astoldbysebastian

[astoldbysebastian]

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It's a yearly thing.

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TEXT MESSAGE, 04/07. SAM ⇄ SEBASTIAN

SAM: On the floor.

SEBASTIAN: Done.

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TEXT MESSAGE, 04/07. SAM ⇄ SEBASTIAN

SAM: Then I'll be seeing you soon!

SEBASTIAN: Do you want my clothes already on the floor or would you rather get them there yourself?

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TEXT MESSAGE, 04/07. SAM ⇄ SEBASTIAN

SAM: Sounds good to me.

SEBASTIAN: Door's unlocked.

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TEXT MESSAGE, 04/07. SAM ⇄ SEBASTIAN

SAM: I am never too busy for me and you!

SEBASTIAN: My place?

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TEXT MESSAGE, 04/07. SAM ⇄ SEBASTIAN

SAM: You are everything I need. I promise.

SEBASTIAN: Are you busy tonight?

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TEXT MESSAGE, 04/07. SAM ⇄ SEBASTIAN

SAM: You're pretty sweet sometimes.

SEBASTIAN: You deserve that. All the time.

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TEXT MESSAGE, 04/07. SAM ⇄ SEBASTIAN

SAM: I love you more than anything.

SAM: I used to be so scared nobody would ever want me the way you do.

SEBASTIAN: I want you in every way one person can want another.

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TEXT MESSAGE, 04/07. SAM ⇄ SEBASTIAN

SAM: You don't get it.

SAM: I don't even know the names of the people who fucked me up the most.

SAM: So it sucks that things aren't the way I want them all the time, but that doesn't make me think of you as someone who hurts me, Sebastian.

SAM: I get sick just thinking about things that happened to me and all the shit those people did to me, what they said to me, how they didn't stop.

SAM: I've cried over you, dude, but not like that.

SAM: I know how it feels to be around people who are bad for me, who hurt me over and over. You're not one of them.

SEBASTIAN: I hate everyone who ever got to lay a hand on you.

SEBASTIAN: I hate everyone who acted like they had any right to treat you like shit, to do things to you as if they fucking had any right to.

SEBASTIAN: I hate that I didn't know you then.

SEBASTIAN: I hate that I ever made you cry.

SEBASTIAN: I hate myself for being scared all the fucking time.

SEBASTIAN: But I love you.

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TEXT MESSAGE, 04/07. SAM ⇄ SEBASTIAN

SAM: I broke your heart. I didn't mean to do it but it happened and it's not like there's anything wrong with you being scared of how bad it could be if we don't work.

SAM: I mean, I'm afraid of losing you but it freaks me out to think I'll never really have you again.

SAM: I'm always going to need more of you.

SEBASTIAN: You're the only person who's ever going to have me.

SEBASTIAN: Like that's the bottom line.

SEBASTIAN: I fuck everything up and I hurt you a lot.

SEBASTIAN: But I will always want you.

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TEXT MESSAGE, 04/07. SAM ⇄ SEBASTIAN

SAM: I'm sorry nothing I do is good enough.

SEBASTIAN: You don't need to apologize for me being an asshole.

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TEXT MESSAGE, 04/07. SAM ⇄ SEBASTIAN

SAM: You know you're who I want. It doesn't need to be this hard.

SEBASTIAN: I know.

[a few minutes later]

SEBASTIAN: I'm sorry.

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TEXT MESSAGE, 04/07. SAM ⇄ SEBASTIAN

SAM: I don't want to stop trying.

SEBASTIAN: I don't have plans to be with anyone else.

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TEXT MESSAGE, 04/07. SAM ⇄ SEBASTIAN

SAM: Is that really what you care about right now?

SEBASTIAN: Every time we have that conversation it doesn't go anywhere, and we talk in circles, and then we get pissed at each other.

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TEXT MESSAGE, 04/07. SAM ⇄ SEBASTIAN

SAM: And then I messed up everything.

[a little while later]

SEBASTIAN: Little under a month til your birthday.

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TEXT MESSAGE, 04/07. SAM ⇄ SEBASTIAN

SAM: The problem is I don't.

SEBASTIAN: I do.

SEBASTIAN: You've been too good for me since day one, Blondie.

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TEXT MESSAGE, 04/07. SAM ⇄ SEBASTIAN

SAM: You deserve better than me anyway.

SEBASTIAN: Shut up, you know that's bullshit.