex’s hand wrapped around him and under his sweater from behind. Eventually they pulled away, panting slightly from the lack of air.

“That… that was awesome.” Alex said breathlessly. “We should do that more often.”

“Yes, we should.”

“You two are too fucking adorabe!” Someone shouted from the living area.

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Merrikat

The next day, they had a show in Boston. The busses parked outside the House of Blues and Alex and Awsten stepped outside together. They saw Zack, Rian, and Jack standing near the Parks bus.

“Hey,” Alex said.

“Yo, Lexi! Awsten!” Jack yelled. Awsten grabbed Alex’s hand and squeesed breifly to show that he was there, then they walked forward.

“I’ll take my ten dollars now, Jack.” Zack told the skunk haired man, seeing Alex and Awsten holding hands.

“What?” Asked Rian. Awsten raised his and Alex’s entwined hands and Rian blinked. “You mean-”

“Yeah, Rian. They are, and I’m jealous as fuck.”

“Wow, Jack. You should raise your standards.” Alex joked.

“Pfft, we all know you’re the most gorgeous man alive.” Awsten said, kissing his cheek and causing him to go bright red.

“I agree.” Lisa agreed, appearing behind Alex and moving forward to plant a kiss on his cheek. He went an even brighter shade of red, if that was even possible and stuttered.

“I think you broke him.” Ciara said, walking by Lisa to stand with the guys. Geoff and Otto chose this moment to walk out of their bus.

“Alex looks happy.”

“Way to state the obvious, Otto.”

Zack smiled at all the positive attention that his friend was getting. Maybe saying something wouldn’t be that bad. But not right now.

“Now I need a new gay boyfriend.” Jack whined.

“You never had a boyfriend.” Rian reminded him.

“Zaaaack wanna be my new gay boyfrieeend?” He begged.

“Sure.” Zack smirked. “Are you serious or no?”

Jack leaned forward and kissed him full on the lips. Zack kissed back passionately, and soon they were having a heated make out session against the Parks bus.

Alex snapped out of it and looked at the two men. “Get a room!” He laughed.

The two complied and climbed onto the Parks bus, still connected at the mouth. Everyone grinned, knowing what would probably then happen. Before much longer, they heard moans.

“Oh dear,” Awsten giggled.

“Let’s hope they aren’t too sore during the show,” Rian said, rolling his eyes.

“Let’s hope someone caught that on camera.”

“I did!” Ciara piped up.

“Nice.” Lisa highfived her.

A few hours later the show started. They played Last Young Renegade, Damned If I Do Ya’, and Runaways, before they started with saying stuff.

“Jack, you have a nice rack.”

“I believe that’s an S, not an R.”

“Jack, you have a nice sack. That’s kind of creepy and weird. Did Zack give you that?”

“No, I didn’t.”

“Hey, maybe they saw you coming in from the bus earlier and liked your duffle bag but didn’t know it was called that, so they called it a sack.” Alex laughed.

“Nah, I think Zack gave it to them.”

“Still didn’t.”

“YOU ARE MY ONLY ONE,” Jack screeched into his mic.

“Jack - Rian shut the fuck up - Jack did you just…”

“Jack if I’m your only one you realize you can’t just sleep with whoever, right?” Zack sighed.

“Well that depends, how often will we be able to-”

“Okay, okay, whatever.”

“ZACK IS MY GAY BOYFRIEND!”

“I guess I am.”

“Merrikat is real!”

Alex laughed and said, “We should get back to the set, guys!”

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hey guys after the next chapter (which i already have queued) ill be taking a small break. ill be back soon hopefully ✌

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Busses and Jack

Awsten and Alex walked back to the busses hand in hand, finding Lisa and Ciara leaning against All Time Low’s bus, chatting away. Ciara, being the first to see them, waved at them, grinning. Lisa turned and smiled as well.

“Hey ‘Lex! I see it went well?” She asked.

“Yes…” He looked uncomfortable, shifting his hand in Awsten’s.

“That’s great!” Ciara said, “See, Awsten! I told you so!”

Alex blinked and looked at Awsten. “I was… going to ask you myself.” He admitted to Alex.

“I-” He started to speak, but was cut off by Awsten pressing his lips to his. He leaned into it slightly, before pulling away. When they seperated, Awsten saw Ciara with her phone out, filming.

“Hey!”

Ciara smirked at him. “For the memories, you dork.”

“Thanks?"

“Well, ‘Lex, Awsten, we should probably all get back on the busses.” Lisa said to the two boys. “We could all hang out on the ATL bus, and kick Rian and Zack out and have them stay on the Parks bus.”

Alex nodded, and left breifly, asking Rian and Zack if they could stay on the Waterparks bus for a while. They didn’t ask any questions, but Zack seemed to realize something might be going on.

The quartet walked into the bus and sat down in the living space. Jack was in his bunk, probably watching Home Alone, so they had relative peace. Aside from Jack yelling something occasionally, they had quiet to talk.

“So are you going to tell the guys?” Ciara eventually asked.

Alex bit his lip, unsure. Lisa smiled softly at him. “Honestly, I think Jack would just be jealous that you didn’t fall for him.” He giggled at that.

“And Zack would-”

“Shhh he told us not to say it!” Ciara interupted her.

“Say what?” Jack yelled from the other room. “And who would I be jealous of?”

Alex squeezed Awsten’s hand tighter. Awsten wrapped his arms around him. “It’s okay, I’m here.” He whispered in his ear softly. Alex flinched slightly when Jack came into the room.

“You are correct, I am jealous. Why, Lexi, why must you abandon me! I shall not be okay!” He said dramatically, causing everyone to laugh.

“But seriously, I’m cool with it. Of course I would’ve prefered you waited about a week longer, so Zack would owe me money instead of me oweing him, but whatever. It’s about time.”

“You were betting on us?” Awsten asked.

“Yeah. It was Zack’s idea, actually. He saw how you two looked at eachother when you thought no one saw.”

The four just stared at Jack.

“And Zack totally understands the whole-”

“Jaaack!”

“Oh, right.”

They all sat in silence for a few seconds, before Jack went back to his bunk to watch more Home Alone.

“So… There’s that out of the way.” Lisa said.

“What about the fans?” Alex closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

“We don’t have to tell them if you don’t want, Alex.” Awsten spoke softly to the taller boy.

Alex took the opporitunity to plant a kiss on Awsten’s cheek. “Thanks…”

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Talks and attacks

“Awsten?” Alex said timidly, walking up to the boy with blue hair.

“Hi, ‘Lex!” He replied, putting away his phone. Instagram could wait, Alex Gaskarth was speaking. And he wanted to hear what he had to say.

“I need to talk to you about something, and I…” He trailed off, looking down and fidgeting with the hem of his shirt. To say he was scared would be an understatement. He was scared of Awsten’s reaction, he was scared of Awsten judging him for being so nervous, he was scared of having a panic attack and having Awsten see and being judged. What if he doesn’t want to date someone who can’t even keep himself from panicking in front of people? He didn’t want to be an embarrassment.

His breathing was getting faster and he realized that he wasn’t going to be able to stop this one. The most he could hope to do is get away before Awsten noticed that he was panicking.

He turned and ran down the street to a park that wasn’t far off, dropping himself roughly to the ground, drew his knees to his chest, and started crying heavily while trying to power through the panic attack.

A hand touched his shoulder softly and someone sat beside him. The person began to sing softly to him while running their hands through his hair.

“I’m right here, ‘Lex. Breathe. In, and out. In, and out.” They said quietly.

Eventually, he calmed down and looked up at the mystery person, eyes widening when they saw the blue haired beauty they had been trying to talk to before they ran off.

Awsten simply pulled Alex close, wishing he was more helpful and could do more for Alex during and after his attacks.

Alex sniffled and just lay with his head on Awsten’s chest, content with the current situation because, even if he did just have a panic attack, one of the people of his dreams was right there, comforting him.

“Alex, what were you gonna say?” Awsten mumbled to him.

It took him a minute to collect himself enough to say anything. “You. I like you… more than friends.”

Eyes widening, Awsten looked down at Alex, who looked quite tired and was looking up at Awsten for an answer, frowning when he saw Awsten’s face.

“I’ll just go…” He said.

Awsten grabbed him by the wrist as he stood up. “'Lex, I like you too. Dinner tomorrow? McDonald’s parking lot?”

Alex looked shocked but smiled and said, “Yes.”

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This time Awsten and Ciara

“Hey, Ciara?” Aforementioned girl looked up at her blue haired boyfriend.

“Yeah, babe?”

Awsten bit his lip and then said, “I need to talk to you. It’s important.”

Ciara grabbed Awsten by his arm and dragged him to her bunk, away from Geoff and Otto, who were playing video games in the small living area of the bus.

“What’s wrong, Awsten?” She demanded, concerned.

“I like this guy, but I also still love you, and I don’t know what to do.” He spoke softly, unsure of himself, and closed his eyes, fully ready for an explosion of anger, but it never came. When Ciara started to speak, he pulled his knees closer to his chest, afraid of what she’d say.

“Awsten…” She wanted to ask about him squeezing his eyes shut tighter and about him hugging his knees, but she decided to adress the issue at hand. “I don’t care. I’m totally fine with you dating someone else in addition to me. I’m more than willing to share.”

He looked up in awe, not expecting such a good reaction, and moved forward to kiss her on the cheek.

“Let me guess, its Alex.”

His mouth dropped open and he stammered. “I-uh… yes, actually.”

She gave him a knowing smile. No one knew it, but she liked to observe things very closely. She saw the way Awsten looked at Alex when he thought no one was looking, and the way Alex would look at him. She wanted to tell him that the man he was falling for liked him as well, but instead tried to drop hints.

“You should ask him out. I’m sure he’d say yes.”

“I don’t think so…” Awsten said.

“Who could ever say no to you?”

“But isn’t he straight? And he has Lisa.”

“Bi, actually. And Lisa would be totally cool with sharing.” Ciara grinned, having already been told about her and Alex’s conversation.

“Wait, how do you know?” Awsten asked, not sure she was telling the truth about either point.

“Well he told me. He only told me because he didn’t want any of the guys or Lisa treating him weirdly, but I think he’s starting to realize that the whole lot of them act so gay that no one would be surprised if any of them were in any way not straight.”

He didn’t comment on how she knew that Lisa would be okay with it, but he didn’t push the issue. He figured there might be a reason. And even if there wasn’t, he didn’t want to seem rude.

“O-okay.”

“Let’s go make sure Geoff hasn’t broken the TV, shall we?”

Awsten giggled, “Yeah, let’s go.”

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All Time Low songs explained by my sister

Somewhere in Neverland: Peter Pan and Wendy still don't want to grow up.

Backseat Serenade: The boys proudly show their Furrsonas to the public

Love like War: Panic! at the Cinema

For Baltimore: Why have they become a Cartoon now?

Dirty Laundry: Talk dirty to me... literally

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incase yall still dont know who vote for

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Lisa and Alex have a little talk

“Lisa?” Alex said to his wife nervously, picking at the hem of his shirt.

“Yeah, ‘Lex?” She turned around and saw Alex standing with his head down, staring at his feet. She knew that he didn’t get that nervous very often. Walking toward him, she took his hand in hers and brought her other hand to his face, startling him and causing him to look up. “Are you okay?” She asked, worried.

“I-” He took a breath, trying to calm himself down. It didn’t help very much. He looked down again and a couple tears leaked out.

Lisa was starting to get really worried. He never is like this anymore. She saw the tears on his face. “Alex? It’s okay, I’m right here. What’s wrong?” Guiding him gently to one of the couches that was backstage. They were some of the only people left in the venue.

They sat on the couch, Lisa sideways on Alex’s lap, one arm around his shoulders and the other running through his light brown hair. Alex was crying silently, looking down, his arms around Lisa. The two stayed that way for several minutes.

She told him softly, “Alex, you know you can talk to me. Please, what’s bothering you?” He sniffled quietly, and she gave him a small kiss on his cheek.

“I…” he mumbled something she could not hear.

“'Lex?” She asked him softly.

“I… I think I’m in love with someone… but I’m also still in love with you and I don’t want to screw everything up with either of you and… and I’m scared, Lisa. I don’t fucking know what to do anymore.” Lisa looked at the crying man she was sitting on, before leaning forward and kissing him softly.

He looked suprised and stuttered as she pulled away.

“'Lex, I’m fine with it.” He looked relieved. “I don’t know how I could ever abandon you for something like loving another. And even if you didn’t love me, I don’t think I could ever hate you for it. I mean, it isn’t your choice who you love.”

She grinned, “Now who is this mystery girl?”

“Boy…” He quietly corrected her.

“Right. Who’s the lucky guy, huh?” Alex smiled softly.

“Awsten…”

“Really?!” She asked excitedly. “You two would be so cute together!”

He smiled. “You really think so?” Lisa nodded.

“Yeah! So, when are you gonna ask him?”

Alex frowned and looked down. “I don’t know.”

“Listen, ‘Lex. I know you’re scared. Trust me, I felt the same way asking you out. But see how that turned out? Now I have a beautiful husband who I love with all my heart and who loves me. You never know what could happen. I mean, you might not be able to marry, but you dont need legal documents or a giant wedding to prove your love. And even if he says no, would it be better to ask and have a definate answer, or to not ask and never know if he feels the same or not? You never know, he could be asking Ciara the same thing right now!“

“I guess you’re right…” He sighed.

“Don’t feel pressured to ask, but please at least think about it, even if it scares you.”

She smiled and slid off his lap, grabbing his hand. “Now come on! Everyone must be wondering where we are!”

Before they went back to the busses, Alex pulled her closer to her and kissed her sweetly on the lips. “Thank you, babe.”

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yesss many yessss

bi trans girl harry potter with a huge crush on agender pan cedric diggory is my fav headcanon tbh.

amazing headcanon, anon.

i love the idea of cedric casually coming out as agender to all the champions sometime before the first task. fleur asks what pronouns cedric uses and they say “he or they is fine” and viktor nods sternly. “noted.” 

and questioning/closeted harry is externally confused and internally screaming because she’s never talked about stuff like this so casually and definitely never heard anything good about being trans back at the dursleys. she rushes after cedric once the group disbands. she tries to sound confident while asking cedric another question about gender but she trips over her words and can’t get them out. cedric just gets this knowing look and explains more about their personal experiences, then quietly lets harry know that if she has any questions about being agender, pansexual, or anything else cedric will always be happy to help. and harry feels the heat rising in her cheeks as the older hogwarts champion walks away.

they have several more meetings alone throughout the year. each time harry learns more from cedric and becomes more open about her own feelings and experiences. about a month after the second task she comes out as bi and trans. cedric pulls her into an enormous hug because they’re just so proud and happy for harry. harry returns it with the same intensity, happy to have such a wonderful person to come out to first.

cedric is a friend, mentor, and yes, harry’s first crush.

- mod snafu

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breathe in, breathe out. everything will be okay

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Alternatively Alex going on stage during a Waterparks song and giving Awsten a kiss

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awsten knight in a skirt would be so adorable tbh

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update i finished tagging them but it was very boring and exhausting

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i have three tiny chapter post things written and queued and i still need to write in the tags on two but im lazy af

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i cant wait until people actually look at my shit i should probably tag it so that happens

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my ship has substance fuck you