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tw ed

i wanna be as skinny as the pizza party slices i got in elementary school

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Oh how i miss you proana 2014 tumblr

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“If I quit now I will soon be back to where I started. And when I started, I was desperate to get to where I am now.”

— ~Unknown

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“Junk food you’ve craved for an hour, or the body you’ve craved for a lifetime? YOUR DECISION.”

— - Ana

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⚠️huge TW- selfharm, ed, suicide⚠️

what i want to be

i want to be pretty

i want to be thin

i want to be perfect

i want to be sick

i want people to ask themselves how i‘m still alive

i want them to worry

i want to kill myself

i want to starve myself to death

i want people to blame themselves

for not seeing what i made so obvious

i want to be seen

by anyone.

cause nothing hurts more then beeing invisible

i want to be seen.

i want to cry myself to sleep

i want to cut open my wrists

i want to bleed to death

if that’s what it takes to finally be noticed.

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at this point i don't even wanna be skinny anymore i just wanna look sick, i wanna look the way i feel because maybe then people would finally believe me when i say i am sick.

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Doing this rn😭

Fasting while watching eating disorder films is everything

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I want hollow cheeks and sunken eyes. collarbones that stand out. arms that look like they would snap if I picked up something too heavy with hands that look skeletal. thighs that don't touch and calves that don't jiggle. I want my hips to be sharp and my pants to barely cling on them. I want to be able to count all my ribs and my stomach to cave. my hands would shake , my body freezing , my vision spotty and head spinning when I get up. I wouldn't be scared to sit on someone's lap or be picked up. I want it so bad