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"But... weren't you the one who suggested going here?" Izuku was confused. Why would someone suggest a place they didn't even like for a date? That didn't make sense.

"Or did you ask Uraraka and she told you?" He felt betrayed. He only told her about his secret dream of a first date at an aquarium because she promised to keep quiet!

"They are doing they same as we do, just in water. And some of them are so intelligent, it's fascinating!" He would have talked about his second favourite sea animal, the octopus, one of the most intelligent beings in the world but if Todoroki didn't even like sea creatures, then he shouldn't bore him with his blabbering.

Todoroki's question though, about what to do on a date was adorable. Not that Izuku had much more experience with dates than he did but he at least knew some things. For example that Todoroki either was really clueless or extremely smooth in complementing.

"You just have to be like you normally are and enjoy your time. That's all what a date is about. And getting to know each other of course." That was the easiest way to describe a date even though there was a lot more you can do. But Izuku thought that was enough for the first one anyway.

The recall of his excited rambling from before left him with pink tinted cheeks. It was kinda embarrassing, him going to school clad in the costume suit of his favourite superhero, Iron Man.

"About that... it's nothing, just an embarrassing thing I used to do as a kid, nothing worth discussing..."

Well, apparently Shoto didn’t even get a choice in the matter. He definitely wasn’t who the other was looking for, but he also wasn’t sure he wanted to upset the other by mentioning that - not in such a public place. “I’m not sure what’s so impressive about fish.” He stated, blunt as ever. 

“Or any animal, for that matter. They’re just..” He waved a hand in an odd motion, not exactly sure what he was trying to show. “They’re just swimming- Doing… fish things?” He obviously had no idea what he was talking about beyond that.

“I’ve never been on.. a date, before. So I’m not entirely sure what to do. Am I just meant to.. look at you? and act like I think you’re cute?” It was a genuine question, that much was obvious from his tone of voice. “Not that you’re not cute, of course, I’m just confused.” He didn’t really speak after that, only looked down at his shoes, as if worried he’d offended Midoriya.

(as if worried the other would hurt him for it because Shoto was always used to pain and nothing else. the way the other acted - kind, gentle - was completely out of the ordinary for what Shoto knew of other people. 

“You… mentioned a hero costume..”

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He would never get the self blame out of him, would he? Shoto was just like this, taking everything on himself. A personality trait his father helped to shape. And Izuku couldn't do anything to change that.

"Okay," he nodded, to at least give a little bit of reassurance to the desperate sounding hero. Even if he would feel bad for keeping him from work, if Shoto would feel better by helping him then Izuku wouldn't ever think of saying no to him. As if he could say no to Shoto.

The doctor wrote everything down, his mother's and Shoto's name and a few other names of his former classmates who they asked for help as well. Uraraka said she would love to help but couldn't due her being overseas but Iida, Kirishima and Tokoyami immediately said they would help. There was also a restriction of names to put down since the hospital needed to keep up with everything. Too many people would just mean chaos.

But Izuku was fine with it as long as he could get out of here.

He was discharged not long after that for the doctor not being able to do more for him. He could do resting at home as well.

After getting dressed (he only had his dirty hero costume and he felt bad putting it on again but nothing he could change at the moment) he walked at the side of Shoto through the hallways of the hospital.

"Sorry," he apologized automatically again. They were probably moving in slow motion with Izuku being disoriented and cautious about everything around him.

“Midoriya. It’s nothing about fairness, I promise. I want to help you and I can agree that everyone else would too. However, I can’‘t take four weeks off, that’s the only reason behind it.” Shoto was a high ranking hero, he’d be expected to pick up everything so Midoriya would be able to come back to a city that wasn’t full of crime.

“We’re all going to make it easier on you when you can return to work, too, alright?” He hummed. “If I could spend four weeks away, I’d do it in a heartbeat, Midoriya.”

“I’ll be there are much as possible, alright? I can take a week in and a week out, but even then I’ll still need to do office work so that everyone can be efficient in the field while we’re away.” He didn’t want to be away from Izuku, not right now.

“It’s my fault so I’ll look after you as much as I’m able. Please let me.” If he didn’t even fix his own mistakes (as if this could be fixed), then he was no better a hero than his father.

“Please.”

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That was an odd statement, Izuku thought. Wether Todoroki meant the films or the healthy sleep schedule, it was still an odd thing to say but Izuku let it slide for now. He still had to learn a lot about the other but right now didn't seem the right time for asking, not after all this confusion.

So he followed Todoroki's offer and sat on the edge of the bed, smoothing with one hand over the fabric of the duvet.

"We don't have to watch anything if you don't want to," Izuku said quietly, crossing his legs and hiding his hands inside his sleeves, "we could also just talk. We don't have to do things just because everyone else does it."

Izuku didn't know a thing about relationships and boyfriends and romance but he did know that they could move by any pace they wanted and they could do anything they desired.

One thing his mother often said to him was, that there isn't an instruction manual for life. Surely that included relationships, right?

“I wouldn’t know.” It didn’t matter what Shoto was referring to exactly - whether the sleep schedule statement or the Disney movies. Shoto was never one for sleeping, he struggled with it.

Some nights drowning in sadness and anxiety, others spent screaming in the early hours, choked gasps and sobs and the phantom of burning on his eye. Nightmares often plagued Shoto, but they would never leave, for he couldn’t hide from traumatic memories and the horrors in his head.

However, perhaps, for now - he could learn to ignore them.

“I think so.” Lips twisted into a small smile, entering his bedroom. “I’ve never been one for watching films, it’s just.. A date idea, right? I have some.” However, Shoto spent far too much time writing to watch any of them.

“You can sit on the bed, I’ll get my films from the cabinet.”

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A hand in the other’s, one on his waist - Izuku’s matched, but his free hand was on Shoto’s shoulder instead. He was careful to lead the dance, considering it had started raining part of the way into their practise, something that irked Shoto to know end.

“I’m sorry that we’ll have to cut this short, Izuku.” Quiet words bit through the sound of rain dripping as he removed his hand from the other’s waist, gently tugging at his hand as he started to walk inside.

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Nightmare Starters!

For your angsty nightmare needs!

My Muse is Having Nightmares:

“Are you okay? It sounded like you were having a bad dream…”

“Wanna talk about it?”

“Do you get these nightmares a lot?”

“When was the last time you slept?”

“Staying awake won’t help.”

“I could sleep next to you if you want.”

“It was just a dream, okay?”

“You woke up screaming…”

Your Muse is Having Nightmares:

“It was horrible…”

“No, I don’t want to talk about it.”

“I get them almost every night…”

“Can’t sleep. Won’t sleep. Never sleep. Can’t make me sleep. They’ll get me.”

“I don’t know, not sleeping seems to be helping to me,”

“Please sleep with me…”

“It felt so real…”

“Was I screaming…? Really?”

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Werewolf-Themed Starter Sentences

My muse is a werewolf

“I think I’m going to stay in tonight. I’m not feeling well.” “I don’t want to hurt you.” “It hurts.” “It doesn’t hurt.” “I need you to know what I really am.” “Don’t be scared.” “I would never hurt you.” “Sometimes I just can’t control myself.” “I’m dangerous.”

Your muse is a werewolf

“What’s happening to you?!“ “Who made you like this?” “Please…don’t hurt me!” “It’s a full moon tonight.” “Does it hurt when you…you know?” “Is it contagious?” “Tell me how you became like this.” “I’m not scared of you.” “I don’t care what you are.” “I’m scared of you.”

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// Just a test! Reblog it if my muse can jump in your askbox without annoying the mun!

Come on over.

[askmochideku]

Nightmare Starters!

For your angsty nightmare needs!

My Muse is Having Nightmares:

“Are you okay? It sounded like you were having a bad dream…”

“Wanna talk about it?”

“Do you get these nightmares a lot?”

“When was the last time you slept?”

“Staying awake won’t help.”

“I could sleep next to you if you want.”

“It was just a dream, okay?”

“You woke up screaming…”

Your Muse is Having Nightmares:

“It was horrible…”

“No, I don’t want to talk about it.”

“I get them almost every night…”

“Can’t sleep. Won’t sleep. Never sleep. Can’t make me sleep. They’ll get me.”

“I don’t know, not sleeping seems to be helping to me,”

“Please sleep with me…”

“It felt so real…”

“Was I screaming…? Really?”

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I definitely coud use this, this is awesome!

Alright, so I have spent the better part of two days doing this. As writers I know that it is hard to come up with different words some times, and I have had some guides that I use to help. The one in the middle is off tumblr, and I haven’t the faintest idea who made it, but hopefully they don’t mind me using it in this. All the words on the outside were given to me by someone I look up to in terms of writing. It was this big old word document, and all but one of the ‘sections’ have made it onto here. These are big enough to be references, and I have it set as a rotating desktop on my computer.

Honestly I just wanted to share, so use them if you want, but please do not claim you made them.

[askmochideku]

Hey Guys and Girls

It's me. I'm trying to be a little more active on here from now on.

I still have to work but I'm here now for a bit over a month and I think I can find enough time to be here regularly.

I also would like to get to know my followers better and for them to get to know me. Do if you have any questions or anything else you want to tell me, go ahead, don't be shy. I'm all ear^^

[askmochideku]

"That- That's fine, too. Everybody who wants to, can help, not... only Todoroki..." He felt ashamed of himself that he hadn't thought about that possibility. Of course Todoroki couldn't stay with him every hour of the day for four weeks, he also needed to sleep and to be by himself and study and-

Yeah, that was the better solution, having everyone to help him. Even though he was disappointed that Todoroki couldn't be there the whole time, he knew that he couldn't keep him to himself. Although, a small voice in his head told him to be selfish, just this time. He'd always made sacrifices for others, was living as selfless as possible because he was taught that that's the right thing. But right now he wanted to be selfish and keep Todoroki by his side for at least those four weeks.

But he knew he couldn't.

"That wouldn't be fair to you, would it?" Izuku tried to hide his disappointment, forced a smile and nodded in acceptance.

He didn't know if they would believe him but he hoped that they at least couldn't see the guilt eating him away. Another reason why he didn't want his entire friend group to help. They had work to do (and so did Todoroki) and he would be just a burden to them, keeping them from work and bother them with his problem.

"I'm sorry, Todoroki, you don't have to do this, nobody of you have to... I- I can just ask my mum to help me, if you don't want to. I know I would just hold you back and keep you from working. Others need you more than I do..."

“I can try.” He muttered, hesitantly. “I believe it’d be best if our entire friendship group helped because we all have.. odd hours and with Midoriya out of commission, we’ll all be working twice as hard.” It wasn’t said in an annoyed tone, just matter-of-factly, as if it was nothing more than a work issue.

“I’ll make sure that someone is with him at all times, however. I wouldn’t want him to be alone.” It was hard enough facing him knowing this was all his fault, nevermind leaving him all alone - that would only shatter Izuku’s trust in him.

He was surprised the other even had any left for Shoto, who definitely didn’t deserve such a blessing.

He was glad, at the least, that it was only temporary. It took a little bit of the weight off his chest. If it had been permanent, Shoto wasn’t sure if he’d ever stop blaming himself - but he could move past it if this was the case.

He could move past this, with Izuku.

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"No, no, it's fine! After all, I don't want to disturb your roommates sleep. Having a healthy sleep schedule is important and step one to get good grades!"

He was really allowed into Todoroki's room, that was so exciting! Izuku always thought that one's own room tells so much about the personality of oneself and Izuku wanted to learn as much as possible about Todoroki.

He stayed close to him while Todoroki was leading him to his room. It felt like something was missing when he got to far away. Maybe because he had to grow up without a father and was touch starved, or maybe he was just desperate and needy but he wanted to keep his new boyfriend close, wanted to feel the heat radiating from him. But he would compromise if Todoroki didn't want to or wasn't used to so much skinship. He wasn't an idiot, he noticed him keeping his distance after their cuddle session in front of the door.

"What movie are we gonna watch? Do you have Disney? They're my favourite!"

That was all too much. 

“Yes-” He murmured at the suggestion to eat the pizza, taking the chance to move away from Midoriya. He wasn’t too used to touch and he was beginning to feel a little overwhelmed, moreso from how.. intimate, it felt, to be held and to be kissed, to just have someone there to comfort him.

“Come.” He picked up the pizza box, leading him inside. “I have a television in my room, so that I don’t wake up my roommate. Night classes and such.” He wasn’t even sure he had really spoken much to his roommate.

It didn’t matter to Shoto, though. Izuku was there and that was what mattered. “Is.. is it okay to sit in my room? We can stay in the rest of the dorm if you like, I don’t want to make anything awkward.”

After all, it was odd to invite someone into his room, even if it was just to watch a film.

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"It's a pleasure to finally meet you, Todoroki-kun. That's such a pretty name!" Izuku was grinning from ear to ear, enjoying being here more every passing minute. Not only was the boy very pretty, he also had a really nice voice and was kinda shy. Izuku immediately felt himself drawn to him, feeling the urge to get to know him better.

"Well, let's go! I'm excited to see all the fish, I especially want to see the dolphins, I heard you can even pet them, is that true?" Open curiosity was displayed on his face while he looked at Todoroki questioningly. He couldn't stand still, to excited to enter the aquarium to see all the colourful fish and to show his date all his favourites (all of them).

Practically dragging Todoroki to the entrance he was talking nonstop, seemingly without taking a breath between sentences but he was just that excited. He hoped Todoroki wouldn't get bored of him while they had to wait before they were granted entry, he didn't want to bore his date to death before they even started.

But Izuku had the habit of talking about himself whenever the was excited or nervous. And he was both at the moment.

"So my mum went to buy me that super cool hero costume and I was wearing it even to school, even though we weren't allowed to- Oh, it's our turn. Two tickets, please!"

The man in the ticket booth gave them their tickets and they were free to go through the dark entrance of the aquarium. They were immediately surrounded by dim light, shining slightly through the tanks on them and for the first time since meeting Todoroki Izuku was quiet. He looked astonished around, taking everything in.

It was like they were transported into a magical underwater world, everything seemed so different, slow and tranquil. It was beautiful.

When someone tapped him on the shoulder, Shoto had turned around, as anyone would. However, he didn’t recognise the person and had been to ask what was going on when the other spoke.

Shoto hadn’t recalled agreeing to meet with anyone, but he didn’t interrupt - it only grew more weird when the other (who admittedly, Shoto found quite cute) mentioned that it was a date.

… Date?

Despite the fact he was confused, he did not express it, simply offering an awkward shake of the head and hoping the other understood he was attempting to say he wasn’t his date. 

Shoto had never been on a date before and he didn’t recall signing up for a blind date or asking anyone on a date. He wasn’t even sure who Uraraka was - although, he did vaguely remember Yaoyorozu had mentioned someone by that name.

He supposed it couldn’t hurt to walk around with someone, even under false pretences. It wasn’t as if he wanted to, but he didn’t feel like looking lonely and breaking his heart, either. “Todoroki Shoto.” He muttered, his voice monotone as always.

It did seem as if he was bored or disinterested, but that was just how Shoto always sounded. He only hoped Midoriya didn’t take it personally. “It’s nice to meet you.” Sort of. It wasn’t terrible, but it was awkward being mistaken for someone’s date.

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"I'm sorry... I'm new at this stuff." Izuku tentatively took a few steps forward but still hesitating to get to close to the terrified looking boy. It was his fault that he looked like that and he didn't want to make it worse.

"I've just... started today... yeah." It sounded believable enough, at least with this excuse he hoped he won't ask too many questions.

Izuku fiddled with his hands, not knowing what to do with them. He wanted to touch him again, stroke his soft looking hair, his red tinted cheeks, wipe those stray tears away but he couldn't. He wouldn't dare to touch him again, ever, if he had to. Izuku never intended to hurt the boy, he wouldn't dare even if his life was on the line.

But when he came into the room and finally saw him, was standing in front of him after such a long time observing Shoto, he just couldn't hold himself back. His beauty mesmerising, his soft features having him captured, the way he stared at him, watching his every movement was so fascinating, so absolutely compelling that he didn't bother to think about the result of his actions and leant over him to press their lips together.

His first mistake. Of course he couldn't just kiss someone on their first meeting, even if Izuku knew Shoto for many years but try telling that his stupid, silly heart. And then running away, his second mistake. Izuku was good at running, he always did run from his problems, which was why he was in this sticky situation now.

If things went like he'd wanted he would have continued watching Shoto from afar but then he had to fuck up and landed himself on earth, supposed to take care of his long time crush (if you could call it that, something like crushes are not known in heaven) and heal him. And if he didn't succeed he was not allowed to come back. Great.

Taking a seat on the only chair in the room, a good few meters away from Shoto, not daring to come closer, he watched the boy nervously and waited. Waited for an explanation to appear out of nowhere so he could ease the tension and excuse himself at the same time. But of course there was none. No excuse for kissing someone out of the blue.

"I... no, I don't have an explanation. I'm sorry, really, I am." It sounded pathetic even to his own ears.

"And actually, I do know you. I know you very well. I have known you for a long time, I just haven't imagined you would look so much prettier up close. I'm sorry again."

He really was pathetic, as if he would ever believe him. Shoto would think he was a weirdo, report him to the hospital for being a stalker and for sexual harassment and he would be thrown out, never able to complete his mission and go back home.

Izuku was doomed.

Fallen Angel

Anyone else would have stayed away, so it was odd that the other had returned. Midoriya Izuku was definitely odd - he didn’t need much time knowing him to figure it out. Then again, he had kissed Shoto after having just met him. It would have been weird if Shoto thought Izuku was normal.

“You don’t have to act like I’ll fall apart at one touch.” He snapped, hands still shaking, although his breathing was slightly more stable. “I’m not fragile.” Maybe he was - maybe such a saying was ironic, considering Shoto had nearly fallen apart because of one silly thing.

“Don’t act like I am.”

That was what he hated most about his illness. Everyone walked on eggshells around him, trying not to touch him because they were terrified of Shoto’s breakdowns. He was tired of being pitied by others, both strangers and those he cared for.

He didn’t want that from someone he’d only just met, too. It was exhausting enough when his family would visit and they’d avoid sitting close to him because they were terrified to touch him. Nowadays, no one came to visit, as if they worried coming and then leaving would set him off too.

“Don’t treat me like I’m a child either. I- I can handle seeing someone’s hands.” It made it easier for him, too. If he couldn’t see, then he couldn’t know if someone was going to touch him, couldn’t avoid it.

“Sit if you want, you don’t need permission..” As long as Midoriya wasn’t too close, then that was alright. He could deal with that. It had been a momentary lapse in his mental state, but the anxiety and such was fading.

Even if it resurfaced later, he would be able to deal with it fine.

“Are you going to explain yourself, then? Why kiss me and run away?” He didn’t look at him. “Why kiss me in general? I don’t even know you..” It was an odd concept, to want to do that to someone the man didn’t even know.

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Hello guys, it's me, sadly without a real post again.

I'm really having a hard time to find any time to be on Tumblr these days because my days are packed and once I get to bed in the evening I'm to tired to write anything or do much at all.

I'm so so sorry for all the people who are waiting for me to continue our threads, I hope when school starts again I will get more time to do so, since the kids will be away (for those who didn't read my last post, I'm an au pair in England at the moment).

So please be patient with me, I'm going to make another roost as soon as I get more time!

[askmochideku]

The test results were pretty clear. Non-permanent blindness for at least four weeks due to a serious brain injury, personal assistance for the time span in which he was blind and a lot of rest prescribed so that he wouldn't make it worse.

Izuku got the lecture about being careful at work after he had slept for a few hours and even though he was not doing anything more than lying down listening to the doctor's nagging, sleeping and crying he felt completely exhausted.

Todoroki never left his side for which he was incredibly thankful.

When he asked who his personal assistant would be, the doctor said he could choose someone and the hospital would see if they were good enough. That's because they think that a friend or a family member would be the better solution in such a situation than someone he didn't know but if he couldn't find someone who could do it, then the hospital had to provide someone.

"I'll take Todoroki!" He immediately told them, not even thinking about it for long.

"I- I mean if he wants- if he wants to, of course," he stuttered afterwards, realising that he maybe wouldn't want to assist him after all he had to go though because of him.

"If he would do it, he would need to stay by your side twenty-four hours a day, until your eyes have recovered. It is much work, he would have to help you with everything you can't do on your own being blind.

Would that be fine with you? Will you accept the request?" The doctor now turned to Todoroki, asking him directly.

Izuku looked at him, too. Waiting for his answer, hoping with all his might that he would say yes. He held his breath, heart beating fast and he almost could hear the blood rushing through his veins.

Please say yes, please say yes, please say yes!

“Because you pulled the IV out. I can’t do anything about it, one of the doctors will need to.” Mostly because it took actual medical knowledge to set one up, which Shoto did not have.

He wasn’t right at all, he only knew sleep was a place where Izuku could no longer cry.

“I love you too, Midoriya..” He whispered, pressing a kiss to the top of his head. If only he could help the other, he would. However, Shoto was useless in this situation, nothing more than moral support.

“Rest well.”

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"I'm glad," Izuku murmured, feeling save and comfortable in Todoroki's embrace, so that he never wanted to let go. It just felt so right, to be close to him, to be able to feel him, be surrounded by the sweet scent that clung to Todoroki, probably because of all the time he spent with his flowers. Izuku didn't want it to stop.

"It is, I promise," he chuckled, slightly amused hearing Todoroki's demand but tightened his embrace when he picked up the real worry behind his words.

Izuku lifted one of his hands to Todoroki's head and hold onto his hair, pulling slightly only to brush through it gently afterwards.

"See, it's real. I'm real," he whispered into his ear, tilting his head upwards so that his lips brushed against his jawline, "and I'm not going anywhere to leave you alone ever again."

It was a promise as well as a friendly threat. So Todoroki knew what he had to expect. And also that he could rely on him.

"Should we get inside? Watch a movie and eat the pizza before it gets cold? I put my best effort into it."

“I thought you’d never ask.” He whispered, a little shocked that Midoriya wanted him - of all the people in the world - to be his. It was hard to believe someone so perfect wanted a person like Shoto.

Shoto was guarded and cold, not exactly the softest person, yet Midoriya still wanted him. It made him happy. No one had ever wanted him before, other than his family. Even then, they rarely spoke.

“I’d love to.”

He would. This was almost too perfect, surreal - it was as if it was a dream and he was going to wake up and Midoriya Izuku wouldn’t love him, wouldn’t even exist. 

The idea of that terrified him.

“If this is a dream, I don’t want to wake up.” Was it pathetic to admit? Probably. Especially with the way his voice wavered, the way his grip tightened around Midoriya ever so slightly. “Please tell me this is real.”

It couldn’t be, could it?