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[asquietasamouse-blog1]

Note to a Lost Friend.

I have lost enough in your form . I have no reason to hate you or dislike you but it seems like you took my abilities to trust myself and people , basically it just made me disbelieve everything .

I have always had that cage around me for my emotions and feelings and everything, you must know that you took me out of the cage. But I never knew the world without you , it was always with you. It's strange , without you again but now I'm not able to embrace the strangeness , I don't want to go inside that cage , neither do I want to stay here. I solemnly believe that is the only reason I begged you to stay but I do understand that you have a different and happiest journey to continue. I cannot breathe at times and I try really hard to exist but my days aren't days anymore, it's just the darkness.

I understand I will crave for you forever and not want you or have you by my side ever. But it looks like you will never remember me . I'm happy atleast , I lost my friend for the happy reason of you being happy.

This started with your trace suspicion which infected us so vastly that only one of us can survive being happy I guess and it's not me.

But at times I keep wondering you left me something I always stood by you. Why was I not supposed to even speak about the things that killed me , to not cry about what was hurting me ? To not ask for help when I really needed a hand , a shoulder to cry , why did you leave me at the lowest ?

I never thought that I ever deserved love , never will I ever think that . But I loved you truly and always will in which ever corner I choose to stay.

#LostLove #LoveUnrequited #Friendship #SomeoneSpecial

[asquietasamouse-blog1]

We never learn until we fall and at times we don't learn even after falling a lot more times and also there are times when we learn but can't help and fall again. And that cycle of falling , rising and healing that goes on . But do you actually heal ? Because everytime you fall , those minute little parts they are lost , so we are actually transforming with subtraction. Well , if the whole process is called experience and everyone goes through that , why can't we just present our experiences as facts ? That might save so many falls.

But you really cannot stop someone , it's their life to fall and get up and learn.

That's even ethically correct afterall that's not your life to save.

#ItIsWhatItIs #IDontKnowHashtags #Sad #Lonely #Heartbreak #Experience #StayAway #LostFriend