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there is so much hurt and sadness inside of me and i have no idea how to control it anymore

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Damn I really can't get over shit that happened 9 years ago huh

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guys who put their knee between your legs while you make out with them so you can have something to edge on while his tongue is down your throat go straight to heaven

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Tits?

No

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I can't stay clean and I'm not sure I even care anymore

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via weheartit

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- Andrea Gibson

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do I still exist to you

quote submitted from new zealand // banner & photography by peytonfulford

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“my entire life i’ve watched my mother date and marry men i knew from the start were wrong for her. and the second i turned 15 i started doing it to myself. my father has been with his girlfriend since i was 8 and when i turned 17 he told me how unhappy he was. i am almost 21 and he is still with her, and now i am worried someone i love feels that same way. i constantly share posts about self love and shame girls who stay with their cheating partners. a reoccurring mantra that’s played in my head since the day i realized i was an option is “if you ever want to choose between me and someone else, don’t choose me.”

i always thought it would be so easy to love, to leave, to tell the different between right & wrong — even at the age of 8. but i guess when it’s yourself, your own heart, you understand why your mom never knew, why those girls stayed, why my father has yet to walk away. because love. because it’s so easy to say “im not an option” until you become one. until all you want to say is “pick me” and when they don’t you cry & scream that you’ll never do this to yourself again. you’ll think back to your mothers mistakes and your fathers anger, the hurt woman spewed all across facebook & instagram & how badly it hurt when you broke your lungs trying to catch your breath from screaming “choose me, choose me!”

and they still didn’t.

and you’ll do it again. you’ll fall in love again. and it will feel so different and worth it. and maybe one day it will be.”

— ADH (pick me..)

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My heart

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things will feel less heavy soon