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☾without you ☽ ✦﹒✶

- i got really tired at the end, apologies

neteyam x f! reader (aged up) ☆。⺌ warnings// angst/ language/ slight smut/ hurt/ mild violence ☆ word count -> 1.9k

====== neteyam, lo'ak, and y/n were only supposed to be scouting the raid, jake told you all specifically to stay out of trouble. but trouble is not something that is easily avoidable... =========

jake had let the three of you on his mission on the grounds that scouting for bogeys was the only thing you would be doing while he carried out his plan of shutting down a transport train that the sky people had passing through na'vi territory.

a gentle breeze blew through your hair as your ikran drifted through the clouds, but you was anything but calm. to your left was lo'ak and your right neteyam. the sight of neteyam perched on his ikran, his strong arms directing it, and his braids covering the upper part of his face made your stomach twist. you had been going on these missions in training with jake. you wanted to live up to your family's legacy of being fierce warriors and the sullys were family friends. you had known the two sully boys your whole life, but a new feeling rose up in you during these recent missions. the way neteyam always made sure you were always out of trouble and safe, or directing your body when teaching you how to better your archery skills made a heat collect in your lower body. you had always loved neteyam, but this was different. you were freshly 19 and neteyam had very much matured, you knew that you would both need to find a mate eventually, but you had been so preoccupied in your training that it hadn't crossed your mind. the thoughts added to your anxiety. you had been up there for a short time, but your nerves had made it feel like forever. there hadn't been any heat in the sky, but the train had just been blown off it's tracks and the ground squad was raiding it's contents for weapons. the sight of the large guns made lo'ak keen with interest.

"bro we have to go check it out," lo'ak shouted over the sound of the rushing wind.

neteyam gave him a stern look that said, absolutely not.

"dad will skin us!" he said in his typical brotherly tone.

"lo'ak i really don't think we should abandon our post," you said uneasily, eyes darting through the clouds.

before either of them could further convince lo'ak he took off towards the train with a laugh following the path of his ikran. neteyam gave you a look and followed after him with a growl.

you were close behind, and landed your ikran, sliding off of her and disconnecting the queue. lo'ak was holding a large weapon aiming it like he knew how to use it.

"you don't even know how to use that thing," neteyam said rolling his eyes.

"yes i do, dad taught me" lo'ak scoffed.

"you two are going to get us in trouble, jake is never going to let us do anything on missions again if we keep this up," you said trying to get the two to leave. the adrenaline in your body was making the dangerous situation more anxiety inducing.

"y/n's right, its not safe down here." neteyam said giving lo'ak another look.

"oh cmo-" lo'ak wasn't able to finish his sentence as one of the gunships that had been taken down hurled toward them.

you couldn't even make it to your ikran before you hit the ground in a painful tumble. pain was shooting through your body. you couldn't see anything but the dust that was choking your vision and the rubble flying towards the ground. your lower abdomen was on fire and your ears were ringing in the most horrible way. pure panic filled you.

a mangled cry for help left your mouth, but you couldn't find the strength to escape the terror that seemed to immobilize you. looking down you saw the cause of your immobility. a large piece of metal debri stook out of your side and a numbness overtook you. the sight was so nauseating and your vision went from fuzzy for black.

you felt strong arms hoist you up. and you immediately recognized their familiarity.

"get her on that ikran and out of here. now." you could hear the boom of jakes voice.

"i've got her," you felt neteyam's chest vibrate at his words.

you felt the roughness of his ikran on your skin and the way his hand tied your body to him to ensure you didn't slide off as he took to the setting sky.

"ne-teyam.." you mangled out, trying to open your eyes more. but the pain held your words in your throat.

"hey hey its ok, don't move, we're almost there," neteyam comforted you.

the last thing you remember was the suffocating pain that raked your body and the look on neteyam's face when your eyes rolled back into your head.

his body was shaking from the panic he felt, you had never looked so weak in his life, and the part of the metal he couldn't remove from your body hung out from an angry gash in your side. He held on to you in desperation and flew to the village as fast as he possibly could without causing you any pain.

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your eyes fluttered open as you two landed in the hallelujuah mountain base. you were huffing trying to grit through the pain as neteyam untethered you and carried you bridal style to his grandmother. you look up at him for solace and were met his pleading yellow eyes.

"its ok, you're ok, just hang in there." he said shakily.

his name was the only thing that seemed to make it past your lips.

he barged into the tent and mo'at's hands immediately found your body. tuk let out a cry when she saw your state.

"y/n, what happened to y/n!?"

neteyam set you down as gently as he could. he was ushered away from your form as mo'at and kiri urgently got to work trying to help.

"one of the gunships exploded, and she was right there" neteyam said running a nervous hand through his hair.

"did you try to take this out," kiri questioned motioning to the large piece of metal mo'at was carefully trying remove. crys leaving you at her actions.

"yes. i didn't know what to do, she wouldn't have fit on my ikran if i had." neteyam said, scared he may have hurt you more in his efforts.

"please— i... neteyam make it stop—" your cries were killing neteyam.

if you left him before he ever told you how he really felt or left him with a y/n sized hole in his heart, he didn't know if would live. eywa have you in her prayers. what if he never made you his mate. or held you. or felt your touch or shared his love with you. he was spiraling. he didn't think anything anything mattered more than you. he was going to kill lo'ak for this.

neteyam was forced out of the tent by kiri and he stood there for several moments consumed with worry. the cry of his dad's ikran made him snap out of his thoughts and towards the sound.

he made his way to his father his head bowed in shame. he had never felt this much regret in his life. he failed his duties, and he let y/n and lo'ak get in danger.

"what were you thinking. you know better, you're supposed be the older brother." jake seethed. his teeth showing as he glanced between his two sons.

"i understand sir, i didn't mean to let this happen." neteyam said.

"you're right, this wasn't supposed to happen. and, it won't happen again because you two are grounded. no flying for the rest of the month and no more missions."

before lo'ak could say anything neteyam let out a "yes sir." and submitted to his father.

"lo'ak go tend to the ikrans." jake directed towards his youngest.

"but—" lo'ak tried.

"now." he growled.

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neteyam spent the night by your side, petting your hand and watching for any signs of discomfort. he could barely sleep. his heart tangled in worry.

when you finally woke up your voice was groggy.

"neteyam... are you ok, is lo'ak ok?"

the first thing you were worried about was him and his brother and neteyam felt his soul light up with his admiration for you.

"i'm ok, of course i'm ok. i thought i lost you y/n." worry was laced in his words. he was dabbing your forehead with a wet cloth and his hand were dusting across your skin. you closed your eyes at the feeling. the pain in your side was duller than when the wound was made, but it still throbbed angrily. the feeling of neteyam's touch was lulling you. it felt so good it distracted you from every other sensation.

you grabbed his hand and pressed it to your face. your brain was thinking the straightest. "that feels good," your face was hot but his hands were cold and easing your pain.

his ears twitched at your words, and he noticed the way your body keened towards him. did you feel the same about him? he softly began tracing the glowing freckles on your face and made his way down to your lips. you eased up off the mat and rested your weight against him. you were so close that if he leaned forward he could close the distance between the two of you. your tail wrapped around his calf, and you hazily peered at him.

the air in the room was heavy and there seemed to be a very obvious understanding between the two of you. neteyam leaned forward and kissed you with the delicacy of a shimmyfly's wings. you lost your breath in the kiss, and reached for his arm. the lean muscle grounded you and you let neteyam ease you onto your back. he was being so gentle. the feeling making you lose any sense you may have previously had. he ran his hand along your thighs, careful to avoid your injury. his kisses peppering along your neck, his teeth grazing your neck. a whimper escaped you and neteyam's tail flicked at the sound. his scent was intoxicating.

the way y/n, who was always so fierce and serious, was underneath neteyam's large frame in submission was sending his mind into a fog. before he entered a state of little judgement, he stop his soft assault on your skin, much to your dismay.

you both sat there breathing heavily. your pupils like large disks, raking over neteyam's body.

"when you are better, and i can give myself to you y/n, i will." he was playing with the beads in your hair.

you whined, "neteyam, i'm fine it barely even hurts anymore, i've waited so long for you"

he took your hands and pulled you slightly to up towards him, sitting you in his lap. you let out a slight sound of pain at the action and neteyam gave you a look. "barely hurts?"

you let out a soft laugh and settled with the feeling of neteyam comforting you as his hands raked along your back. you both had admitted your feelings for eachother in your own way and you knew there would time to do much more in the future.

"cmon let's get those bandages changed," he said using his strength to lift your slender body, "you'll heal in no time." his signature smiled flashing across his face.

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i finished this so incredibly late but i hope it wasn't too bad. hopefully more to come in the future... it's been so long since i last wrote anything !

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