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old version below

i was 9 LOLL

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welcome to the extended sparklez family tree, aka for the love of god someone stop the mcyts from creating more family dynamics before this becomes a circle

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TSAMS Theory: Solar Flare wasn't real

So, here's the thing. Solar Flare's final exchange with Eclipse, when they're waiting to die, has this very painful and bittersweet part in it.

Solar Flare: You are not a good man. You are not a good person in any regard. But-- you did care. Even if you could never show it. You are just like him. Eclipse: Who? Solar Flare: The first Moon.

Oof oof ouch my heart. The art folks did with Eclipse having Moon's hat here was *chef's kiss*

But, wait. Hold on.

How the fuck would Solar Flare know anything about Old Moon?!

Consider the timeline. Eclipse builds Solar Flare, steals his body. Approximately 5min later Sun shows up to kill him. Eclipse gets away, tricks Sun into destroying Moon's magic circle. With no magic to find a solution to the looming threat of being trapped inside his own head, Moon makes the decision to reset himself to split off KC, and his memories are wiped in the process.

Solar Flare met Moon a grand total of once, for about five minutes, to sabatogue Eclipse (Eclipse's NEW BODY?!). He otherwise didn't talk to anyone at all. I actually don't think he ever met Kill Code, even, which opens a whole other can of worms like "Was Kill Code even aware Solar Flare existed? Did he forget he told Eclipse to make them?"

So here's my theory: The Solar Flare that Eclipse meets when he goes into the mindscape, the one that's keeping him locked in a dying frame and reads him completely to filth with terrifying accuracy? That's not Solar Flare. Solar Flare is gone, deleted.

The person that Eclipse interacts with is himself. His own subconscious, which knows every little insecurity and doubt he tries to repress. Who knows his past, the things that fuel him, the things he's ignored or discarded.

It's not a completely baseless guess. Sun suffers from stress-related hallucinations, mostly from his guilt regarding Bloodmoon, but about others as well. And later on, with the rebuilt Eclipse, he straight hallucinates himself to talk to shortly before Lunar blows him tae fuck. The rebuilt Eclipse is post-star, but he's not too far removed from the person who was dying in a bunker orbiting the sun.

And... isn't that tragic to consider? 'Solar Flare' prevents Eclipse from uploading himself into a new body. He prevents him from escaping this hell he's put himself through. And if that 'Solar Flare' is really Eclipse...

...then he's holding himself back. He knows, on a not very deep level, that he's done. He won but it's a hollow victory, because the person who's attention he craved, his self-proclaimed rival, is gone. The person who's replaced him isn't interested in starting a new rivalry. Eclipse literally doesn't know what to do with himself-- he has no goals, no other ambitions. Full Megamind 'I didn't really think I'd get this far" going on here.

And the star is killing him. He knows it's killing him, and he makes an effort to prevent that... but what good will it do to keep living? The star was only ever a means to an end, a motivating McGuffin to keep Moon's attention. Eclipse wasn't meant to win, and he knows it.

'Solar Flare' is just a mask, a plausible external individual to voice the thoughts that Eclipse is trying to ignore, and a fabricated companion because Eclipse has never been completely alone like this.

Really is a bit pathetic, isn't it?

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Y'all are amazing. Reblog to hug the person you’re reblogging from.

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a few days ago i was sitting in the car just thinking wow i love my partner so much more than i could ever put into words. i cannot imagine a world where we didn't find each other somehow. i cannot imagine a world where we met and i didn't love them this much, where i didn't love them more and more every day. i think they are the only person that could learn everything about me and still love me, and i think they're the only person i would let learn everything in the first place. i don't know exactly where my life is going to go but if i have any say in the matter i want them to be mine for the rest of it. i think we've found each other in every life before this and i can't wait to find them again in the next. i look forward to lives where i am a river and they are the shore, they are the pen and i am the ink, they are the sun and i am the moon.

i know logically there are people who don't understand how this kind of love can't be romantic, or who would think it lesser because it isn't. i don't understand those people either, because this is *better*. there's nothing star-crossed or doomed or tragic about this love story because i will always find them, and i will always love them.

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Sharp Remnants

You've always been so fragile. It's one of the things that I love most about you. You walk through life on tiptoes your touches ephemeral and unnoticeable. You don't want to cut anyone on your sharp edges.

And your sharp edges are all you have, seeing as your whole being is a mismatched mess of patchwork stitches and slathered-on grout and serrated pieces of who you used to be. You're barely recognisable as a person.

You, of course, know this. You know you're meant to be alone. But I find it in myself to disagree with fate. And though you won't let me, I'll cut myself on every single one of your edges.

In your barbed footsteps, I'll follow, always from a distance, but always out of sight. I'll pick up the pieces of yourself that fall off before you can glue them back into you. What's one more absence to you?

Slowly, I'll put together the fragments of you that I have into a disparate tapestry separate from you, beautiful in my eyes. It won't cut me like you will, but I'll be back in your orbit before long, you staying just out of my reach.

And no matter what I tell you nor how grand my image of you is, you'll back off. "I don't want to hurt you," you'll say. I'll hide my scars, pick up a sliver of you for my collection, and tell you, "You won't. You know that you already have.

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Auuugh I hate exposition I hate one set of characters getting another set up to speed

istg from now on if you weren't present you just don't find out about what happened to your buddies, sorry bruh

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The sheep has been here THE WHOLE TIME!!!

couldn't resist the Team ZITS game changer reference

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I’m a busy man. Got two caution signs to remind me to slow down sometimes. Got a vibrating megaphone. Clocks. Radiation. Four goats. Got half a tank of simple columnar epithelial tissue. 60% through my day. Half a tank of gas. And it’s only 10:50.

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This ambulance runs on treats

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PLEASE THIS IS SO FUCKING FUNNY

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Eclipse, do you even have a tongue????