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out all day shopping for apartment stuff we almost just died but we ball

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anon I literally forgot to answer your question because I saved it as a draft 😭 I will answer friend

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anon I’m going to answer your question because I would love to talk about it :3 but I think as a basis for talking about my engagement I technically have to come out as bisexual I guess alshdbsn like . my fiancé is a man which neither of us certainly ever expected tbh but there we have it. I haven’t really even talked to him about my sexuality because I’m like still figuring it out as we go along but basically I am in love with him so that does necessarily exclude me from the previously identified with category of lesbian so. It honestly feels very weird because I have never been attracted to a man in my whole life and I’ve spent my entire adult life, teen years and a fair bit of my childhood as a lesbian so it’s strange to not be part of that anymore. I don’t know that I really identify with the term bisexual yet but I’m practicing that so I guess that’s what I’m doing right now. I don’t know if identifying with the term is a thing that will develop over time or not so I guess we’ll see! it’s really hard to talk about in a way that will satisfying other people’s curiosity because I think it would be much easier if I had been like “I had a sexuality crisis and now I’m bisexual and attracted to men!!” but that definitely didn’t happen and where I stand right now I literally don’t think I’m attracted to men as a whole, I am just in love with one specific man and the two concepts are tied in my head because I think it’s pretty much impossible FOR ME to feel so strongly about someone and not consider physical intimacy in whatever way you define that to be a part of it. anyways. I have some pretty weird feelings about my gender right now because (and I’ve talked about this on here before) my idea of womanhood was so inherently tied to my lesbianism that I don’t really know where I stand on that. my fiancé is a down for whatever bisexual and literally doesn’t care about anything like that so I’m not receiving like external pressure to figure it all out in a speedy manner which I appreciate a lot 😭 if anybody knew us irl you would think it’s hilarious that we have matching sexualities (and genders somewhat) because we match on things so exactly it’s literally like talking to Thing 1 and Thing 2 about stuff. anyways this was long and I didn’t proof read it at all for errors but yeah that’s the lead in to the anon question I’m about to answer thanks for listening 🫶🏻🙏🏻

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guys choerry was soooo beautiful in the Air video 🫶🏻 I know the blonde is melting her brain but I think she looks cute

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now that all (?) the ARTMS singles are out I’m going to do a poll 🎉

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must stress that we have literally no furniture and several boxes of knickknacks

fiancé moving into apartment today weeeee I can’t wait to put all my knickknacks in there

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fiancé moving into apartment today weeeee I can’t wait to put all my knickknacks in there

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But babe you love being gaslit

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my vision for wedding outfit is so deeply specific that I’m getting into the weedsie territory of possibly never being able to find something I like

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be pro-aging but wear sun screen. sun protection is not beauty industry propaganda it will save you. wear it. or else.

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GOWON 2024, Girls' Night

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