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Me: hey, why the hell is there suddenly religious headmates when we have a history of religious delusions?

God: Go take the industrial hemming machine from outside the hospital.

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Anyways, "its not easy being green" my ass, y'know how hard it is to be supposedly rich in a BROKE mans body. Especially when he doesn't allow half of us to do shit outside of the headspace. I have a job that doesn't EXIST.

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Gideon Graves ☆ He/Him ☆ plural ☆ Adult [both myself and my cell] ☆ NOT A RP/IRL/KIN/ ACCOUNT.

I get censored on my own blog by other certain people [Vinny] for literally any reason. I probably won't post super often, and they're the "main one" or whatever so they either don't let me do things outside the headspace. Catch a post before it's potentially deleted, I guess.

GENERAL DNI

MINORS. I don't want to interact with you. This blog isn't for NSFW or anything, I just don't want you here. shoo.

proship [or any other problematic variety] *, MAPS/Pedos, Zoophiles, racists** just be a decent person

GODDAMN ZIONISTS

DON'T APPROACH ME LIKE A GODDAMN CHARACTER.***

"Gideon Graves" Self shippers. nothing against you [again, idc] but I'm not a character, I'm a literal person. So, it's weird to see what's supposed to be me.

Further information below if you're interested

*I don't indulge in shipping or fandom stuff for that matter but get away from us, I don't want to listen to anything you have to say.

**even though y'all won't listen probably. We're still brown, I have no real race other than what my cell is.

***you can ask me stuff or talk to me duh, I'm aware that I come from a preexisting source even if I forget sometimes. Just don't tell me about fandom stuff, send me anything regarding the Anime and Movie "Gideon" or your interpretation of "me". You can still ask me questions even if I seem blunt, I'm only like this because I want to get my points across. If you have any questions on what's allowed, please ask about it before sending anything, I'd much rather have that. Just remember I'm not really my source.

Here's a post that hopefully explains it more

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I keep trying to post on here oops. This blog is probably no longer an askblog anymore, it's going to be personal now. Sorry for everyone who followed me for a silly Gideon ask blog but it unfortunately it's not really working out. Im not a kin or whatever, hopefully not a delusion. I doubt it because even when we thought I was a delusion, I didn't leave. But yeah, don't expect fandom stuff here anymore. Sorry.

I'll make a new pinned soon but unfollow if you wanna, follow if you feel like it. I don't care very much.

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also are you cool with Gideon blog admins interacting with you?/genq. I run a gideon account (if my rp partners see this I'm cooked😭) and the character I was speaking about in my last ask was gideon,which I really should have specified I'm so sorry!! If ur not that's totally okay btw!!

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IM CHILL WITH THE ADMINS INTERACTING WITH THIS BLOG!!

There's just general rules that apply to both of us [me and Gideon] I'm gonna have to update my pinned but it's just as long as you:

> Don't speak to/treat Gideon [my headmate] like a character.

He hates this a lot. It's weird because he's still connected to his source, he's aware that he's from a source and is technically a character, but RP stuff bugs him massively which is ironic given this blog lmfao. We're fine with general asks and interactions but the moment rp blogs get involved and try to rp with him then he gets pissy. It's hard to explain [especially since I don't wanna just throw like "triggers" out there.] But if I need to elaborate more, then I can.

> avoid sending us stuff about Gideon from the fandom. Seeing stuff from the comic is okay

If it comes to talking about the whole symptom thing and the fact that it happened with Gideon to us then we're both fine with it [assuming you'd continue interacting, if you do or not, it's all cool] A lot of the time he is kinda quiet unless he sees something that either intrigues or bothers him. He just hates seeing the fanon version of himself honestly. Any other Scott Pilgrim content is fine.

Like if you run a Gideon blog, I wouldn't mind if you're interacting with this blog since you're following those two rules even before they were said lol. It'd probably be jarring to Gideon if he saw like a pfp of what's supposed to be himself or anything but as long as anyone follows those two rules, then I think everything's cool.

I'm still also just trying to figure things out with the plurality thing so honestly, I might be inconsistent in the future regarding who could interact with "us".

Hopefully this all makes sense, my brain is scrambled all the time so if I said some confusing shit or need to elaborate then I can!!

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turns out I'm also a part of the role played as an evil character and got really manic and obsessive about the blog and started incorporating him as a majorrrr part of my personality and got really personal about something that was meant to be a shitpost club

(You don't need to reply but I wanted to speak to you since I feel less alone about things now so thanks)

-⭐️(on anon mode since I don't want to be made fun of)

im glad that my posts bring anyone some sort of reassurance cause getting these asks do the same for me ngl [a majority of the time irl, when I talk about anything which happens to be related to my symptoms or mental health, not a lot of people relate so they just pity me or treat me like I NEED medication so it's nice to see that I'm also not the only one who deals with stuff like this].

At this point there should be an online group or smth for us lmao, either that or i should bug my psychology professor about it since my only theory is that it relates to some form of dissociation but idk.

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if there were a club for people who roleplayed as irredeemably evil characters that which are a part of their identities outside of roleplay who they got manic about to an unhealthy degree and go between shitposting and feeling too personal and freaky about it all to even look at the blog, we would be the only two members, you and I

-your mutual romy who's on anon because spvtw fans scare me (answer this or not... I just wanted to express my solidarity🤝🤝)

OMG Romy!! Y'know I've thought about this a few times, starting from when the anime became relevant again and I think we had both lost our minds [in different ways sorta] when the Gideon fan base was like, 6 active people or something. Idk if for your case it was also Scott Pilgrim related but I swear Bryan Lee O'Malley put something in Gideon. Though I never mentioned anything in regards to expressing any sort of solidarity since I thought it would be too personal or smth lmfao 😭. [I also just don't know how to talk to people so theres that, but you seem pretty chill 💥💥]. Now I live with a Gideon fictive until he goes dormant, my therapist has heard it from him.

What irredeemable characters do to an mf /j

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posting this here as well

COMMISSIONS OPEN!!! [0/3 SLOTS TAKEN; PAYPAL ONLY]

HEYYYYYY I'm finally posting about my commissions to tumblr. I'm mainly active on Instagram so you can see much more examples of art there, so if you're interested in a silly drawing from me, you can message me directly both here or insta!!! There are 3 slots available and I will update everyone when a slot is taken.

Here are some of the commissions I've done so far!!

i can draw furries, i can draw humans, selfship art, whatever!! just as long as it follows my boundaries!! I'm not one to judge :3

btw since im 18 I might be able to take suggestive commissions, I need the money. Feel free to ask about it 18+ ONLY ofc, I just don't post examples publicly

if you have any questions don't be afraid to ask me either in comments or in DMs [here or my instagram]. Thank you so much for your time

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Nobody wants to hear this from a Gideon askblog but I'd rather get it over with than just leave it inactive or whatever. This is probably the most vulnerable I'll get on here so don't be fucking weird about it or anything.

Okay so I've experienced a specific set of symptoms since I was a toddler and I've only opened up to my [7th] therapist about it. I've been going to child therapy clinics n shit most of my life and the last time I opened up to one of them [idk which one or how old I was] they brushed it off as me just playing pretend or having an "overactive imagination". Which they should've looked into more than telling me to just cope with anxiety attacks. I have severe childhood trauma from abuse from ages 0-14 and a bunch of therapists would basically disregard it, when I was like 14 I had a whole ass psychiatrist tell me during my diagnosis that "they weren't gonna focus on my trauma cause clearly my 'anxiety' [which is really paranoia which therapists have also disregarded and only ACTUALLY acknowledge it recently] is worse". Well, those specific set of symptoms that I mentioned, I finally brought it up to my recent therapist. Ever since my last therapist who told me it was my imagination, I hadn't told anyone about it in nearly a decade probably. She told me that my symptoms basically overlap with OSDD/DID, but it wasn't my primary diagnosis [she thinks I'm schizoaffective instead since my bipolar disorder doesn't fit a specific type except for that one due to my delusions n shit. We're still tryna figure it out but I doubt I'm schizoaffective due to my lack of positive symptoms but it could just be me in denial idk, not important].

So yeah child therapy fucking sucks but what does it have to do with the Gideon askblog/ fandom??

Basically I wasn't just being cringe for having a house with different people in my head [mostly of fictional characters from what I know, as a kid I thought the fictional characters were cool even if some of them would hurt me but turns out I have other people who my brain just created and I never noticed], I literally had people in my head who were part of me and caused me to have multiple streams of consciousness. Idk when the hell Gideon actually appeared, but I know in 2022 or 2023 [I forgot when already], he became more active in my head. When I created this blog I was highly manic. I was literally telling my therapist that Gideon was the reason why I was manic and we thought it was delusion again but it didn't make sense since I mostly have religious delusions or whatever. I was highly manic because I wanted Gideon to be emotionally attached to me in my own head, when he arrived my head felt empty and he was the only person there. For a while I couldn't interact with stuff involving Gideon because I was so manic over him. Eventually I came back and tried continuing this blog, but this was the time the Anime came out. The anime's whatever, I can ignore it, but Gideon can't. He hates the way he was interpreted and sees that everyone's misinformed about him. The Gideon in my head is mostly based on the comic, so seeing anything involving him regarding anything but his original source, he gets defensive. It sounds cringe as fuck but unfortunately I have physical symptoms with mania and when I try to interact with anything regarding it, he gets stressed and stress triggers my manic episodes. Is it delusion?? Idk. Am I a system?? Idk, I'm probably in denial but yes I am Plural and acknowledged as such recently, it's jarring knowing I've never been just "one person". He lives with me until he disappears like everyone else who lives in my head. His existence is the reason why sometimes I wouldn't know how to answer his questions or would know exactly how but then come off as defensive which is why at times I could interact with other Gideon askblogs for shits and giggles but other times get annoyed from notifications of people trying to RP as "Gideon" interacting with this blog. This blog would stress the both of us one way or another which is why I just stopped. I can't lie and just say I'm fine with doubles or doubles dni, it's silly to me but maybe not to Gideon. I don't know, but this blog is open to everyone, just follow the general ruleset and we're probably chill. Being plural explains why I'm inconsistent with that stuff.

Maybe one day I'll be able to get back to it like a silly Qna or maybe I'll rebrand this account and just give it to Gideon to use as a personal blog. But who knows. If I sound cringe, whatever, sometimes I think my plurality is cringe from being shamed by other people or even me not understanding my own symptoms for a long time. I'll try to be open to questions one more time on this blog, you can ask me about whatever the hell this is, I'm open about it. As for Gideon, maybe asking him as a character was an innocent but wrong approach on my end, I don't blame anyone. If you have any questions directed to "him", please treat him like an actual person, not just a character. I could probably answer for him or something. He's someone who very much needs that respect and acknowledgement while some other people in my head probably don't care. But this goes for anyone interacting with any sort of system/plural that do have fictives, always keep in mind to approach them like actual people and not just fictional characters you think is cool. Most of the time this is literally our brains just trying to survive and are stuck in a dissociative state or whatever.

Sorry for being a yappatron, but one final reminder, he's not a delusion that I know of, I know he's not a "real person" but he is involved with my plurality. I've been seeing a good therapist that finally helps me for like a year or two and I do get reality checks from other people when they deem it necessary. Thank you for your time if you read all of this, being able to talk about this is important to both me and "Gideon".

TL;DR: I'm plural because of trauma and didn't know for a long time which is why I've been so on and off about this blog and interacting with anything Gideon related since he hates it [his source is the comics so he hates everything else]. You can ask questions about it but I can't guarantee this blog will be the same ever again now that I'm aware. Also treat systems/plurals with fictives normally .

How I feel as a fictive joining a roleplay as myself

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Coming out post I guess. I'm not even gonna use the fucking "OOC" thing anymore or whatever lmfao. I'm typing this out as "me" and not Gideon or anything, the whole thing is weird and I'm trying to get used to it. But yeah if I got a nickel for every time I've experienced getting mentally affected by Gideon Graves's existence in some sort of delusional or dissociative way I'd have two nickels.

How I feel as a fictive joining a roleplay as myself

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HR won't save you

CAN I BE INTERN?

THANKS YOU!

WHAT AUDIENCE AM I ATTRACTING?? first that deranged priest guy now clowns, though I shouldn't complain hearing that clowns gotta learn to work under pressure with the performances they give n all. hmm. it's better than the penis application.

alright, why not. you're hired.

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CAN I BE INTERN?

THANKS YOU!

WHAT AUDIENCE AM I ATTRACTING?? first that deranged priest guy now clowns, though I shouldn't complain hearing that clowns gotta learn to work under pressure with the performances they give n all. hmm. it's better than the penis application.

alright, why not. you're hired.

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Wrong.

But no. You can join my "guild" of Gideon impersonators though. I also need interns to hire, just don't get within 100 feet of me. But to be part of a Gideon polycule?? Hell no.

join

@gloriagravess @subspaceoverlord @gideongravesblog @gideonnotgordon @gideon7th @gideonisntgraves @askgideongraves @yanderegman

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And you are...??

join

@gloriagravess @subspaceoverlord @gideongravesblog @gideonnotgordon @gideon7th @gideonisntgraves @askgideongraves @yanderegman

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Is the picture accurate? Asking for a friend...

I'll say yes only if you find more interns for me to hire. Lately the headquarters has been hectic, doesn't help that it turns out that Catholic guy turned out to be real and not someone pretending to be him.

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I don't know which one of you sent me this but I hope you know that I will find your home address.

[flash warning]

The things I have to deal with

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Unfortunately enough, besides the other application, you're the only person who filled this out. I would say that you're immediately fired but there's a need for interns. You're hired, just don't burn anything.

I finally found a way to make this blog interactive