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French Chris by Nan Goldin, 1979

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i started reading othello, and i feel myself emerging from this hellscape of a reading slump. i missed reading shakespeare so much - god knows why i didn't just return back to him when i was struggling

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Solitary Figure in a Theater, Edward Hopper (1903)

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but the suit changes nothing...and again i'm kissing lestat on the altar...

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i miss leda and wish they kept her character on the show for longer if for nothing else but how real she was (part of the dykes for brian kinney movement)

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if beale street could talk; james baldwin

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Andrew Wyeth, The Witching Hour, 1977.

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I don't believe in love, I believe in fucking. It's honest, it's efficient. You get in and out with the maximum of pleasure and a minimum of bullshit. Love is something straight people tell themselves they're in so they can get laid, and then they end up hurting each other because it was all based on lies to begin with. If that's what you want, then go and find yourself a pretty little girl, and get married.

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i started crying the second brian started listening to the news report on the radio and couldn't stop from then on, but i started SOBBING when he said i love you to justin.... oh my god

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the writing in qaf s5 - particularly regarding justin - really frustrates me. i feel like brian and justin's breakup completely contradicts so much of the growth and the different arcs they crafted. the whole point of s3 and s4 was brian and justin coming to an understanding about what their relationship and their desires were and making it work For Them (which included more vulnerability from brian) and not caring about societal expectations or what their friends think

if so much of brian and justin's relationship - one of the cores of the entire show - rests in the idea that justin sees past the tough guy, emotionally untouchable exterior brian projects and really Sees Him and Understands Him better than anyone else, then it doesn't make (consistent) sense that he thinks brian doesn't want the same thing as him (long-term commitment). within s5 alone, brian called them a couple, moved in with justin, jokingly (but let's be serious lol) called justin "mon amour," and then said he and justin would be spared such a dismal fate of their relationship ending because of marrriage which indicates he wanted to be with him long-term and saw him as his partner (which he also called him explicitly in s4). these are all things s1 brian would have never dreamed of doing - and justin knows this - so i don't understand why he would suddenly believe Brian Doesn't Change when in fact he has. also, it feels so odd to include that scene with the married couple they had sex with - who discussed their non traditional marriage - and then just Never explore that again? that could have opened up a really interesting discussion, or exploration, into what the next phase of a longer term relationship looked like for them, especially if one decides to go down the road of justin wanting even more commitment. furthermore, all the characters feeling like caricatures of themselves aside, i feel like the increase in intensity of brian's anti-marriage sentiment makes sense when you consider the combination of his friends (especially his best friend) settling down and creating their own little families/units mixed with his own abandonment issues. if marriage constantly breaks up units in his life (childhood aside look at melanie and lindsey's dominant arc this season) or creates distance within preexisting relationships (his & michael's) over and over again, of course brian is going to go to the extremes. i feel like justin would've seen that or gotten hints of that and some sort of communication could've been forced out of him since justin understands him and his moves (like s4 when brian pushed him away because of his cancer) and led to more communicative growth on brian's end

additionally, s5 justin's personality and desires felt like such a dramatic shift from the end of s4, but that's a whole different discussion. anyway, i feel like the s5 writers were scrambling for ideas to create drama and decided to betray so much of what they built. (... which already has some problems but y'know what i mean). but who knows, i still have around 4(? i'm on episode 9) episodes left of the season. i love justin and these characters so much, so it's just a shame to see this occur

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'2 partially buried sinks,' 1986-7 in robert gober: the heart is not a metaphor - moma (2014)

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got multiple texts asking if i saw the tom cruise super bowl intro/them talking about it in general... my legacy is an incredible thing

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Achilles Lamenting the Death of Patroclus and Andromache Bewailing the Death of Hector by Gavin Hamilton

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MOONSTRUCK (1987) dir. Norman Jewison